I’ve been depressed for about five years. I’m now in high school about (if) to go into the 11th grade this September. I’m pretty much at the end of my rope when it boils down to getting support. The times I have told people about my suicidal thoughts, I get in response, “That’s messed up…” “I know how you feel…” (Mind you these responses are coming from people who are just giving out a response because in reality they really don’t know how I feel.) They don’t know how it feels like to get limbs sprained and be laughed at, with literally no support out […]
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Hey, beautiful people!
I was on this site two years ago as one of you. I was young, depressed, and had intentions of taking my own life. While I don’t see any familiar names, it was people like YOU who helped me become the person I am today. Today, I absolutely love my life. The narrow path I was on may have devastated me, but here I am today. I am here to tell you all that it DOES get better. By talking to people who genuinely care about you and having a little hope, you can get better. I promise. I have helped several people […]
This is the first time I’ve posted on this site, having discovered it only a few days ago. Well, posting for myself, anyway, because I’ve actually given shout outs to a couple of other people that I hoped could take the words to heart. But I continue to wear my mask, even here, in the presence of those who’d likely accept me without it. But, truth be told, I wear it around friends and family that I’d gleefully step in front of a bullet for, so it’s not entirely surprising to me.
I’ve felt the urgings of suicide for the better part of the last 25 […]
Death Is Only Selfish to the Living
I find no join in life, no hope for the future. Â Loneliness is all I’ve ever known. Â I don’t know who I am, I live vicariously through others as if I’d made a conscious decision to die within myself. Â My soul is weary and my flesh is weak. Â The odds have never been in my favor. Â The thought of living another day pains me. Â Death seems so peaceful.
Irony is follower/avg humans don’t know that they are wasting a yet another human life
by addicted
written by addicted
initial days: people used to build pyramids & architectures. lots of human lives is invested on it and currently no one give a shit about their efforts.
beneficiary: kings and leaders ( less than 10% of ppl)
losers: avg humans who follow others ( >90%)
in 18th century lots of human lives are sacrificed in wars
beneficiary: leaders and aristocrat(10%)
loosers: people who follow (90%)
Now lot of human lives are investing on building organizations and technical products
beneficiery: owners and rich(20%)
loosers: who follow others (80%)
Irony is follower/avg humans don’t know that they are wasting a yet another human life. they are bussy building others organization same ways acestors-they are busy in […]
I’m just thinking and looking for other thoughts on something. The “something” is a quote: “Sometimes you put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.” What comes to mind when I read this and mulled it over a bit … typical nonsense Hallmark-esque crap. Maybe it’s just me, though, which is why I hope to hear some different perspectives. It seems childish to “put up walls” just for the sake of finding out who gives a shit, much like “playing hard to get” in dealing with a potential romantic interest. If I’m putting up walls, […]
http://www.antipsychiatry.org/suicide.htm
One reason some oppose the right to commit suicide is theological belief that is sometimes expressed this way: “God gave you life, and only God has the right to take life from you.” Using this reasoning to justify interfering with a person’s right to commit suicide is imposing religious beliefs on people who may not share those beliefs. In America where we supposedly have freedom of (and from) religion, this is wrong.
Another reason some people believe it is ethical to interfere with a person’s right to think about or commit suicide is belief in mental illness. But a so-called diagnosis of “mental illness” is a […]
I forgot the first line. Who the fuck is going to save me.
Gona go, try. Go, go. Battletoad. But I can’t.
Oh yeah. I need to stay clear, my eternal spectrum, and sober.
Be like water. Time to recuperate. I need to escape.
Seven years of acidic death. My scroll. My blood.
Faith of God, you would understand. Higher kind.
In your heart. Enlighten. Become a Man, a Woman.
Superman and Wonder Woman, and all the others.
Game-station. Do no forsake the forsaken. My chain, I wish I could of…
Saved you all. That is my mission.
The music of Mankind. Goddess resurrection. Our Men, our warriors.
Capitalize. Our world, system of hell. Seraphim, Seraphim, put out […]
I feel a little less than something when i think of how badly i need to die when others so badly wish to live
Some say it’s all or none. Others say something is better than nothing. Which is it? I get so mad at myself for accepting the unacceptable, but when I cut people out of my life I regret it. I have no life essentially. No family, and one good friend (who doesn’t have the time of day for me because she does have a family). After being depressed for about 20 years, I don’t believe it gets better, I believe this is my life and I need to accept that. I am not meant to have or experience things that others do. I am right where […]
How much pain there is in this world; My pain is so little in front of them
by quaero
written by quaero
…when i saw pain of others, i forgot my own pain
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQbXsOA7F2Y
only one in a thousand is perhaps happy
some weep for somebody, some weep for somebody
in every house this lamentation is
my pain is so little in front of them
This is the face of it, this is what is called life
sometimes its irony makes me laugh, sometimes tears come out
confluence of pain and happiness it is
my pain is so little in front of them
embers in everybody’s heart, water in everybody’s eyes
ask whoever you want, everybody carries a painful story
in pain whole existence is
my pain is so little in front of them
how much pain there is in this this world
my […]
I’m tired of being taken advantage of and sacrificing everything that has defined me. The lies, betrayal, and overall the feeling of stupidity has destroyed my way of life. I never have put so much depth into thoughts, creating these insane scenarios, having my mind beat me till I’m black and blue. People. The more I surround myself with people, the worse everything gets. Taunted, ridiculed, and abused for absolutely no reason at all. The second that happens, I instantly feel lower than others, comparing myself to others. Deep down, I’m fucking raging with hate and  desperately seeking for some kind of justification for all […]
Has anyone else felt alone their whole life? Always the odd one out, outcasted by strangers, friends, and family alike. I’ve grown to realize that I’m not like the others. I’m quiet; I observe everyone around me. And I don’t like what I see. Everyone is so superficial. I see people for what they really are – their flaws, ulterior motives and blind prejudices. I know I have flaws myself but they don’t even compare to what I see in others. Perhaps I am a pessimist; though I like to think I’m a realist.
Every year that goes by, the more I dislike everyone I […]
OMG, i joined this site 2 years ago, and at first everyone was so supportive and caring and month by month everyone is becoming judgmental the amount of judgment ive gotten in two days from people on here is insane. i post a picture of myself. i give out my number for people to contact me. WHY IS IT THAT BIG OF A DEAL!? i see others on here do it to. so why are we attacking me?!? what is so special about me that i dont have the right to post what others do. SORRY. im going to post what i damn well please […]
I watch, with dry eyes, as my freedom, my one true escape from despair, burns before me. The fire roars and crackles, spitting out white sparks wildly and furiously. I feel my eyes turn pink and my skin dry and tighten as the remaining happiness lifts from my body, like the heat rises from the flame. I try to grasp my freedom, and save it from the torturous fire but my fingers blister and burn with the slightest touch.
Why must this happen to us? Instead of being strong and fighting for my freedom, like the majority of others, I give up after the first […]
that little girl
she was so naive
didn’t know what life was
so sheltered as a kid
she forced herself
to learn alone
she made friends
some lied
some cried
some died
some succeeded
some failed
she was alone
she had to reach again..
where is that little girl?
shes had some growing up to do
grown up decisions led to adult consequences
she just didn’t learn
she tried so hard
she caved
she lit the lighter and inhaled
knowing the damage
4 months later she lost herself
her baby passed
and she cried
where oh where is the naive little girl?
she lifted up the clouds […]
Everything is falling apart.
I thought that things would change- this was supposed to be the best time of my life. This was supposed to be the time that, years from now, I look to and remember memories of joy, and happiness.
But it’s really not turning out like that.
To achieve this one goal of my life, I let go of many other things. I thought that, after getting to this goal, everything would fall into place. But in fact, the situation just got worse. After what seemed like the happiest day in a long time, every. single. thing. went downhill.
I used to maintain a sense of […]
what the fuck? chemicals affect behavior? no fucking way, the data is wrong, the scientists are stupid. look, here is the truth: what do BABIES do? fucking nothing. then when they hurt, they start crying screaming hellfire torture. they don’t DO anything, except scream when they hurt. babies KNOW the TRUTH. everything you do is LEARNED, it is sensed through PERCEPTION. a blind baby cannot see, so they CANNOT perceive things through eyes, so functionally sight is a LIE to them. they are TOLD that others can see, they have NO WAY of knowing except for your words to them. everything is LEARNED, everything is […]
I cannot understand a world that makes children feel like they need to end their own lives to stop the pain. I cannot understand how parents fail to take the time to give a shit about what their kids are going through, or worse, torment them, abuse them, and belittle them! I cannot understand people who put down others in an attempt to make themselves feel better. I cannot understand a fucking thing!
T if you are still here please check your email and call me. Please let me know you are safe.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfHdHEdQh_M