Do you feel better? You look pretty good today. Do you feel better than yesterday? For the past two days you have been looking better. Do you feel better? You want to feel better right? Do you feel better? Do you feel better? Is it better today? Hi, do you feel better? Is it better now? Do you feel better? Is it better? You look better, do you feel better? You want to feel better right? Do you worry about the future? You will feel better in the future right? Because you want to feel better in the future right? You want to feel better. […]
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Everyday nothing seems to change
Everywhere I go I keep seeing the same old things
and I, I can’t take it no more
I would leave this town, but I,
I ain’t got nowhere else to go
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Wake up in the morning to more,
more bad news and I
sometimes I feel like I was born to lose and I,
It’s driving me out of my mind
Gonna catch the next train and I
move on down the line
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I’ll be ready now
I’ll be […]
Although I may never commit suicide
I spend parts of each day thinking about suicide –
Thinking about how I lack the courage to do it.
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I wake in the mourning with 60 per cent depression.
That’s how it remains for the whole day,
Except for the odd occasion in a year
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In the doorway or on the street I meet by chance
For a few minutes a woman passing-by
Who has the time to stop and talk for three minutes
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Or five minutes or even sometimes seven or eight minutes,
Who rocks back on her heels in her pink, hooped skirt
With laughter, no matter what the topic.
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Depression and despair are two different states
Of mind, […]
Just as dry summers pant for the first rain,
so thou art thirsty for a happy home
and for a life remote, like hermit’s prayer,
a corner of forgetting and of love.
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And thirsty for the ship upon the sea
that ever onward sails with birds and sea-things,
filling its life with our great planet’s light.
But unto thee both ship and home said: ”No!
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Look neither for the happiness remote
that never moves, nor for the life that ever finds
in each new land and harbor a new soul!
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Only the panting of a toiling slave
for thee! Drag in the market place thy body’s
nakedness, strange to the strangers and thine own!”
From the poetry collection ”Life […]
I wont say names and I wont say ages, it’s difficult enough to even type this sort of stuff.
Within a span of 4 months my life changed dramatically. My father passed away and I was assaulted by peers older than me.
I wasn’t sure how to communicate what happened. My father dying, people I thought I was safe around. How can you tell your family or your friends about any of that and have them understand how you’re feeling?
Sure they could have been through something similar or close to your experience, but every experience is different. You don’t get assaulted by the same person/people. You […]
gooey golden puss leaks out of black hole cavities dug into the bone mixes in with bright red spurting blood from pasty skin. i hope it crusts over encompasses me crystallizes over mushy sores and infected flesh wounds. the red bursting across the whites of my eyes, framed by purple blue sleepless night etched into the skin, leaks.
would you rather die from the inside out, or the outside in?
all the bleach i swallowed to kill the mold growing along my thin bile bag makes it so talking is impossible. leap into flames sparked by the kindling in everything you don’t know, create raw […]
Portraits of pain
Painted in
That pretty little head of yours
The wasteland
That all your dreams tour
You sweat it out
The sheets are soaked
Your intentions cloaked
Constantly
Presenting falsities
Expected by society
The world left senseless
By its rose colored lenses
Now reality starts to set in
This life and all its dirty little sins
The truth behind the scenes
Uglier than the face of disparity
Portraits of pain
Calling out
That tiny little
Voice inside your head
The […]
Years have gone by already since I died. I’m not saying I’m a ghost, but I’m pretty close to being one. My family’s all buried in their graves. My step-father thrown in prison. And I’ve died along with it. It’s not like I want to suicide. Life’s okay. But I don’t see the point in living though. No one’s ever gonna be able to watch me grow up. The rest of my extended family has shunned me, and I’m an outcast to them. If there was something I could do about this, I would. I have lots of close friends who know my story, but […]
i finally asked the question lurking in my heart for weeks since our break up.. since the moment he asked me out. I asked his best friend.. ” he only wants me for sex.. doesnt he?..”
cody: yes but dont tell him i told you this.. he likes six other girls and when you didnt put out he broke it off im so sorry.. just forget about him please.
Rape victim and now played by the guy i loved most. I’m only a sex object. Thats all people […]
This is me and my x boyfriend. I met him at a party he was the first guy i was truely happy with. I love him so much i was willing to give up everything.. even my virginity. but we never made it that far. When he got a job he started to like another girl. Weeks past and i noticed he was distancing himself from me, one day i asked him ” what time do you get off tonight” and he snapped saying “why do you […]
When i made this cut i was scared. I had just traded an ounce of weed for a brand new box cutter, a kid bought me from home depot. Stupid i know i could have got it myself but with your dad watching you every moment of the day it was kinda hard. I said it was for protection.. protection from my thoughts.. but he gave it to me. No other questions ask even knowing my history.
I went home a couple days past and then me and my parents got in a huge fight. […]
.. Have i ever thought i’d get to this point no.. im only 14 why am i here. What did i do to deserve this. I guess this is the time i’d share my story right? Exsplain it all get it out, wipe my slate clean. But im sure none of you care to hear my story. So if you dont stop reading, its not gonna be a happy one.
I was 3 when my mom kidnapped me, she abused me every day tried to kill me once out of jealousy, cause after i was born no one gave her attention anymore. Great mom right? after […]
Dear who I lost,
I miss those talks we had, about the future. How one day you were going to get down on one knee and make me yours forever. How you’d come home and find me running round in the kitchen trying to impress you with some fancy cooking. How when I called you to the table, your feet wouldn’t be the only ones tapping towards me, but other, but smaller ones. I believed that one day it would happen, and I looked forward to them, I looked forward to spending my life with you.
You were perfect, I’m not just saying that to you, if […]
i have nothing. i have no one. i thought you cared, but i guess you don’t. and no one else does either.
i’m worthless. i can’t even take myself anymore, i just want to die. die, and just never feel anything anymore. i’m sick of feelings, i’m sick of these feelings. i want them to go away. the only way i can do that is to die.
i’m tired of everyone’s thoughts about me. look what i’ve become. are you proud that you’ve made me feel completely horrible once again? are you happy i’m drowning in my misery even more? does it make you smile to see […]
for about 5 years now i have had a struggle with depression, and only in the past 2 years or so have people found out about it. i’ve attempted to kill myself several times but never found the strangth to do it.
when people first found out about my depression they where absolutely shocked. It didn’t make sense to them, i was always the one helping other people with their problems. Hell i wanted to be a social worker or child psychologist for the sole reason of helping people with those problems. But now…. now everything just looks bleak.
today after a fairly minor argument […]
I hAte my life. No one ever tries to listen and I feel worthless. I hVe nger problems and maybe depression and bi-polar. My mom tries to make it work between us but it always goes wrong. We fight everyday. She never Gets me help with my anger. Everyone gates me and can’t stand to be around me. I’m not trying to make them hate me I’m not saying mean things. I’m just being me. No one ever listens or even tries. The next gun I see im going to shoot myself in the heart or brAin! Which ones faster? My dad never wanted me. […]