Hello guys am 20 years old am here cause I don’t have anyone else to talk to been with my girlfriend for 4 years i I can honestly say she was the best thing that’s ever happened to me and we been broke up the last week it was the most hardest thing that I ever experienced I drunk ever day since it happened just so I can sleep at night plus I’ve only eating twice since it I actually don’t want a life without her yous might just think am goin thought a breakup am not I’ve experienced them before but nothing like this […]
I’m trying to stay grounded, to not let this silly thing get to me, but I can’t. Writing is the only thing that is keeping me from hurting myself and even then I struggle to find my words. Everyone keeps telling me the same thing, that this guy was a douche or some other name, but I want to know why such a nice guy would say the cruelest thing to me the morning after such an amazing day. I was blind sided I thought things were going well he was sweet and never rude to me until this morning. I want to know what […]
This is my middle part of the story of how I started being suicidal….
So, After A few years, like.. about more years? Yeah. Well, I was ten and I started listening to new metal.. like Pierce The Veil (PTV), Sleeping With Sirens (SWS), Blood On The Dance Floor (BOTDF), Falling In Reverse (FIR) And Etc.
Yeah, and well the only reason why I was listening to that kind of music was because I got tortured by everyone around me… Even the people I loved…… My sister, My mom, My dad, And Even my “Friends”.. When I realized they never loved […]
So today was (…)
This year.. This year I can’t say I wished for a lovely husband, or for a perfect GPA, or to be a good cook or to have a pleasant job or whatever.. This year I wished I’d die,, That’s what I wished for.. Success is nothing when you’re alone.. And I figured I might be alone for a long long time.. That’s why God made me the only girl.., and it wasn’t just me so that my parents will have no one but me and they’ll be obliged to spend more time with me and by that I wont be alone.. […]
those of you who know the character in the play hamlet know what happens to her. it sort of sums up what is going on in my mind. as in i feel like i am losing it. the swing of emotions i am experiencing is exhausting. anger, deep sadness, tears that come from nowhere, and an urge to kill myself. while i am supposedly making progress by letting myself express these emotions, it is the unpredictability of the whole mess that is getting me. i have been suicidal since i was a child so of course that will emerge from the pit as well. i […]
For sometime I believed suicide was wrong and that what they say is true its only for a spell. But I doubt that now, I have watched several videos were people committed suicide and I felt their pain and cried. I guess for so long I thought I was alone and I said nothing but I see we all cry and no one says anything. I think just as we make our path we can decided to leave. No one wants to be alone and hurt, everyone wants to be hugged and loved, but I guess God or whom ever is up their only gave […]
I have no one in my life and im all alone.
My entire life I waited for something some blessing some good luck never got it. I was the girl who went to prom alone you know the nerd girl no one wanted. I have dated but all ended badly. I have a set of twins by a man who raped me. I was forced to keep them looking back I regret that as well. The father does nothing so here it is I am alone raising kids I never wanted. My other relationship ended just as bad the twins father said the man I was about to marry raped the children. So I have been […]
Where do you go when you have so many problems that you dont fit in anywhere? No meaning to my life. No love. No one. Mercury poisoned and severely damaged. Multiple Chemical Sensitivity drives me to the wilds. Isolation even in crowds. Disabling anxiety, the slightest sound makes me jump inside. Completely disillusioned with society. Unwilling to support slavery and destruction of the earth and her creatures for my own survival… Not much left as i see it…. Not necessarily trying to die, but dont really see a way to live in this toxic wasteland. Soon to be homeless. […]
Well, it’s been about two weeks. As with most things in life, I failed to remove myself from it. A week in the hospital and the doctors are still calling it an accidental overdose. I think that they are in denial. How could “someone with so much to live for and so much going on possibly want to kill themselves. It doesn’t add up.” At least, that’s what they’ve been telling themselves. I can go home tomorrow. My kidney’s are recovering though I’ll be on alert the rest of my life, however long or short that is, to make up for the damage caused by […]
A child that has been mentally bullied and raped may fall into depression. Who would’ve thunk that? Well, apparently no one.
My mom was there. I called her to come and help me but she didn’t do anything. Why didn’t you do anything? You could have saved me then and you could have saved me now.
You too, big brother. You’ve been there in your room, ignoring the screaming, turning your music up so you don’t have to do anything.
Dad, you’re excused. You were at the office all day. That’s not the best way to raise a child but you had to make some income, […]
probably gonna sound stupid or whiney or that i should mind my own business but this place is for me to get my emotions out right. so hats what im going to do.this isn’t aimed at anyone person in particular. im just torn up about a post on here
i felt better this last so many days i thought what i have been saying was true. but was it. i mean how come he had to wait nearly about hour for a reply, no one even tried, i replied too late what if i could of helped what if he’s dead.not a single person. […]
I’ve been depressed for almost eight years now, since my dad passed away. I have 18 days to plan exactly how to kill myself on the 15th of October, which is my dad’s death anniversary.
So far, my options are getting a tank of helium and using that, getting out of the country and buying ******** or simply throwing myself off a building.
Fuck, it’s also such a ***** planning your own funeral. I’m atheist and I need to leave clear instructions so no one tries to give me a religious procession.
Do people kill themselves because life is too overwhelming? Because, personally, I find it completely underwhelming. […]
Nobody loves me, in fact no one particular gives a shi* about me. My family’s screwed up, always arguing. I live with my nan, my mum has schizophrenia, my Granddad has bipolar and my dad is a drug/alcohol addict. No one at school likes me, I’m too ugly and fat.
I just feel like suicide is the only way out.
Sorry if I blinded you.
Sorry if I blinded you
I’ve attended church my whole life. My entire family, including extended family, is Christian. I was always the strange one. I was obsessed with dark things, such as demons, ghosts, and horror movies. I was also extremely sexual as a kid. I’m not proud of it at all. If anything, I hate myself for it. I don’t know why I was like that either. The only reason I’ve ever been able to think of is the vague memory I have of being in some bathroom with someone telling me I couldn’t tell anyone. But anyways, I’ve just never been fully devoted to God. Lately, those […]
I’m unable to continue this miserable excuse for an existance. No one will wish I hadn’t and I have no will to live. I’m more than slightly sure that I do not deserve to piece myself through this meager existance. Goodnight everyone… See you in Hell….
I don’t know where to go with this. I don’t even know that the details are worth it. Especially the past year, every time I make a little progress – work, finances, friendships – that and more are ripped from me.
What the fuck did I do that I’m always being punished? What I did – as though I had control over it – was that I was born. I survived physical, verbal, emotional and sexual abuse. I’ve survived HIV. I’ve survived losing everything including my home just over a decade ago. And it’s really time to end this nonsense. I’ve known for a while how […]
This website isn’t helping. I’m at my lowest, I need help, yet no one helps. Thanks.
It’s so hard. I know that suicide will hurt a lot of the people around me especially Tino. And Tino if you see this I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be another Alexis. I can’t take this depression and these thoughts anymore! Between the thoughts, depression, anxiety, my past, my present, my family, coming out to myself as gay, I can’t go on like this anymore! My wrists are scarred but covered by bracelets, my mind is killing me. My soul is already dead. I found out that not even people who are friends of my family would support me being gay. No one that […]
well today was almost the day. why it wasn’t isn’t really important here. but the means, the opportunity and the will are all there. i really don’t know why i have fallen into the pit. i have been crying a lot (read everyday), angry, etc etc. you know the drill. after that then there is a certain kind of numbness. i am purposely withdrawing from the world, life. then the physical stuff isn’t exactly helping either. the near constant stomach pain whether i eat or not, various wounds from months ago that are not healing. chest pain and fatigue just for shits and giggles. yes […]