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Over did it…

by PhantomShadow 2/1/2014

written by PhantomShadow

I’m in agony right now…every movement is pain and I know it’s going to be ten times worse tomorrow morning.Â Hopped up on myprodol, tramacet and coxflam and not even a slight improvement.Â If this keeps up, I’m gona accedentally suicide on the pain-killers…though I fear it might turn into full blown attempt if the pain gets any worse…and it’s going to.Â The fact that I am burning up from the widespread inflammation doesn’t help either.Â I’m hot, sticky, in agony, miserable, unable to move and confined to my room so I can turn on the fan…family is actually feeling cold…I’m feeling like I’m boiling.

I […]

2/1/2014 4 comments

Bad relationships

by whitewinterhymnal 1/31/2014

written by whitewinterhymnal

It seems to be a lot easier to share things here than it is in real life, so- to mark the fact I have put on half a stone (which makes me feel quite disgusting) I really wanted to share my depression and eating disorder story. There’s definitely a lot more to it than an emotionally abusive relationship, but that’s the shortest, and easiest, explanation. I must have been about 14 when I first started going out with this guy. I was at that awkward age where I was terribly unsure about myself and hopelessly desperate for acceptance. That acceptance came in the form of […]

1/31/2014 11 comments

shallow water

by lissbabe 1/31/2014

written by lissbabe

what is the problem with leaving me be why is it i have to stay downstairs in a room with an adult why is it that school is my hell hold but when im home thats my mental hospital, why cant i just be alone in my room sliting my wrists why cant i just be who i am and not be changed by the people who dont even give two fucks about me they are just scared of me incase im mental and insane because they dont understand this pain but they just have to change me and have to think about how safer […]

1/31/2014 1 comment

No More Appointments?

by JiminyCrispies 1/30/2014

written by JiminyCrispies

December was when I had my last appointments with my therapist and psychiatrist, and that is when they said they’d send out new ones in the new year. A month later and I’m still waiting for the letter. So I decided to call up their offices, to find out whether they’d made one and I just hadn’t got the letter.Â Turns out they haven’t even fucking made one with me.Â What a nice way to find out even my psychiatrist and therapist have given up with me, a fucking phone call with their receptionist. I don’t even know if this means they’ve discharged me or […]

1/30/2014 1 comment

broken

by brokenanchor 1/30/2014

written by brokenanchor

Yesterday I was told by my last close friend that her mom doesn’t want me coming over to her house anymore and I don’t know why its like she doesn’t trust me. Right now I just don’t know what to do because all my other friends have gone of to varsity and I’m just at home feeling like a piece of crap. My parents aren’t paying as much attention to what’s going on with me as they should because I’m really losing it. I want to just shoot my self in the head and just end this misery because I’m literally dying inside…I have no-one…everyone […]

1/30/2014 1 comment

Attempts to relate – v

by quaero 1/30/2014

written by quaero

Â THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA

THE FLIES IN THE MARKET-PLACE

Flee, my friend, into your solitude! I see you deafened with the noise ofÂ the great men, and stung all over with the stings of the little ones.

Admirably do forest and rock know how to be silent with you.Â Resemble again the tree which you love, the broad-branched one – silentlyÂ and attentively it overhangs the sea.

Where solitude ends, there begins the market-place; and where theÂ market-place begins, there begins also the noise of the great actors, andÂ the buzzing of the poison-flies.

In the world even the best things are worthless without those who representÂ them: those showmen, the […]

1/30/2014 1 comment

To me, it’s really simple

by Sogazu 1/28/2014

written by Sogazu

In the world of gaming, especially for the RPGs, you get to erase your character if you fucked up your character build.

I think it’s the same here. I’ve been living wrongly and I don’t see any patch is going to happen to save it so I wanna erase my character.

The only difference is there’s no ‘start new game’ feature here but even if there was, I don’t think I’m willing to start it all over again.

1/28/2014 4 comments

Keeping Faith

by Johnson Dominae 1/27/2014

written by Johnson Dominae

Just read a highly inspiring post called “Why are you still here?”. That is a great question, why are we (hurt, abused, heart broken, destroyed, ready to give up on life) still here? Everyone has a reason, everyone has a PURPOSE. It took a lot for me to find that out. I’m pretty depressed right now, it has actually gotten worst as this new year came in, nothing has gone right everything is turning for the worst. Dreams, memories, everyday experiences all going wrong. Came on here to read over my posts to see how far I’ve gotten, but that one post caught my eye […]

1/27/2014 4 comments

Forgive Me.

by 4getMeNotLorelei 1/26/2014

written by 4getMeNotLorelei

Forgive me for not seeing your view of the abnormal fantasy.

Surrounded by walking feelings, of carefree and feel good sentiments.

Unaware of reality, not knowing how to live in the “now”.

Those tormenting thoughts, echoing the same questions to you, “why..”, and “how?”

Oh forgive me for what I have done…

forgive me for carelessly hurting you..

forgive me, for forcing a new life onto you..

for wanting to prepare you for the true pains of life..

I wanted to release your beauty, in it’s true form, but failed to realize on time, that it just can’t be.

Never again, will those pains bother you.

Never again will the dreams of pure hearts be […]

1/26/2014 0 comment

by ah1998 1/26/2014

written by ah1998

it’s happening again. I thought I could move and everything would be better. I’ve tried. I’m exercising, I’m in a new location, I have new friends, I’m pretty, smart, talented, etc. what the fuck is wrong with me
I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t do anything. except sit here and feel sorry as fuck for myself. because that’s all I am is sorry. I don’t know how I’m gonna get better. nothing is working. I can’t do it alone. I need some sort of medical help because this shit isn’t working. I wish I could leave myself. like it’s so easy for […]

1/26/2014 4 comments

11:24 p.m.

by terribly 1/26/2014

written by terribly

I found this website when I Googled ‘suicide starvation’. Some sick part of me wants to thank the people who’ve written about such topics, as I’ve never found a website that made me feel so secure before. Reading the stories and other bits on here has given me a new light to look to. One where I’m not as alone as I once believed to be.

I don’t have much else to say right now. Now’s not the time to share my story, and I’m doubtful of anyone wanting to be bothered with that anyway. It seems we all have our own problems to deal with […]

1/26/2014 1 comment

Exam day

by sbkstep43 1/25/2014

written by sbkstep43

Okay it’s Saturday………Exam day oh yeah but guess what police came to my house at 7 in the morning to take my parents car (we got them but back ) I had a huge panic attack I hate police so much and I had to go down there and now all my neighbour know my family is in debt ……………….oh yeah I meet my new therapist I kinda like her ………..gone to study before the exam thou wish me luck imma need it

1/25/2014 0 comment

We grow by suffering.

by VanityAtItsBest 1/23/2014

written by VanityAtItsBest

I hate when people say that, too much pseudo-science and New Age ideologies are floating around and causing people to think that their suffering is a product of manifestation that somehow, their “soul” has made a contract with before coming to earth. If you believe in that new age shit, or even Christianity, all of it is filled with lies & hypocrisy. “You create your won reality” my ass, bio centrism doesn’t prove shit.

1/23/2014 4 comments

Not a fit

by xitsdeadmex 1/22/2014

written by xitsdeadmex

â€¢ I’m really annoyed, I can’t take this any longer I just can deal with another person telling me there problem when I have 10 billion of my own already , I was called fat today, and ignored flicked off and all this shit but that’s part of a new environment rigt ? Well I hate this new environment , everyone is way different from me, our cultures way different they’re high class I’m middle which to them , is low. And it’s like i literally moved into that one movie of highschool with the mean cheerleaders and weird shit but seriously what the fuck. […]

1/22/2014 4 comments

Start.

by purplepain 1/22/2014

written by purplepain

Hi there, fellow SP’ers!

We all woke up today, started a new day, and have been breathing up to this very moment, that you’re (hopefully) reading this. Keep it that way. I’ll try to.

I’m new here, had thought of joining the blog for some time now, after reading post after post and seeing how everyone supports and helps each other on here, and today I finally joined. So, you there reading this, just accept my gratitude for you being a part of this, because every person that has felt the way I do knows how to appreciate how big this is.

I’ll try to keep writing regularly. […]

1/22/2014 15 comments

Day 10

by LetItGo 1/21/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Yes I posted yesterday…. It was a bit earlier than normal… Sorry.

So today. Today was an sdjkjsskfjk day. Nothing really exciting happened… Well I guess I shouldn’t say that. A new semester began today at school. Which means a new schedule. Which means new seats. And new teachers. Well of course in one class guess who I get to sit by for a whole semester (about 90 days) MY BULLY. Wooo…. Not. So that’s that. On the bright side I moved to my honors English class :D.

So yeah. How am I doing? Emotionally: Unstable. Physically: In Pain.

I don’t know how long I […]

1/21/2014 5 comments

I’m new…

by ShyTurtle12 1/21/2014

written by ShyTurtle12

Hi…. I’m new to this so yeah

1/21/2014 11 comments

This is me!

by Aime 4/3/2013

written by Aime

You can’t change me, I won’t let you. Yeah, sure, you have a better chance, you win all the time. You don’t know who I’m talking about? Fucking society. Why doesn’t it just fuck off. I don’t need it and I certainly don’t want it.

But I digress,
I’m new here.
Support would be great. x
I’ll support anyone who listens â™¥

4/3/2013 2 comments

New

by Sammie_Baby 4/2/2013

written by Sammie_Baby

Will someone explain to me how this site works..I just want to figure all of this out before I start using it.

4/2/2013 3 comments

new here

by soothing 12/14/2012

written by soothing

Hello happy and sad people,

I’ve been reading threads on this site for almost two years now. There were so many posts I could totally relate to the stories. Call it paranoia, I didn’t join this site until yesterday for fear of being monitored considering many folks are on a witch hunt to shut down or debunk Web sites like this one. I don’t want fuktards attempting to track me and feel like its their mission to “save” me.

Sometimes I’m at a point where I don’t give a fuck anymore. I feel it’s time for me to share in this community. Very recently a manager took […]

12/14/2012 4 comments

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