I am glad that I don’t want to hurt the people that I wanted to hurt by committing suicide. I’m glad that it’s not about people wondering if they would have or could have said something to change things. I’m happy I don’t have to think about what’s the last song that I’m going to listen to, what’s the last trail that I’m going to walk down, who is the last person that I’m going to see. I’m glad those feelings have left. They hurt my head thinking all those things.
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i just want to tak me life,i reallly do.nothing at home is right it seems like everybody leaving me and how do i suppose to deal with that.i have no one to talk about this to. my mom dosent care about me and my dad is trying his best. sometimes i think people like me wasnt supposed to be on this earth. i cry at night mostly every night thinking bout how everybody hates me.i took alot of pills ounce diffrent ones it made me real drowsy and i just lad there looking high. i even tried to cut my wrists. i just want to […]
the urge to kill myself is stronger than
it’s ever been…… just the thought of it makes me happy. I’m not selfish my family is selfish! they want me to stay here to keep them happy but I’m not happy.! I’d be happy if I was dead I’m done trying to placate people I’m going to do what makes me happy…… I have a plan
the second I come home from school it’s like my parents hold in and save all their yelling energy to take it out on me right when I get home. they wonder why I’m afraid to come home and I hate being home. they don’t realize what the do to me actually hurts and effects me. they think oh I can handle it I’ll be fine. yeah right. I’ve been dealing with it for so long and I’m sick of it. just shut the fuck up and go on with your lives and stay out of mine. cuz they just keep making it worse and […]
I cant take this anymore. I’m so sick of everything. I cant handle Anything and it seems like everyone around me cant stand anything I do. I cant be that bad. I cant be the one that ruins everything. But I am.
I’m a horrible person and I don’t deserve the life I have. I hate myself. Why cant people decide if they are going to live? Why does it have to be so hard to flip the switch?
Some people don’t get that. They say I over react, particularly him. The one person I cant let go of. Hes always there, always telling me […]
The consequences of today are determined by our thoughts & actions of the past. To change your future, alter your thoughts & actions today. There is never a better time then the present.
1.“Action is the foundational key to all success.†– Pablo Picasso
2.“Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.†– Jim Rohn
ie by changing nothing, nothing changes. You can’t expect to be doing the same thing, thinking the same thing and then expecting a differet outcome. ie a positive 2012. We are but the product of our habits & thoughts ~ if they are poor then so […]
To those that have been curious, as a few people asked about my name ….. well it’s a latin phrase ….
Ad Astra ~ means “To The Stars”
Ad Aastra Per Aspera ~ Means “To The Stars Through Difficulty”.
ie the universe was not made to be easy. Keep your chin up people and stay positive in 2012. I wish you all a well, healthier & happier 2012.
It’s not whether people have difficulties, this is a given, rather it’s how we choose to face them, that makes our character and defines us.
Here’s to you …. stay positive & strong.
Help! I feel trapped in this human body & physical world existence/limitation, is there a way to escape out from it?
by niki
written by niki
I often feel like I can’t relate to this material, physical earthly world anymore, and the majority of people here on this planet earth.
I often feel like there must be something MORE than this limited existence of our human body,
or I’m afraid if it’s all my human’s “creative” wishful-thinking and made-up escapism feeling/story..
does my human brain playing all these tricks on me, or it is really REAL: that there are indeed something much MORE that I can access/connect/tap into?..but I just need to find HOW to do it?..
Tell me please: is there really something MORE that I can do and ‘ascend/transcend’ in […]
So, I got to thinking about how a parent’s personality can really screw a kid up and effect them throughout their lifetime.
Then that thought led me into another about the state of the world.
I came up with a question for all of you insightful people on this site. I’m curious and I’d love to know what everyone thinks.
Before I ask my question, I want to highlight some facts (that you should already be aware of);
-The world population is now 7 billion and counting. Overcrowding is becoming an issue.
-Global warming is getting increasingly worse. More natural disaters destroying homes and land. Ice […]
This is a true story about a guy who was down in the dumps in his life, his marriage, his family, nearly broke, and he started asking God questions about all kinds of things you can imagine from suffering, to sex, to how to fix his life, and some pretty amazing answers were shown to him….
You can buy the “Conversations With God” series, starting with the first book through to book three or four i believe. It’s pretty interesting take on everything happening in the world.
Another really good book to read is “A New Earth” by Eckart Tolle.
Really quite philosophical and informed.
I hope these can […]
I don’t particularly think my story is of any significance, nor do I think anything particularly bad has happened to me, but I shall share my story anyway because of the simple fact that I want to.
I shall begin with the fact that I’ve always hated my father, as far back as I can remember he has always annoyed me, with his selfishness, lack of manners and personal space, I swear, if I even began insulting him, I could never stop. People say I have a really good memory but the truth is, I don’t I can’t exactly remember anything before the age of […]
1. What is your job?
or what do you study?
2. Do you like it? or hate it? or fucking hate it, but have little to no choice?
3. And is you’re feeling suicidal also related with your job/working life?
perhaps feeling meaningless, and hate life?
4. Last but not least, why don’t you pursue your dreams, or your dream-job, or what makes you happy?
What makes you hesitate?
thanks.
I think people often only look at the ‘good’ sides of the money system, but overlooking (or even neglecting) many ‘bad’ sides, in fact perhaps much more than the ‘good/positive’ of the money system! that is IMHO where lies the main problem of all the constant debates & misunderstandings.
The fall of U.S & Europe financial crisis (and soon perhaps the world’s economic collapse, in 2012) have somewhat really proved about this.
People need to seriously look at the Bigger Picture of things, to be very objective, of what Money (system) also caused to humanity.
Out of curiosity, have any of you here ever heard of: […]
Humans, humanity, and this (earthly) world/life is not/never a perfect place..
sometimes it even can be ‘blamed’ because of our human’s hard-wired Nature. ie: the way we’re ‘created’.
A famous atheist literature Christopher Hitchens who just passed away ironically few days before Christmas, he said this: “Evolution has meant that our prefrontal lobes are too small, our adrenal glands are too big, and our reproductive organs apparently designed by committee; a recipe which, alone or in combination, is very certain to lead to some unhappiness and disorder.”
think about that, really…and this is even still just ONE factor (ie: I’m still not talking about other ‘imperfections’ nature […]
Forgive yourself & other humans,..because this *earthly* life is not perfect…and we’re all only humans…we made mistakes.
and besides, we all live only ONCE in this earthly life, so that’s why many people made mistakes in their life, because you can’t simply turn back time and repeat life..
So forgive yourself (& others), free yourself from all the restricting guilts,
keep learning,
and keep doing the Best & worthwhile while you’re still given a chance to exist and alive here in this physical world…
so something weird happened to me the other day. i was standing in my friends bathroom and i hit my back against the wall and slid down because i fainted. i’ve only fainted one other time in my life, but i dont really remember. my friend also saw me do that. so me and her decided to look up people fainting on youtube. and what we found was the fainting game. and what you do it pretty much make yourself faint by taking away oxygen from your brain by blowing on your thumb. and so i decided to try it. and well, it was interesting. […]
One week ago, a close family member of mine took her life. She didn’t “commit” anything, she had a great life until about age 30 when all hell broke loose in her brain. Her quality of life for the last two decades was terrible. I cannot imagine what it is like to have actual “voices” in one’s head, or to sleep twelve hours at night, wake up, eat too much, watch TV, never go outside….you get the idea. However, she had a boyfriend of 17 years, who found her. He loved her dearly. He has been there for her no matter what. She had a […]
so i have not talked about myself really. and i guess i will now, since im really bored right now. my name is Gabby. im 16, gonna be 17 in april. i live by chicago. i moved here from lithuania when i was 9. i wouldnt want to live in any other counry, but i would really wanna live in either San Francisco or Las Vegas. ive never been to either of those places but they seem very unique. my favorite color is pink. i love art. i watch a ton of movies all the time. im still a sophmore. i have strong beliefs in human rights. […]
Lately I have been very frustedated at everything. Like every little noise or unneccissary movement ticks me off. And I feel like I wanna punch them in the face to make them stop. I’m being a ***** to a lot of people. I’m not trying to on purpose but that’s just the way it comes out I can’t help it. I really do not get why I’m like thIs. Ill fo throught periods of time when I’m fine and then times where I’m supEr frusterated at everything around me. Maybe I’m bipolar???? That would be weird. I don’t know what to really do right now […]
The four day weekend is a done deal. My husband and I laid way low. We could hardly talk for turning it into a fight! All I hear is babbling about FAMILY FAMILY FAMILY and we have seriously messed up individuals in both of ours. Managed to avoid all of them. Turned my phone off. Took walks, raked leaves, raked leaves and then some more. Low on cash, so didn’t cook up anything fancy, but we did cook.
Bit too much bickering. No one is ever right, we’re both tired of dealing with broken relationships with parents, siblings, etc. that are beyond repair. Wasted arguments about […]