so i have not talked about myself really. and i guess i will now, since im really bored right now. my name is Gabby. im 16, gonna be 17 in april. i live by chicago. i moved here from lithuania when i was 9. i wouldnt want to live in any other counry, but i would really wanna live in either San Francisco or Las Vegas. ive never been to either of those places but they seem very unique. my favorite color is pink. i love art. i watch a ton of movies all the time. im still a sophmore. i have strong beliefs in human rights. im very opinionated about everything. but im nice. and i dont gossip or talk behind peoples backs. and i hate when people do that. drama isnt gonna get you anywhere in life. i have a hard time sleeping, eating and im a biggg procrastinator when i dont feel like doing something. but if i want to get something done i will. i always keep my promises. i forgive. and its not always a good thing. i like to write too. i write almost everyday in a journal. i love reading, i think i wouldnt be so opinionated if i didnt read and learn so much. i do smoke. weed mostly. ive been smoking for like 15 months or so. it doesnt seem like a long time to me. ive gotten in trouble before. but i really and strongly believe weed is not harmful. i can remember just fine. i am not addicted to it either. i can stop when i want to. and i have. but i just start again because i enjoy doing it. it relaxes me. i think if i didnt smoke weed i would be doing much worse things. please dont judge me. i have been judged enough already. i just want to start writing here so i can get my feeling out and attempt to be more open. i think it could help me be more open to people around me. i have had things happen to me before that have effected me majorly today. one of those things is that my dad is an alcoholic. he has been for the past 5 or 6 years. i HATE when he’s like that. i just hate seeing him, and avoid him. it hurts me that he does that, other wise me and him are fine. but when he starts he wont stop for weeks at a time and sleep drunk on the couch or on the floor. and my house isnt big at all so i can always either see him or hear him(he snores, a thing in people i hate a lot, i could never sleep next to anyone who snores.) ive ran away from home before. they wouldnt let me have more freedom. and i didnt even do anything wrong, and they still punish me. i find that very unfair. another thing thats happened to me is that there has been someone in my life who has done me very wrong. they violated me and ruined my life. i hate them with all my heart( its only one person if anyone was wondering). i only came out about what had happened to two of my friends less than a year ago. thats actually when my anxiety shot skyhigh. i have always been this depressed person. ive never been different. its just when im with my friends and we’re messing around i forget about everything and enjoy my time. i have one very very close friend that i love dearly. i dont know what i would do without her. she has helped me through a lot mentally. we’ve been friends for more than two years now. we barely ever fight, and if we do we make up fast. and the fights are never really serious. like we have had a couple serious fights but we worked it out, and got over it. we both know each of us cares about the other, so it makes it easier not to fight. we get along great all the time. she knows she can tell me anything, and i know i can always tell her anything. she is the person i trust most in this world. well yeah i guess thats pretty much it about me. but if anyone wants to ask me anything you’re more than welcome to. thanks. 🙂
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wow… your the first legit stoner i’ve seen on this site, i smoke weed to all day, every day and you live in chicago thats where my best friend was born… sorry i just found those 2 facts interesting, but you sound like a very strong individual whose overcome alot in your life i wish you the best and peace,love,weed:)
wow you and i have a lot in common, except for the weed thing. i know how you feel about being depressed all the time 🙁
*second legit stoner reporting*
Anyway you say you strongly believe weed isnt harmful, I said that too when I was 15/16. 5 years later I’ve realised it is. if you can stop smoking any time I honestly think you should do it. i dont know in what ‘stage’ you are right now.. but soon you wont be able to eat anymore. Only if you have smoked weed, and quickly after that you probably wont be able to eat period. Even though you dont really expect it you can really get depended on weed. Youll get a knot in your stpmach which only doesnt hurt when you have smoked some weed. and sometimes not even then. maybe you dont really have that now but ill give it a few months before you know what I mean about being depended. I myself can only function properly when im stoned. I dont wish that for you. Its a shame. So really, of you can stop any time, you should do it caus im pretty sure you dont wanna end up like me. Dont idealize the weed too much.. good luck with everything and i think its really great you have such great friends.
hm… where to start?
– Inhabitant of the sunshine state (the irony)
– 17 going on 18 in February
– Half Cuban/Puerto rican, born in the states
– Really wanna live in Spain (Barcelona), or Montreal.
– A huge procrastinator as well, I have the will but not the drive.
– Moving out is my main priority.
– I don’t smoke weed, it gets me paranoid. (too many bad trips to count)
– Glad to say I don’t smoke cigarettes anymore
– A drop out with a GED and Beauty School Graduate (esthetics)
– Gotta love netflix
– Can’t say i always keep my promises, but I can’t ever not forgive someone, it’s just me.
– Extremely anxious and sufferer of PMDD
– People have been coming in and out of my life since I can remember, it’s not new but it’s painful every time.
– Human rights is important but how will it ever be implemented when those who have it can’t even act right?
– I think everyone likes gossip to an extent, as long as it doesn’t get too involving or emotionally damaging to someone. But I agree, in the end, it is a waste of time.
– I know what it’s like to feel betrayed by the people you’d otherwise never consider pointing the finger to.
– My favorite color changes depending on my mood (honestly) and I’m into contemporary dance and independent films.
– Funny story: lost my virginity in a green lit room.
– Black looks good with everything.
– Queer
– I’ve never been sexually abused, but I have been sexually manipulated and emotionally damaged.
– I’ve suffered from fluctuating bouts of depression for 6 years.
– I lost my best friend a long time ago to destiny: c’est la vie.
– Music is my life. All kinds.
– And actually no… I don’t want to die. I want to live.
current song of the moment: CSS – Music is My hot hot sex.
You’re not alone. Welcome.
Thank you for sharing.
Sad that you had to go through what you did and deal with depression and an alcoholic parent.
The good thing is that you seem to be handling it and have people you can trust to spend time with and that strengthens you.
Hopefully that respite in your life continues and you keep joy in your heart.
I’m really glad I got to read that view point, especially from a 16year old. It was really interesting. I, myself, am only 19 but it sounds like you could easily be any one of my friends.
Although you’ve been through a lot, the best advice I can give you is to take shelter in your friends. It sounds like you have a pretty good one so i’m glad to hear that. I know that when times got hard for me it really was those moments with my friends where I could just forget about the world and the problems and just be me. Just be lost in the moment. You’ve got a great head on your shoulders, keep it up.
p.s- Of course smoking ANYTHING isn’t good for you……..but i’ve been doing it about 2 or 3 years and I don’t regret it for a minute. Good luck gabby! stay strong! You can always talk to any of us here or email me if you want to talk. DTester0229@g.fmarion.edu
heartless and shckey and christina im glad there are other people here who are stoners :).
hollywood- im happy to know im not the only one like that.
jess- i live on netflix. i couldnt live without it(not literally). but it has some pretty weird movies, just the way i like it :D.
owen- thank you.
thanks to you all, all your comments made me smile. 🙂
lol, you and i are soooo similar
1. both live in the same area
2. I love art
3. i hate drama
4. i procrastinate 24/7
5. i love reading and writing (but i dont do it as much as i used to, dont have the time)
6. ive had issues with my parents too, to the point of being violated and abused
7. i feel the same way about being depressed and having your friends be your everything in live