Well, I guess you can say I’m contemplating suicide. I’ve been through a lot I suppose and I’m not sure how to handle it anymore. I’ve attempted suicide before, when I was around 11 or 12. I was too young to realise it took more effort then what I put in. And now that I’m older I realise that it might be best to just end my life. I know that I will hurt people, and that isn’t my intention, I love my friends, my family, my boyfriend. But I don’t want to lose my grandparent’s trust, or ruin my boyfriend’s life or not be […]
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im just tired of my life..having to wake up each day is such an effort! makes me not want to get up.. there’s an emptiness I cant explain and an isolation that crushes me every minute of the day. I know I’m depressed but nothing has really helped me.. don’t know why I’m still alive to be honest. if I die, maybe i’ll finally have an escape that I yearn for..
Hey everyone,
I’m new to this “posting” online to strangers but I guess we’re not since we all have something in common. Which is suicide. Recently my ex-girl friend left me completely, and she is out of my life forever now…. I fell in love with her again before it happened… torn me up inside really badly. After that happened, I fell into a dark depression and felt suicidal through the months since November 2013. I still am today and the thoughts are coming back. I let go […]
I don’t know what i’m doing with my life. Does anybody know? Like, Jobs said that life would have worked out looking backwards: it would have been a “connecting the dots” of all the little decisions made, and at the end everything would have become clear.
I think i will draw anything but a scrawl, when it will come my time. Everyone has his share of defeat but defeat itself has a meaning, that is the fight; what are we doing instead, me and my generation, drunk saturday, studying monday, working tuesday, wednesday married – how is it that these serial mass-produced lives could signify anything more […]
does anyone know of cheap or low cost help? my life is miserable and i’m miserable. i live in the middle of nowhere, i have no insurance and a crappy job. i need help but have no idea where to get it since i am poor.  any help would be appreciated.
7 years ago
I would of never thought that everyday I would wake up wishing I hadn’t
7 years ago
I would of never pictured myself skipping school because I was too sad
7 years ago
I would of never imagined myself hating my every existence, questioning why I was born
7 years ago
I would of never thought that I would be crying myself to sleep every night
7 years ago
I would of never seeked out a blade to spill my blood because I thought it was what deserved
7 years ago
I would of never seen myself attempting to take my life
But yet here I am
Cuts
Scars
Bruises
Bad grades
Pills
Abuse
Low self esteem
Who is this person I see in […]
I wasted 34 years of my life because of abuse, or rather they were stolen from me, first child and teenage abuse, in every possible way, then emotional abuse, neglect, indifference, put down, diminished, eradicated, what was an half-empty shell became a dead zombie shell. I freed myself … for a while. Sooner or later had to get back to the familiar, inviting more abuse, meddling with dangerous bad evil people, trying to fight, win…. in the end only time in company of evil, ugliness … monsters. Unable to stop it, overwhelmed and distraught, lost … so tired …exhausted… have had enough
Living like a loser, […]
What do I like? I love to daydream. Vanish into another world that only I know about. Escape from the struggles of reality and breathe easy knowing that nothing is wrong anymore. Everything is OK. I can picture a paradise, and fall deep into the unexplored realm of imagination. I can be separated form those I need no company from, and become closer with the people I want to love. The test tomorrow would disappear, and in it’s place would be adventure and a different life. A different life. An unattainable postulation, but a desirable one. A daydream can transport you away from stress and […]
I almost did it last night. I ALMOST took my own life. I can’t even remember when these thoughts started to take over my life. I feel like it has seriously been forever that I’ve wanted to kill myself. Every time the littlest thing would upset me I would automatically turn to suicide. I’m embarrassed and ashamed of the shit I pulled last night. I would never do it for attention; I’m just emotionally and physically drained. I feel even worse about myself because I know my friends were worried. I don’t know exactly what set me off this time, maybe it was just bad […]
So im 33 and have hoped my life would get better…the past week or so has proved me wrong and there is nothing left to be hopeful about.I have several health problems any of which could kill me at anytime.I have 3 girlswhoi lovemore than anything even tho only one talks to me anymore.Within a week or so after i postthis i plan on taking my life,i know its a selfish act but there really is no other choice.It feels good just to write this down thanks to anyone who reads.
first sorry for bad english
This is the last year of my life if i dont change my life in the next 11 months i gonna kill myself so this is my story i am 25 year old and weight 45 kg(i am male) i eat 4-5 meals a day but i dont get weight, most of the time i am mistaken for a 15 year boy and its driving me nuts nobody takes me serios or always makes fun of me i dont mind about when somebody make fun of me because living in this skinny weakling body made me funny(o i just tink […]
I’ve never really thought about typing this out, but after reading who knows how many of these post that have made me feel such I wide range of emotions, knowing how much they’ve helped me I figured maybe adding mine could help someone else out there.
Sorry for this part, I know it will be boring to read, I just want to get my whole story out there.
My name is A, I am sixteen years old. I have severe depression and anxiety and probably OCD. I’ve been bullied since 6th grade. I’ve been called just about every name in the book, but […]
I thought fuck this. I considered suicide. I looked on Google as I search Google for everything. I wanted a painless way to die but I couldn’t find one.
I didn’t want to feel any sort of pain or discomfort matter of fact I didn’t want my life to end I just wanted the bad stuff to stop. I still wanted to hang in my PJ’s all day, watch movies & eat junk. I just didn’t want the crap like expectations/
get a job
keep it
b successful
have children get married
I cant stand the depressions i keep getting.im on all these fancy medications and ive had 6 major depressions in the last year.sometimes i loose hope and just want to hide but i cant and its painful just to breath.does anyone else feel this way?
I just told my sister… Well she’s not really my sister but we call each other sisters… well anyway I just told her why she really means so much to me. She saved my life an I swear she’s saved it more than once but this one time was the biggest impact on me. I don’t think she fully understood why she means so much but I think she will now! I love her so much and I don’t think even you could understand why.
I still remember how boring and empty my life was before i met him , and how when we started getting together it was just for fun ,wasn’t planning to ever fall for him or think the way im thinking right now ,i fell so hard i was ready to do anything literally ANYTHING ,and then he slightly started to back off ,its like he did that in purpose he just had this need to kill someone mentally for no reason ,he just left me without saying anything after he started to act mean ,i know he’s not mean i just dont know why! He […]
I am young but have had the misfortune of having so many illnesses and ailments. At this point, I just want to die quickly and painlessly. Â It’s not that I want to die- I just don’t want to suffer for the rest of my life. Â Physically, I am fucked. Â What I have isn’t all going to go away and get better. Â So why prolong this endless pain and suffering?
I hate my life and I hate my cruel fate. Â I’ve already been made to suffer for so many years. Â Why must I suffer more?
Before I throw it all on this table, let me begin by telling about myself maybe it’ll give you a bit of perspective.
I was born in the early 90s to mediocre town I northern finland. My ‘family’ consisted of me, a father, a mother and an older brother. Travelling back there in my head sickens me. My childhood, if you can call it that, consists of bitter memories of my father ripping my hair off even from a slightest, honest mistake, like filling the dishwasher in a wrong way, or hitting me so hard that my ears rang just because i’d gotten a bad […]
been trying to hold this in for 9 hours … but my muscles hurt from my face to my feet from trying to disguise my body language and my brain hurts… i can logically divulge that things are moving in a good direction for me, soooo this makes no sense that i feel so bad. gawd what a damn struggle!!! its so exhausting to push myself through this day so far! i cant even… there are awful things happening to other people, not me, not anyone that i personally know…… why the fuck am i going through this?!? im satisfied helping out where im […]