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Peace

Why we do it…

by tiredgirl 4/22/2012

written by tiredgirl

I never understood why people write letters before killing themselves. It always seemed sort of unnecessary and selfish to put the ones that stay under a letter apologizing why they did what they did because why did they do it in the first place? So I never understood why, until now. They write because it’s the last goodbye, it’s their last attempt to say they love who’s staying and they are sorry they couldn’t find a way out… They know it’s gonna hurt who’s reading it, they do, but they have to write it. It’s like when an old man decides to reveal his last […]

4/22/2012 2 comments

Always Alone

by Mia 4/22/2012

written by Mia

Sometimes it may seem as thou i am alone in this world because it seems as thou no one else s in it with me but after watching the movie cyber bully i realize i am not alone there are other people like me out there so what i do is search the net for sites that give info on people like me and talk and relate with them and try to understand them as they understand me and make it known to my self that i am not alone in this world and even if it seemed as thou there are no people i […]

4/22/2012 2 comments

Hallo world, please someone help me….

by maybe_soon_500_days_of_you 4/16/2012

written by maybe_soon_500_days_of_you

Hi all,

I read now some stories of the suicide project and I know that some of you have to deal far bigger problems then I have to, but I just can’t help myself. Your posts always encouraged me not to give up on anything and I will not commit suicide by now and I think I won’t ever do so. I know some of you by now really well. Â alina_01 I have read a lot of your stories. All tough we don’t have the same situation. I feel with you. I hope someday you will find your peace and get a good live again. I […]

4/16/2012 1 comment

‘sup..

by helloiamdepressive 4/4/2012

written by helloiamdepressive

I really don’t where else to write my shit so I’ll write it here.. fuck I just spent the last 10 minutes looking through facebook and my friends’ profiles and shit.. with their proper nice social lives! well my story is I was on medication for 7 years then I came off it.. been 6 months.. in that time my social life kinda collapsed (not entirely somehow coming off meds ups ur hormones.. so u know that department was all good 😉 not to brag really but yeah it was good shit..)

but anyways.. when ur all spaced out.. and weird.. it’s a lot harder to […]

4/4/2012 0 comment

Back here. Again.

by thepainter 4/4/2012

written by thepainter

I posted here two years ago or more. I’m not really sure. I was thinking of ending my life that day and I know the general reasons why, but I don’t know what brought those thoughts so hard that day–just like today. Sitting in my chair, working, then suddenly, like a flash mob of pain and ache and emptiness. Fatelessness.

Everyone adores me for my personality now. I can’t believe how social I can be sometimes, and then nothing, nothing at all, but the desire for nothing, and peace, and a bed made of endless dreams. I know why people do heroin.

I’ve made a plan. I […]

4/4/2012 1 comment

When you go, Would you even turn to say “I don’t love you, like i did yesterday”?….

by Nat.... 4/3/2012

written by Nat....

I have a very violent brother, and what’s the worst part? a tiny piece of me really wants him to take out all of his fury on me. To properly hurt me, like i can’t. My razorblade just doesn’t do the trick anymore, i think it’s blunt, only leaves a scratch that doesn’t bleed much. It’s killing me. i need pain, deliberately holding my hand under hot water just the feel the burn…. i don’t think i can do this for much longer.

Life is becoming darker and darker…. i can’t see the light. Afterall? We were just born to die.

I think i’m starting to love […]

4/3/2012 55 comments

Walking Alone…. Fighting Suicide

by forever_lost 4/3/2012

written by forever_lost

In the deep deep shadows
Of a dark dark night
A girl walks the face of the Earth alone
As if pulled by a string

She doesnâ€™t know where sheâ€™s going
She doesnâ€™t know where sheâ€™s been
All she knows is what waits ahead
Because of whom she is

People stare
And people mock
But the young one never stops
She know something they donâ€™t know
And something they never will
And so she tarries on

She goes as far as humanly possible
And then she walks some more
For she remembers the tale
She was told long ago down […]

4/3/2012 0 comment

Rock bottom

by lostchild445 4/1/2012

written by lostchild445

I haven’t been on in a while. For those of you who care, yes I’m still alive. I hit a new low today. I found myself smoking out a window at 2 a.m. I was supposed to quit on march 1st. I didn’t. I can’t. It’s the only thing that calms me down anymore. My 1st family therapy session turned into a complain about how much of a problem I am session. I hate this. All of this. My girlfriend is unwilling to go any further in our relationship, my parents r suspicious of my habits, I went back to cutting after 5 days s.i. […]

4/1/2012 3 comments

dark

by z.m 3/31/2012

written by z.m

I hate waking up to a new day.

I loath the way people smile in the mornings.

I can’t stand the sun shining, too much light.

I pass the day watching the clock, waiting for the daylight to end.

Darkness brings peace.

Darkness brings quiet.

In the dark, problems fade.

3/31/2012 3 comments

I met Someone!!!!

by Unique 3/28/2012

written by Unique

Im sitting in my apartment listening to the verve and thinking about how lucky i am. I swear i dont im gona stop smiling for a week.

Im happier than usual because i met someone amazing. She is so perfect its crazy. I seriously never thought i would ever meet anyone i could like every again. But this girl has been relentless, i met her in the library and she has been coming up and talking to me for a few weeks now, i have been politely brushing off her advances until now. Last Saturday i was sick of making excuses, i just said look i […]

3/28/2012 9 comments

And in a little while…

by Lafe 3/28/2012

written by Lafe

This is not meant as a dramatic post.Â I just needed to talk to people who understood the kind of pain and depression that can lead to ending one’s own life.Â For those of you who aren’t sure, take a look deep inside of yourself as well as around you.Â Suicide is, of course, murder – but it is a strange kind of murder in which the murderer punishes himself/herself simultaneous with committing the crime.Â The two most important things to ask yourself are: (1) is there another answer? and (2) how many will I hurt by doing this?

I am NOT advocating against suicide – […]

3/28/2012 13 comments

Only two beings more helpless than I am.

by trappedbyhelplessness 3/27/2012

written by trappedbyhelplessness

So. There is nothing holding me back. There is no one who loves me, no one who cares about me. The last one who existed on this earth, my father, got run over by a truck a year ago next month. I am a single woman in my 40’s who grew up in an abusive household and will never have a mate or children or a loving home. I want to die more than anything in this world. Each night i lie sobbing on the floor, pulling the side of one hand down the wrist of the other, feeling the cool, smooth sensation of a […]

3/27/2012 7 comments

Gasping for Air

by sunbird 3/25/2012

written by sunbird

I know I keep posting…basically I guess I am trying to get my thoughts,feelings out before I die. I dont want to be saved,Im too far gone at this point. I think as I draw closer to the end I just need to purge this poison as much as possible….so bear with me. Or dont,I guess no one needs to read this. Dont necessarily need a reply.

Had another huge fight with BF on phone last night..still refuses to come back home,now trying to say he wants to talk to my therapist first. he keeps threatening to stay down there and never come back. His goddamn […]

3/25/2012 7 comments

Am i selfish? the things that are holding me back

by Foronceinmylife 3/22/2012

written by Foronceinmylife

Not really sure how to start this post or how to talk about this, i guess the comfort is in that nobody knows me. Â I’m at a dead end , im only the good person i think i am. Â I have so much hate in me im almostÂ misanthropicÂ , but i love company , but atÂ theÂ same time i hate it. Â My life has been ok , iveÂ traveledÂ places i have people in my life, my sister and mother and some friends. Â But i have come to the stage where i justÂ don’tÂ want to deal with living anymore, Â i haveÂ sufferedÂ from being empty for a long time , the doctors […]

3/22/2012 2 comments

Just felt like sharing this…

by subtle_bloodstains 3/22/2012

written by subtle_bloodstains

Hi. I’m fairly new here but it seems like a good place to share my writing. I don’t know if anyone else will appreciate it but I just want to put it out there…

I wrote this last night. It’s meant to be a song but I suck at putting things to music, so it’s just lyrics. Feel free to make up your own tune if your musical. I sing…

Anyways, feel free to give me feedback. I’ve never shown my stuff to anyone before because I’m pretty good at pretending to be alright and I don’t want to ruin all that hard work. Here it is:

3/22/2012 3 comments

I have no words

by reachingoutformom 3/22/2012

written by reachingoutformom

my mom hung herself from a bike hook in the garage this sept. I miss her. she was in so much pain. she had no hope she talked to me and I talked and read and and we fought and she battled and i searched and she persevered but she couldn’t hang-on any longer. for anyone that is reading this and thinking about suicide please know that you are not alone. please know I care. please know my mom was lost too. please know that while I can accept how you may feel about the world and even yourself- the […]

3/22/2012 2 comments

my rays of sunshine part quatre

by babypanda 3/19/2012

written by babypanda

yummmmmm. popcorn
books
translating stuffffff.
thinking of what i shall name my daughter if i have one – MÃr (dutch for peace. or czech. either one is fine.)
thinking of what i shall name my son if i have one – Blaze Strong
hi. how are you?
meeting new people (even though i can be extremely shy…)
posting on here. it’s fun. >.<
waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for EXO to freakin’ debut already!!!
um, reading all of distant.road’s comments and knowing that he does a lot for others on this site
hrmmm. your turn, guys!

3/19/2012 2 comments

‘m so tired

by momomae 3/13/2012

written by momomae

I’m so tired. I tell everyone I’m tired and they say I’m not being honest about the real issues. But they don’t understand how tired I really am. I’m tired in every sense of the word. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, mentally tired. I’m trying to decide whether or not life is meaningless. I don’t know if that would just be a selfish method of self protection or if it is a valid thought. But I’ve been trying to assign meaning to it thinking that the world is a better place and my life will be more enjoyable if it is meaningful. But this is so damn […]

3/13/2012 6 comments

Ray of Sunshine

by aimeemz 3/12/2012

written by aimeemz

Your smile has been on our minds. Your positive attitude and incredible sense of humor is forever embedded in our hearts. Even people who barely knew you are deeply touched by your actions. You lost hope like many of us do. Maybe life kicked you Â down one too many times. Â Maybe you couldn’t find help in any of your friends. You’re heart was torn and you couldn’t mend it, but there was hope for you. You were a ray of sunshine among us. I hope you finally found peace. I hope our escape mended your heart and you can finally be happy. I […]

3/12/2012 6 comments

You’re all wonderful.

by aimeemz 3/11/2012

written by aimeemz

This site seems to lack optimism :/
A lot of us need reminders of how special we are.
Take it the way you may, I’m doing this because I believe each and everyone of you are incredible.

I mean this whole-heartedly, and I’m never going to stop posting it up.

All of you have a great effect on the ones around you, whether you see it or not.

An old friend of mine committed suicide onÂ TuesdayÂ night. He is missed dearly. I have no idea what pushed him to do something like that, but I can assure you that no one is taking his death lightly. I guess he […]

3/11/2012 7 comments

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