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What’s The Point?

by Retsiem 11/17/2016

written by Retsiem

What’s the point living if you cannot achieve anything you have been wanting to do forever?

i have been failing my whole life and i have never been able to achieve anything, i’m always at best mediocre cant never feel like i have accomplished anything.

i got sick of the feeling i have been feeling for 10 years now, and talked with psychologist and i got told that after my birth i had blood clot in my main blood vessel that comes straight from heart to brain and my brain didnt get nearly any blood before that surgery, and that has made my life this way. a […]

11/17/2016 7 comments

Composition: Not Knowing

by Cordless 5/5/2016

written by Cordless

Here’s my latest project, finished last Sunday.

It’s supposed to reflect the upheaval and turbulence of needing answers to certain things, but not having those answers– and coming to terms with the possibility of never having them.
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http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/Not-Knowing-2.mp3

Title: Not Knowing
Key: C-minor
Meter: 7/8
Instrumentation: Violin, Viola, Cello, Bass, Piano

For those of you who can read a score, here’s a screencap of the last five measures:

not-knowing-screenshot

5/5/2016 17 comments

Procel’s Album Cover

by Hazy Day Sunflower 4/26/2016

written by Hazy Day Sunflower

Truimphant

This was fun. thank you for the project.

HDS

Edit: I haven’t been commenting a lot. I’m still not totally ready to dive back into the site, although I want to and I am trying to contribute as much as I am able. It was a struggle to turn back on comments and I have found drawing for everyone here helps a lot too. I guess my drawings are an extension of my words since I don’t have a lot of them lately. Thank […]

4/26/2016 6 comments

Protected: Page 2 of ???

by whiskered-fish 4/10/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/10/2016 25 comments

golden gate

by saudade07 3/1/2016

written by saudade07

i’m only interested in responses from people who live there, thanks.

there seems to be conflicting articles about the suicide barrier. the most recent one i could find said the plans were on hold again for another two months. something about acquiring a sufficient amount of american steel for the project.

i need to know if there is any type of safety net up or work going on as of right now. to clarify, i’m not talking about the movable barrier they installed for traffic purposes. (but if you live there, you most likely knew which barrier i meant).

3/1/2016 2 comments

idea

by Alan Ominous 3/1/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Is the a group like SP but for Homicide? Like a homicide project? If so we should have a mixer. Kill 1 bird with 2 stones. Or something like that. In other words, someone please blow my fucking brains out, please….

3/1/2016 4 comments

Honoring The Fallen. The Ascended. The Free.

by HERE4UOK 2/29/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Hello SP –

Looking for your help with a small project.

I need to know about any confirmed departed fellow members you can share.

I am putting together a tribute video (or trying to at this point) and would greatly appreciate your kind assistance.

Their member name is enough. I’ll search the site for their posts and quote highlights from their words.

Thank You!

HERE4UOK

2/29/2016 31 comments

Never Knowing What To Say

by crockpot14 2/24/2016

written by crockpot14

When you are talking to your friends and they make “harmless” jokes about what you feel and what you do to yourself everyday, what do you say?

I know they do not know what happens when I’m home by myself, but they always make self-harm jokes or suicide jokes. I have recently been trying to open up more to my friends and to actually talk to people but I haven’t gotten to the really deep stuff, and I probably never will. But I have tried getting them to stop using jokes about self-harming or suicide but they just question why I am saying to stop.

Everyday they […]

2/24/2016 2 comments

paper thin walls

by heartless 11/25/2015

written by heartless

Im lost. Feel like life just flipped upside down and idk what is going on or which way is the way outta here. I don’t know if it matters.

More materials have also mysteriously disappeared in the last week. I don’t know where they’re going or if it’s nice and sunny there, but it’s getting increasingly difficult to finish this project. Still have lots of paper. Maybe there’s a way to make walls out of that.

11/25/2015 3 comments

Depression and Anxiety

by DepressionAnxiety 10/24/2015

written by DepressionAnxiety

Hello. I am a college student in Chicago. I’ve been assigned an open topic/open medium project so I’ve decided to take this opportunity to bring some attention to depression and anxiety. If you would like to be part of this project please send me an audio file with your thoughts on the subject (you can also send me a video file if that would be easier for you and I can extract the audio from it). You can say whatever you’d like on the subject but if you need a jumping off point here are a few questions to think about:

– Do you have an […]

10/24/2015 9 comments

Meadow

by cephalus 4/24/2015

written by cephalus

Tall, proud flowers project
Plucked one by one
Until I am all that is left
No competition for sun
Instead of basking and having fun
I shrink down to the size of a thumb
For I made the other plants feel dumb

4/24/2015 2 comments

Why bother

by impossible_girl 4/23/2015

written by impossible_girl

There’s no point. Go inpatient, I fail a course capstone project. Go inpatient, I am still nothing when I get out. Stay out, I will find a way. I will make the impossible possible. I do not want anymore pain and loneliness. Stop trying to save me to make yourselves feel good. You’re making me miserable.

4/23/2015 2 comments

what should i do

by fuckeverything07 4/5/2015

written by fuckeverything07

I have ‘friends’ who always trying to bring me down. I know they’re a lot smarter than me but they always act like i’m the dumbest. They never compliment over success that i did. They never want any idea from me when we do a group project. I dont know why they’re doing this to me. All I know it starts when they know my first sem result( didnt turn out good). And I’m starting to blame myself – why i’m just stupid. I never want this to happen. Now they barely talk to me. well fuck you bitches

4/5/2015 4 comments

Break Me

by Sammi6xoxo 3/26/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Break me down. Please. Disect me. Cut me open. Just tell me what’s wrong with me. I’ll give you all of the tools if you can just look inside. I’m down on my knees begging you to tell me what’s wrong with my mind. Why am I like this? Why do I want these horrible things? I don’t want to be your burden. But I wouldn’t mind being your little science project. I don’t want the drugs. I don’t want the alcohol. […]

3/26/2015 13 comments

I’d rather kill myself than do this final…

by Silverbird 3/4/2015

written by Silverbird

Every single time I push myself towards doing it thats all I can think of…and my teacher wonders why he has to chastise me for taking so long to get started on it…

But this is what I chose…out of all the things I could be, I chose what I liked best, and its enough to drive me to the point of suicide…

I either need to start working or bite the bullet already…but oh no, those aren’t the two only choices obviously…there are never two choices; I could try and join the military again, if they’d take some suicidal person like me who has scars on […]

3/4/2015 3 comments

by Sky_High_ 2/5/2015

written by Sky_High_

Going to treatment tommorow to get help, but in my mind its just going to make it worse. We will see when i get out, but everybody keep yalls head held high, and be strong. Project simicolon ;;; !!! Draw a simicolon on your wrist. The simicolon is used in writing sentences for authors who could end their sentence but have chosen not to. Draw this on your wrist because YOU are this author who could have ended your life but have chosen not to. Stay strong!

2/5/2015 0 comment

Sad eyes

by snowmaiden 1/27/2015

written by snowmaiden

If only I was well, I can leave it all behind.

I am not, I’ve been robbed of my life.

My project gives me anxiety, it overwhelms me. Talked to more people, getting more people involved. They don’t know I am suicidal and very depressed. They don’t know that I need to give up. They don’t know that I will fall apart any moment. The truth is, I don’t think I will make it to finish what I started.

I don’t want to die, but I can’t live a life without a future. It pains me so very much that I have to give up […]

1/27/2015 8 comments

I have to kick the bad habit of overestimating myself

by neverland 11/22/2014

written by neverland

God loves a fool. That is the reason I am still here. It is not because I have strong survival skills. My parents was proud of having a strong baby girl overcoming autism.

Unfortunately, I am not. I think it is a mistake they made for having me. Somehow I think I am burden to them as well as to this world. I guess if it weren’t for me, the autistic kid, my sister and brother could have turned out well . I grew with the world centering around me . I spent my entire childhood visiting psychiatrist, trying all kinds of things […]

11/22/2014 2 comments

What am I doing here?

by neverland 11/16/2014

written by neverland

Common question I have been asking myself. Life is ironic . Those who wants to live dies. Those who doesn’t stays on.
Perhaps this is what discontentment is. Yup you can say I am discontented. The honest truth is that I do not see my purpose of life anymore

I am going to start my Final Year project soon. I am worried that I will pull my teammates grades down. I am worried he will end up doing all the work.

I don’t know what drove me to start this project with him. I guess I have misjudged my capabilities again. I […]

11/16/2014 2 comments

hello, fellow Sufferers!

by Tori 8/28/2014

written by Tori

Hi.

So, uh, I’m new to this website.

Let me introduce myself– my nickname is Tori.

And I’d like to help others instead of helping myself.

that is all

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I think a nice way to try to prevent yourself from cutting is to draw a small flower and write the initial of your closest friend in the middle. When you feel like cutting, you look at your little flower (where ever you place it, not all people cut their wrists) and remind yourself that you, my dear, are perfect and as fragile as a flower, and you are a wonderful creation that DESERVES to exist. Also, please be strong. I […]

8/28/2014 3 comments

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