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Pact

Tedium.

by Feeblefish 1/30/2014

written by Feeblefish

This isn’t really something I usually do, I’m more of the “bottle it up” kind of guy, but I really need to get this out and Google led me here as an appropriate place to do so. It’s up to you if you want to read all this, but at least if you do, I have some validation of my efforts. Which I imagine would be nice.

Well… here goes.

I should be happy or satisfied enough really, shouldn’t I?

I mean, I did life right. I left school, got a steady dead end job and got myself a place to live independently. In this […]

1/30/2014 13 comments

Suicide Pact was A Failure, Now I’m in a Mental Ward

by Pbsmurderer 1/28/2014

written by Pbsmurderer

I attempted suicide again this month. Well, attempted isn’t really the right word. I was going to join a Suicide Pact but to my surprise, someone contacted the authorities beforehand and stopped us. After taking any tests, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Agoraphobia, Social Anxiety Disorder, and Insomnia. But hey, at least I got a new batch of pills. Man, the workers in the mental ward are true assholes, treating you like your crazy, it’s really annoying. Well, at least I was able to get out.

Wow, what a month. I attempted suicide twice, and I lost my job, what can I do now? […]

1/28/2014 20 comments

May Join a Suicide Pact

by Pbsmurderer 1/23/2014

written by Pbsmurderer

Give me a valid reason to live and I wont go, simple as that. Please don’t give me that “You’re family and friends will miss you” bullshit. All my family is dead, all my friends left me, there is no one who loves me or cares Â about me. Do you understand why I’m so bitter? Fuck living, I’ve had enough of this shit! All my life has been pain! My parents beating the shit out of me and molesting me, all my ” friends” making fun of me, I’m glad my family is dead! I’m glad I have no friends, all people do is hurt […]

1/23/2014 21 comments

My First Post

by CrypticT0xin 6/24/2013

written by CrypticT0xin

**This is a jumbled up mess…**

Ever wonder why you bother?Â I always do.Â I find nothing in life that is worth fighting for. I feel lost and alone. But I know I’m not. My family, friends, and girlfriend love me very much. It has been them that has kept me from following through with my dark thoughts. I’m writing here today because I made a pact with myself before I started college. If I could no go through with it, then I have nothing left to offer. I told myself it’s over once I get that email, letter, talking too. People saying you failed! Why bother?

It happened.

Now […]

6/24/2013 3 comments

Every Xmess the same old thing

by Magpiewontsing 12/22/2012

written by Magpiewontsing

I was physically abused by my brother until I was 16 and left home. I admitted it to my parents, with whom I have always been very close with 3 years ago.

They claim to believe me. The claim to back me up. But after my last suicide attempt, after 3 days in 4 points in the ICU, when sent to the psych ward..they promised me certain things.

You see I uprooted my entire life on the West Coast to move back to the Midwest and help care for my sick father. He’s very young, only 65. But has a host of degenerative diseases. I went from […]

12/22/2012 1 comment

A Pact

by Chicane 11/24/2012

written by Chicane

I do know that there will be people who will miss and judge me. That’s one of the reasons that keeps me from killing myself. But what if I come up with some omnipotent supernatural being for myself? I would then make a pact with it that it will make sure that people left behind won’t judge me, that people will not miss me, that I won’t cause suffering by going away. It works for some religious people. I guess that’s just a thought experiment.

11/24/2012 1 comment

So many mistakes here, so nobody listens, The pact that I make now, Still something is missing, I’ve got nobody here but me….

by Nat.... 8/14/2012

written by Nat....

That title is ironic, I am alone.. For now.

So, feeling a bit better than I did last night, Finally got through to the person I wanted/needed to talk to. Maybe things can be okay… For now.

I got a letter from CAMH which is who are doing my mental health assessment, I have this like, thing (i’ve forgotten what it’s called) to fill out, basically just about me.. Nothing mental yet though. I went to the beach today, With my family. And we took our dog who loved it, bless her. She’s so tired now XD just like me I guess… But no sleep. Not yet. […]

8/14/2012 34 comments

I am close to letting go

by woopsydo 8/2/2012

written by woopsydo

I felt suicidal as a teenager, 20 years ago, and never thought it would happen again.Â I’m a trained mental health worker, I know the signs, I know who I am supposed to call, what I’m supposed to do,Â but I don’t see the point.Â Up until May this year I thought suicide was a sad act, and now, I think it is a viable option.Â Infact, I’ve come up with my own therapy, I have a plan.Â On the 26th of September 2014 I am allowed to take my own life.Â Four months before this date, decision making goes in to lock down- as in- […]

8/2/2012 2 comments

Dear Daniel

by Calamity Jane 6/24/2009

written by Calamity Jane

Doesnâ€™t look like there are any Aussies here at all.. wish I could make pact. I was planning to go out and try buy Heroin today and overdose on that. I thought what a brilliant way to go, floating away on a highâ€¦ but Iâ€™m scared that I donâ€™t know where to get it and it could cost more money then I have to get enough to ODâ€¦ soâ€¦ Iâ€™ve been doing alot of research. I agree. If we really believe we want to die and the pain of living is worse then the pain you may cause for anyone you may leave behind, you […]

6/24/2009 3 comments

New Insight on Existence…

by missesMask 3/13/2009

written by missesMask

Life.The last couple of days have seen the spawning of a journey out of the abyss. So much deep emotion, (confusion, anger, fear, and hopelessness) was building up and needed to be released into the atmosphere. I still think about those things (meaninglessless, conditional love, my mistakes, my future) but when I feel myself slipping asunder, I mentally create a hypothetical situation that I know would be 100% unbearable, then measure how much worse it is than my present state.

I talk to the Universe, thanking it for taking care of the souls who have departed, praying for their happiness.Then I ponder on things completely unrelated […]

3/13/2009 6 comments