The future is bleak for me. If ever I’m still hanging to this thin thread of existence I won’t be doing it for me. But then again, what’s my worth that I feel the need to stay for other people? All I bring is pain and hurt for other people. I am just a worthless peace of garbage, a malfunctioning half corpse that is better off dead.
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Gathered like sheep
Mindless like these walls
You’re expected to fit the mold
and kill with a blindfold
Devastated cultures
Justified by “protection”
This is how you win your elections
By occupying
These damaged homes
Generalized
To be a threat
To our privileged lives
Explain to me
The meaning of genocide
Cause in my eyes
That’s what I’m seeing
“So line em up
One by one
And some have fun
Killing everyone”
Who elected these right wing nuts?
With a bloodlust for every country that’s not like us.
(I tried hard to be proud of my service, but all I could feel was shame.
Racism could […]
So just had a huge blow out with my family. My mom fired me from work and I don’t know what to do. I always feel so alone when I’m home. Like I feel kinda invisible. They don’t need me. They have my cousins. They probably wouldn’t even notice if I died. I’m just a bother. A fuck up. They would be better off with out me. Maybe I should end it all. It would make everyone happier. I mean hell all I am is a disappointment.
It seems like forever since I’ve been on this website, and I pity myself for needing to come back, for needing to vent about something that never leaves, the follows me as close as my own shadow.
This feeling, this dreaded feeling is back, and as I try, day by day, to push it to the back of my mind, all it does is grow, feeding off my happiness.
I’m upset, so upset that it seems that all is going well, yet this feeling won’t allow me to feel joy, to feel anything besides remorse. I want to be the one who is always smiling, […]
I have drugs and alcohol. They’re like my fake friends. They are something that will never judge me, order me around, harass me. They are fake stimulation for this fake fucking world. Give me my beer and xanax and leave me the fuck alone.
“That must’ve been a doozy,” said Mrs. Bergeron to her son Melvin. “I think your ears are bleeding a little.”
Of course Melvin couldn’t hear her until the ringing subsided, but he could see that she was doing her best to show compassion.
“I’m ok, Ma. Gosh, that was a doozy.”
“That’s what I said,” she repeated. “Must’ve been a doozy.”
“What must’ve been?”
“I can’t remember,” she answered, shrugging as she had done so many times before. Being precisely at the National average level of intelligence, she didn’t need to wear a Brain Handicapper like her slightly-above-average-intelligence sons. So she could only guess what the loud disruptions sounded like–that […]
I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember – A Fake! Walking around…all smiles, but deep down I want to scream.I know, I know…gotta see the glass as half full and all. But then I ask why? I haven’t been suicidal but I’m also not “living the life”. I can try to pick myself up but at the back of my head I ask why. Its tiring. It seems I prefer to be a zombie. I dont have to talk that way. I don’t have to put up with pretenses. People pretending to care. People commenting on trivial shit because […]
dear fellow readers
I am trying to find some pills that will help me fall asleep to death. However, I do not know what sleeping pills are strong and how many i should take in order for me not to wake up? Do you have any suggestions what kind of pills I can take. I want to take some pills that i can easily buy from the store without a prescription, however I am willing to buy pills over the counter. Just need to tell me how i can convince my doctor to prescribe them for me.
yours truly,
danylost
I wish I didn’t tell my mom about how I self harmed, because I’m really feeling like I need to again. I get that I don’t actually need to the way I need water or food, but it sure feels the same fucking way right now.
I can’t work with my Dad anymore I can’t I can’t. How many panic attacks do i need to have before they realize that?
I’m you’re son… Not your employee.
I hate it there more than anything. And i don’t even have the choice to quit the job i never signed up for.
I’m not afraid of death anymore. The inevitable panic stage of dying is what scares me the most. I know if I swallow a bunch of pills, have my sweaty, shaky hand on the grip of a pistol pressing against my right temple, or if I decide to hang myself, those moments of waiting to die will be the absolute worst. All I know is that I need an escape, I need out, I need out of my body and my mind, need transcendence.
I’d like to think that reincarnation is real and maybe in another life I’ll be wiser and not make the same mistakes […]
I want you to fear me
Like a nightmare so obscene
I want you to crave me
And then watch me leave
I want you to need me
So I can vanish in the breeze
I want you to touch me
So I can cringe and retreat
I’m lying.
I want you to control me
Like a dream so obscene
I want you to keep me
And never let me leave
I want you to break me
So I crumble at your feet
I want you to touch me
So I can revel in the heat
i need a stranger to talk to. I cant do this anymore.
In the name of an addiction my best friend taught me to follow
I tried to stay positive even though I pretended it
It helped cause at home I was lacking a happy ending
Growing never knowing what the present was doing
Living life like a big mystery.
18, I knew I was done with it.
I cracked, cleaned up, and packed my bags.
Florida bound.
Swore I would never go back.
It’s a shame how fast time has passed.
Movin’ so fast
It’s like I’m moving at lightspeed
Slowdown..
You need to slowdown every once in awhile sometimes
To see how the world goes round
Cause you don’t know, you don’t
No, you don’t need to go so fast
So guys, I am moving on with my life and putting all of my depressed shit behind me and that includes this site. i need to delete my whole account but i cant figure out how. any help?
I tried to tell this teacher. I’m trying to get across that its not exams that are the problem. Its not me feeling ‘low’. I just don’t want to be here, not at school, I mean on Earth. How can she understand this? How do I tell her that although I like talking about how I’m feeling when I get home I feel guilty and selfish? As soon as I get home I feel pitied and angry at her and myself. What’s Happening?
You know all hope is lost when that one person you talked to doesn’t help any more. Doesn’t get it any more.
Please stop […]
I have been feeling this way for a long time now. I really don’t know why though, I wish i did. I feel like dying is the only option for me. But I can’t because my Mom needs me. I have tons of scars that I wish I could hide but I can’t since its the summer and its really fucking hot. Its hard to feel this way and want to die but you can’t because you know it will hurt the ones you love. *sigh* I really need to think…….
Anxiety, you’re an asshole. You don’t give me comfort and I’d rather see you go but you don’t. You’re trying to find happiness clinging to me? We’ll you can’t have it, it’s mine now and I refuse to hand it over. Who are you? To alter my life like it’s your own. We’ll I’ve had it, I’m about to let go of everything you’ve ever known. Why? Cause I don’t need you anymore anxiety, you’re tragic. Everywhere you go, you go bringing havoc. I’m done anxiety, trying to see while you blind me in the night with your fears. I won’t shed no more tears […]
The air suffocates me, room feels like a prison, city – like a cattle-pen. Any form of entertainment does not fill heart like it used to, it merely makes me forget my misery for a bit. And when I am alone – I can’t escape thought of suicide. No one have to love me. But still, I hoped that someone would. I tried to be a best person I could, but that was obviously not enough. I have a plan of easy death, still need some tests, though, to do it right. To avoid more pain, to avoid failure. But the plan calms me. I […]
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