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pain

Keep walking

by to much pain 3/5/2016

written by to much pain

I am so tired of people continuously waking out of my life, only being there when it will make them feel better. I posted yesterday about the hell that I went through as far as being abused. It is the effects of the abuse that I have worked six hard years on getting past that keeps people walking out of my life like some kind of fucking revolving door.

I have worked so hard to get past every muscle in my body stiffing up and feel like I want to crawl out of my skin every time I am touched. Now days I can give someone […]

3/5/2016 17 comments

Ending it tonight. Life doesn’t get better.

by N0Futur3 3/4/2016

written by N0Futur3

Wished I ended it that first night I joined. Life doesn’t get better, it’s just a lie. Funny how people say suicide is selfish, what is selfish is them expecting someone to continue living a life of pain because they want them to. You say family, friends, community get hurt… Fuck them they don’t give a shit about me. No matter how hard I try, it is not good enough in their eyes. We live in a fucked up society and world, fake people smiling…. They are the ones who need real help. I’m done….. I’m done living this fucked up life in this fucked […]

3/4/2016 37 comments

Tired of the pain

by to much pain 3/4/2016

written by to much pain

I have been checking out the site for a couple weeks now, so many feeling the same way I do. I have thought about posting a couple times but really didn’t like what I had wrote. Well here goes nothing.

I was an army brat for the first six years of my sorry pathetic life. When I was four years old my father began beating me. He would come home at night and after I would say hi, let the beating begin. This went on for two years. He would whip me with a belt across my back. He would punch me in the face and […]

3/4/2016 7 comments

?

by Alan Ominous 3/2/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Some new poetry. Can’t think of a title. Feel free to make a suggestion.

Cut out the pain,
Cutting up the vein,
Literally metaphorical,
It’s all the same.

No point to life,
No will to die,
Pick out your poison,
Load the gun,
Sharpen your knife.

Obsessively depressive,
Oppressive consumption,
Elusive delusions,
Illustrate confusion.

Step out of insanity,
Stepping through reality,
Understandably indecipherable,
Becoming of a calamity.

3/2/2016 4 comments

First of the month?

by Drowning 3/1/2016

written by Drowning

Everyone on here seems to be at point break right now isit because it’s the start of a new month ? I don’t no but I feel like shit right now your not alone guys new month new demons when dose the pain end ?!!!!

3/1/2016 5 comments

Don’t pity the dead pity the living

by Drowning 3/1/2016

written by Drowning

The dead don’t have to struggle day to day the dead don’t have to suffer emotional pain the dead don’t have to battle with them self everyday we are not living just merely surviving each day….

hate waking up dreading to face another day well off I go to the doctors to see if they can fix me with more meds sitting with people coughing at spluttering everywhere some of these people are actually ill yet I’m sitting here physically fine but only if they knew if the doctor could give me a pill to put me to sleep for ever I would proberly go home […]

3/1/2016 3 comments

I wish I could just die

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 2/28/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I’m incredibly tired. I have to work in an hour. I’m permanently lonely. I try to improve things but im too much of an old useless failure. Im in physical pain mental and emotional pain and i don’t want to live anymore. I wish I had a method. I’ve tried so many times but life I failed. Just like ive tried to improve my life but i failed. I wish death’s sweet embrace would show up. Im just fucking tired.

2/28/2016 3 comments

Hello again, world!

by Cordless 2/27/2016

written by Cordless

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After four days of being sick and near-bedridden because of the usual health issues, I was FINALLY able to get out today.

I was able to get up, shower, get dressed, and go out to one of my favorite WiFi spots.

I realize I should be used to it by now, but it’s just such an awful feeling to be trapped indoors like I am sometimes. It’s like being an animal caught in a trap. Stuck in bed, with bones hurting anytime I try to move. Rolling over in bed was something so difficult that it occasionally […]

2/27/2016 60 comments

That feeling

by Drowning 2/27/2016

written by Drowning

its weird how a few cuts to the wrist can take away so much pain from inside can distract my mind from eating me alive for them few moments everything is ok I’m in control I feel alive its proberly the only time I actually feel comfortable with myself until I stop all my problems seem to go away but the demons will be back soon And il get lost in my thoughts once again

2/27/2016 4 comments

A question to all my fellow members on SP

by Martin1987 2/27/2016

written by Martin1987

What do you think? If I kill myself, will that action earn me a one-way ticket to hell?

My quality of life is zero. I suffer from both mental and physical pain, and things are getting worse with each passing year 🙁

Thank you for reading and replying to my post. It means a lot.

2/27/2016 12 comments

RIGHT TO DIE

by nomas 2/26/2016

written by nomas

I think we should have the right to die no matter the situation. Transgender people have the right to completely change their lives if they choose to. If a transgender male wants to have his penis removed , he goes in for evaluation and see if that’s what he really wants . after a year I think and after tons of questions to make sure that’s what he wants BAM! The penis is gone. Even if family and society disagrees, he has the right to change his life if he choses to and he’s allow to do so. His body, his mind and his life.

Now […]

2/26/2016 8 comments

I Can’t

by Ylem 2/26/2016

written by Ylem

I can’t take the pain anymore. Can my heart just stop beating already! I want to die… NOW!!!

2/26/2016 1 comment

Adidas (AllDayIDreamAboutSuicide)

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 2/25/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I try not to but how can that occur. Im old i missed out on life and i want to die. I try to give myself hope sometimes i even succed. But death would be better. Depression is cureless in people who have had it their entire lives. People who have had useless pain filled lives. I cant look forwards or backwards in my life without seeing pain. I cant look at my current life wit out seeing pain. Without being told by life that loneliness and depression is all i deserve and that im not good enough for more than pity maybe. Some days […]

2/25/2016 1 comment

Cutting, The Sweet Release

by unlucky101 2/24/2016

written by unlucky101

How can one even want to cut? A lot of my friends ask me this and i explain to them in such detailed and dedicated way how freeing it is for me.

Cutting may not be the same for everyone, but i can still remember my first time. You know that feeling in your chest when you’re sooo upset you can’t breath. I had that but to such an extreme i was hyperventilating on my bed. The first cut was such a new and exotic feeling. It hurt but not compared to the broken heart in my chest.

The second cut got a little more exciting and […]

2/24/2016 3 comments

I still am.

by iwant2_die 2/23/2016

written by iwant2_die

Why does it feel

that Mr. sharp

is the only one

that loves me?

Why is he

the only one

that is able

to make me forget?

the only one that

makes me feel like

i matter?

do i really?

why does it

feel so

good

when my skin

rips open?

Why do

I crave to feel the

pain that he

leaves behind?

I know.

because its the

only thing

reminding me

I’m still alive.

2/23/2016 11 comments

I can….

by Girl_dying 2/23/2016

written by Girl_dying

I can hold a knife to my wrist or a pillow to my face, and sometimes I feel I will. I just want to make mine and other peoples lives easier.

” It’s easy ” I think ” it’s quick “

But that isn’t my original voice, no. It’s the voice created by the Haters of my life and it seemed to have disguised its self to sound like me.

But it isn’t easy because you have to leave the people you love behind, never able to see their smiles or hear their laugh again.

But even I know […]

2/23/2016 5 comments

Am I going to hell?

by jrmeador94 2/23/2016

written by jrmeador94

I had everything going for me before college. I grew up in a great family, we loved each other, and I had an awesome relationship with God. Seriously, he was my best friend. One of the things I couldn’t understand, though, was grace. How the hell could he put the sins of nations onto one man and just forget what we’ve done?

Im in college now. I wanted to die 5 times in the last 2 years. I just couldn’t make the pain stop. So I let go of my faith in God. I don’t really care about sin, being reckless, or being happy. The only […]

2/23/2016 9 comments

Light

by thelost 2/23/2016

written by thelost

Her head rises and falls with each breath I take, and perhaps it’s fitting considering the fact that without her I might never have taken those breaths. Her long, dirty blonde hair is pulled back in a simple braid, and I’m eternally grateful. It allows me an uninterrupted view of her beautiful face, which I have grown to so adore. I feel I am unworthy of having this beauty at such close hand, and to have it all to myself is incomprehensible. Her lips draw my eyes and I remember the feeling of pressing mine against them. The way that it felt as though the […]

2/23/2016 0 comment

by Drowning 2/23/2016

written by Drowning

At this point I’m trying to find a way of telling my mum I want to leave I can’t take it no more I guess I found the love of my life and I sabotaged the relationship by cheating on her I didn’t want my kids to come from a broken home now they have iv become everything I feared why do men cheat ? Why do we get tempted so easily? just the thought of her loving someone else is killing me let alone another person raising my kids the emotional pain is far worst then the psychical pain love really dose hurt I’m […]

2/23/2016 4 comments

A lovely post concerning a girl. Had you goin’ for a bit there, didn’t I?

by thelost 2/23/2016

written by thelost

In the beginning there was darkness, and that seemed like all there would ever be. Then something amazing happened. A massive burst of light lit up all of existence while simultaneously creating it. In my case, the darkness would be my life. Not chaos, and there was no pain, but there was nothing to light it up, nothing to justify its existence. Then she came into my life, and it all became clear. I no longer feared the depths of myself, and I felt like the invisible hand that seemed to crush me from all sides loosened its grip. It was pure randomness, chaos that […]

2/23/2016 1 comment

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