Common question I have been asking myself. Life is ironic . Those who wants to live dies. Those who doesn’t stays on.
Perhaps this is what discontentment is. Yup you can say I am discontented. The honest truth is that I do not see my purpose of life anymore
I am going to start my Final Year project soon. I am worried that I will pull my teammates grades down. I am worried he will end up doing all the work.
I don’t know what drove me to start this project with him. I guess I have misjudged my capabilities again. I should have done my project alone. At least I would fail alone or rather die alone.
I want to stop persevering cause I am so so tired. My body does not want to seem to stop. I feel like a car with a broken handbreaks. It is like falling through a bottomless pit.
I wish I could leave this place where no one can find me. I know it is time for me to go . I just don’t have the guts to leave.
There are people who finds the guts to slash the wrist. Why Can’t I? I am not expecting myself from anything. I only want the strength to leave. Is it so difficult?
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We all wonder what were doing here at times.
and Yes the irony of life goes on. People who have so much going for them and so much enthusiasm for life wind up dying by some simple unexpected thing. Then others who have it bad and cant stand life and suffer depression have like 4 or five suicide atempts or more and live on in misery.
Please dont cut your wrist. That wont solve anything
You should either find help and live on. Make changes in your life or find some other way to go.
cutting does nothing but ad pain to your life and scars on your body
Uptown234 is right: cutting your wrist won’t solve anything. And many people question where their lives are headed (often during vital life periods, such as Final Year). It’s not very unusual.
You expressed your worry that your partner will end up doing all the work on your school project, but I doubt that will happen if you remain aware of how important it is (which you obviously are).
I will say that based on your post, you sound exhausted. If you can, try to take some time to rest and/or do something you enjoy. Perhaps take a day or two to just relax, watch some movies, read a book, or maybe something else you enjoy to try and clear your head (or even sleep – that’s always good!).
L4Y