So, I have two large tattoos on my arm that I fucking hate. One is a pink riot grrl tattoo with a skull and crossbones and the one underneath my arm says “stupid ******”. I already know that I am crazy it runs in my family. I was conceived in a state mental hospital. So I sort of am naturally inclined to fuck up already. which sucks because I am a transgender and I have a stupid ****** tattoo. and I really only got this tattoo out of self harm and too scare the shit out of people who would try to attack me for crossdressing. […]
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okay so I’m new around here so I’m going to introduce myself, I’m 14 and suicidal. I weigh 110lbs and I’m 5’3. I started self harming about 6 months ago but it started off very rarely however now I cut everyday, sometimes even twice or thrice a day. I think it’s safe to say that I hate myself and everyone around me does too.
I have friends but I feel like they just kind of tolerate me but don’t actually like me. My parents are both highly educated and my brother is super smart – he recently did his GCSEs and got 10 A*. My parents […]
I have been trying to walk up to the fact that i need to be hospitalized for awhile……i’ve even parked in front of huntsville hospital and walked half way in before turning around…..about to try again tonight
I’m just done. I really don’t know how to cope with anything anymore. My mom has been in a bad mood for the past week, because she is very stressed about christmas shopping. And of course whenever she’s angry, who does she take her anger out on? Her family. So her and my older brother were fighting about were the clicker was, and my mom got really angry. She was calling him a bastard, lazy ass etc. And my brother just said “Can you stop being a dick to me”, which he should never had said. She starts saying how terrible we all are then […]
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I’m a 15 years old girl. And I’m feeling like shit. I’ve been feeling very bad for quite a long time, but some days ago I couldn’t control myself. My mother was shouting at me, she kept on telling me the same things, while my sister was laughing at me and the entire situation. I shutted both up by suddenly hitting my mother in her face. She started crying, I ran away and locked myself up in my room before she could do anything else.
I hate myself! I don’t get it! Why do I always act so aggressively. This really isn’t me! I hate myself! […]
Any idea about what to take or do to relax to not think too much? Like a special drink or something? I really need to know.
i’m checking in tomarrow….and i’m really scared about it…..i know i need to though
sorry folks, tried again.having run out of time, with nowhere to go, and no way to exist, the desperation got the better of me.i remember blacking out. came to on floor, looking at the ex-wife. so beautiful. thought she was an angel. then it all came back. just another failure.i really do need to find a peacful way out. i cant take this anymore. their has got to be some peaceful way out?
Hey guys I had enough bullshit and stuff I don’t need. I have decide my suicide date. It’s on new years. But tbh I’ve been suicidal for as long as I can remember so I don’t need a reason to
Commit suicide, I need a reason not to if anybody cares they’ll try to stop me. If you do care message me on kik. My name is pleasedontgob. We’ll see from here
I don’t even know why I’m writing this. It’s my mind loop. These thoughts just run over and over again every day. I’m alone. I’m so alone. I have no one I can really talk to, and the people I do talk to I do because I don’t want anyone to suspect anything’s wrong. I stopped contact with all of my friends in September, so they didn’t have to deal with me anymore. Every day, I see all of them having the perfect life, and I want to go talk to them SO BADLY, but then I remember, they’re only having that perfect life because […]
People say only cowards kill themselves…they need a way out so they take their own lives. That’s not true people have so many problems when they hit bottom you would think the only way to go from there is up. Some people like myself mentally and physically can’t we don’t see no were to go…we once had a thing that pushed us to live, but that thing is no longer there. I’m going to be honest I think about killing myself at least once a day. To be honest again if I knew how many pills to take then I would be already gone…I don’t […]
ever feel like you’re losing everything? you watch from a distance, but even from another perspective, you can’t manage to make sense of what’s happening.
so you choose just one thing to hold onto. it doesn’t really matter what it is, but you make it mean everything, because you need something to stay. you need this one thing for the world to revolve around because if the world doesn’t have an axis then what the fuck. you’re too scared to let go, you might fall and you have no idea where you will land.
but happens when you start to doubt that one thing? when […]
we decide whether to be happy in our lives or to take everything in a negative way. I learnt a very important lesson in life which is to make people all my friends and laugh with them and have fun, but never tell your secret to anyone keep your secrets for you because some people will listen to you but then they will make fun of you. if you feel you need to talk just write o a paper what is annoying you . just be happy and don’t over think and try to be positive ..
My best friend, my ONLY friend, is dead. Gone. She left me. And I sat there and watched her die. I can’t unsee it . WHY DID YOU TAKE HER FROM ME? WHY HAVE I NOW GOT NO ONE? Stupid car crash. Why did I have to live? I SHOULD BE THE ONE THATS DEAD, NOT HER!!!!
Sara, I will forever love you and I need you. I really need you. I can’t forget you. You are my sister and I don’t understand why you had to go and I get to live.
She is gone. She is not coming back. I’m alone. Not a soul. I […]
I can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t need to do this anymore. So why don’t I just leave, everyone hates me. I’m worthless and pointless so why don’t I just end my life while I still ge the chance
it hurts to have a roommate who thinks that people are weak for getting help for their mental problems. i have tried and failed on that front, but there are so many people who need it to survive and function normally. i also suspect that her opinions are heavily based in her masking her own mental health issues, which to me are very apparent (i want to say she exhibits signs of either borderline personality or bipolar). yesterday when she came back she told me that she “made a friend,” whatever the fuck that means. she made a friend, nonetheless, and this friend apparently attempted […]
I know I barely post here anymore, but I still come back every now and then to read your stories. I recently read Shephard’s goodbye. He was a great friend to me a while back and I lost contact with him for a while. I need to know if any of you have had contact with him since his final post. I sent him an email, but haven’t had any response. And I know I may not hear from him for different reasons… But I just need some closure. It’s killing me. Please, if anyone has heard from him, or knows if he’s still with […]
“SoCal, Belly, West-Coast, The Morlocks”
But still the sun shines
I don’t know, I don’t know
What I can find
The only way to follow
Is through another spirit
But I seek from the dark
The gold, the gold heart
Still on to a next sound
I’ve sung for three-hundred days
What more can I say in my abyss
I want to move forward, to evolve
I need a friend
The crevice of the beast in the web
I seek the golden, I am the iron
And there is a poison that destroys
Truth-reality, essence of Gaia inside of me
I listen to the flower of the […]
I’m fucking tired. So tired. Sick of the daily struggle.
Everyday, relentless. It just Dosnt end.
Sitting here, loaded shot gun. I can make it all end. Fuck it why not.
One decent reason I don’t wanna go alone.I fucking hate the lot of you. Every ****. I should take you all with me.
Stuck at a job I hate, get no respect.
The women I love. Toying with me. She asked me if I was gay today. Fuck me.
How did life get so fucked. How did I end up here.
Fuck it, burn in he’ll you pack of miserable cunts.
I’ll meet you there.
My selfish enemy
Still has the best of me
Empty and feeling numb
Wish I could take it away
I can’t control the need
To weak to not concede
Wish I was deaf and dumb
Wish I could fake it
**Seether**