For most of my life I wished i was never born. I’ve never seriously thought about suicide methods as it was something i thought i couldn’t do.
Last night i felt myself taking a step closer towards the act. Although I’m not quite ready yet, the thought of knowing relieved my pain a little. I could see an end to my misery, whereas before it was indefinite.
I’m not posting this because i need attention. I just have no one to say it to and i need it.
Im doing my best not to cut. Been clean for years.. But i know that the sight of blood would calm me down…
I feel as if there is so much hate and anger inside me that i need to release some of the pressure.
I cant cut… Not because i want to live.
I cant cut coz im saving all my strength for aug 23.
I gave myself a chance and delayed it for as long as i could… Thats going to be my final day.
Just a few things on my mind and I may seem harsh but reading some of these comments are making me ill. Your all encouraging each other to take your life’s? Giving each other options for easy ways out? I have been  in the exact same situation as many of you&it does get better. We don’t need to encourage each other to take the easy way out. We need to be sharing some fucking hope! So if I come across as harsh, it’s because I generally care.
First of all, I don’t give a shit what anyone says; There is no reason why  you should take […]
i know this is such an idiotic thing to ask but I wonder how to change my picture? could someone help me? please? i badly need to change my pic, it doesn’t suit me
ok so I get this website is made to vent to other suicidal people and to get help on easiest ways to kill yourself and just a place you feel like you can go to when you’re feeling suicidal I’ve came here before looking for easiest ways to kill myself and read a lot of other people’s stories and I went through the phase of wanting to end my life. That phase started when I was in the second grade I gave all of my friends my things and told them I wouldn’t be back and went home and tried to stab myself multiple times […]
Took a personality disorder test and these were the results. Here:Â http://similarminds.com/cgi-bin/newpd4.pl
Paranoid
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79%
50%
Schizoid
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72%
40%
Schizotypal
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100%
56%
Antisocial
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82%
46%
Borderline
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73%
45%
Histrionic
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33%
52%
Narcissistic
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31%
40%
Avoidant
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98%
48%
Dependent
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76%
44%
Obsessive-Compulsive
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25%
45%
Paranoid Personality Disorder – individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening; preoccupied with suspiciousness/paranoia. They are stuck between their need for others and their mistrust of others.
Schizoid Personality Disorder – individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings; emotional zombies who stopped feeling due to trauma(s) and/or can’t feel due to organic depression
Schizotypal Personality Disorder – individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior; preoccupied with seeing themselves and/or the world […]
This is my first post on any suicide blog. I’ve tried to talk to people before but they don’t seem to understand and I’m looking for someone who does. I’m a 12 year old girl. My age is another reason why people don’t listen they think I’m to little to be going through this kind of stuff but it can happen at any age. I wanted to share my story to people who might actually listen. It all started when my mom told me about my friend who cutted I didn’t know what cutting really was but I found out. My first cut was small. […]
i need help doing this.. i cant kill myself on my own no matter how much i want to. the pain is just too much. i always think about who id be leaving behind. but wouldn’t they just be better off without me?? I’ve fucked up too much for anyone to have to deal with me. i can’t even fucking deal with myself anymore. i need a fucking escape but i don’t know how to do it… someone help me PLEASE!!
Hello guys 🙂 I just want to say that I am over with depression and that I believe that is something out there.I recovered my faith again. It’s impossible that a hardcore suicidal guy like I was to recover so quickly. God exists and it’s never too late. And I am not keeping this only for myself.
God dosen’t encourage laziness and dissapointment, you need to get up there and fight whatever the conditions are. God encourages work and being helpful with eachother.
So, go out there, get a job, pray, find a gf or a bf and you’ll see that everything will be allright. I am […]
They make me feel better Ă©motions-wise but it’s fake, it’s all fake feelings made by some white fucking pill; escitalopram. It doesn’t stopy my suicidal thoughts either, they’re not based on emotion. I don’t want them gone though, they comfort me in times of need. I want to explode. I will explode. I’m fucked.
I’ve got it worked out in my head
I may go tonight
But i need a bottle of something –
If it works, goodbye…
Life, you are a fucking cruel joke
I’m DONE
Why should I keep living if all I’m going to do is die? Yes I could make a difference in this world but all of our hard work is going to be forgotten when we and our planet dies. I suppose to take pills every day just to help stop the sadness but it is the only feeling that is on repeat and comes a lot. What is so good about being happy or normal? Happy and normal are just words. So why does everyone strive so hard to be happy or normal? I am not saying I don’t do this I don’t but I […]
Hi i need the best way to die, without pain. Please dont try to preach to me i dont have family/friends or anyone by my side so dont use that line on me. But please anyone asap i do not want to live for another week.
i need resources to help me find a quality job. if anyone has knowledge on resources to help me, please let me know. seriously. i can send my email address (to anyone who is serious)), and tell you what i kind of training i have. please let me know,  thanks a bunch.
My mother tells me I’m selfish but she doesn’t know that I didn’t kill myself yet just because I didn’t want to hurt her.
I really need a therapist, I’m constantly telling my parents I need a therapist, but they keep telling me to tell them my problems and the don’t fucken understand. Like they can’t take a hint. They don’t want to get me a therapist because they don’t want to pay the money.
If only they knew I was suicidal.
Haven’t been on in a while, but here’s a thing from forever ago. Memories are bittersweet.
You’re my weapon of choice when I need to be defended. You’re the stronger side of me when I feel like breaking. You’re the tougher one of us when I can’t fight on. You have the sharpest tongue when my words fail to come.
You’re a source of comfort when the world is harsh. A shoulder to cry on when hope seems lost. You’re someone to hold when I feel alone. A sound voice when I’m out of control.
You’re a flower in the snow trying to survive. You keep your head […]
Who knew that your worst enemies are the ones you’ve spent your whole life with. The ones closest to you. Who you’ve love to death and learned from. Who you’ve trusted the most. Who would’ve guessed they would be the ones to cause the most destruction in your life. Sometimes when you are at the peak of self-destruction and just need a push off the cliff.
my life is so empty. i don’t have friends. i don’t have a relationship. i have no love in my life. i need to be loved but i’m too ‘weird’ and ‘ugly’. i’m tired of people telling me to love myself. i don’t need to love myself, i need to be loved by someone else. i cannot stand to even think about if i have to spend the rest of my life alone. i’d have to kill myself. a lot of people would think that’s overdramatic, but it’s true. you know how some people need music and some need good food and some need art […]
People. I’m a teenage female, and I suffer from seeing some of you so helpless. If you want someone to hear you and talk to you, you can contact me on my kik account – my username is the same as here’s, as I think you can see who the author of this post is – and my email. Search for my username on kik or send me an email at paiyra98@gmail.com. No, you won’t be bothering or disturbing, you can be sure of that. If you want someone to be friends with (well, an Internet friend, at least), don’t hesitate. I’ll listen and talk […]
The future is bleak for me. If ever I’m still hanging to this thin thread of existence I won’t be doing it for me. But then again, what’s my worth that I feel the need to stay for other people? All I bring is pain and hurt for other people. I am just a worthless peace of garbage, a malfunctioning half corpse that is better off dead.
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