There must be some way to control your state of mind. Sometimes I get adrenaline rushes and feel like nothing matters and feel great, other times (like now) everything feels heavy and depressing. basically I am suffering because I can’t stop looking at suicide as a tragic event that will hurt everyone badly, including myself. How can I make it so I stop looking at it that way and instead develop an adventurous/relaxed and eager mindset for suicide? I want to stop feeling the intense guilt, regret, melancholy, and anxiety that comes with this. I’ve read and think lots of people here would “benefit” from […]
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A song i can relate to….
I think it’s time that I got off the kitchen floor
But is there really any point at all?
Waking up this morning felt the same
Better sleep while life is so mundane
It could have been yesterday that I locked the door
I blocked the windows up so I can’t be sure
Now I haven’t even got the will to eat
I’m lame and self-obsessed, that I will concede
I’d like to light a cigarette but I cannot
The lighter’s dead and the gas has been cut off
I’m the one you always seem to read about
The fire inside my eyes […]
ANYBODY WHO KNOWS SALTS CONTACT EMAIL ME AT HANG_U_LANG@HOTMAIL.COM OR just write it here. Also, Salt if you read this email me or comment your skype or number. I’mma call you. I have international calling I believe. I can skype you for sure. Fuck everybody in my city and in my life. I want an outside opinion.
Hello everyone,
This is my first post. Although I have read through much of this website for the past few weeks, I have simply relegated my involvement to that of backseat viewer. I have now decided to share with you a little about who I am and why I browse this website to pass the time.
First, a little bit about me. I have read the sources of many people’s depression and suicidal thoughts and I regret to say that exteriorly, I may represent an unorthodox example of a someone who is plagued with the issue of suicide. I am 19 years old, an excellent student, good looking, […]
Anyone ever read tht book, it literally kills me deep inside by mentioning how i actually feel abt death and now it sucks, i cant get over the bk, or, maybe this life, this death thingy .
Wow. Death.
I know on my previous post, I talk about how things started to work out for me. However, as expected, my world has crumbled down again, and I’ve found the trigger. My own father. He doesn’t love me, he is not proud of me, all he does is blaming me and being sarcastic as hell to me. He gives this overwhelming affection to my sister, he talks to her, he shows how much he loves her in front of me.
These past couple days, I felt perfectly fine. Today, I feel like shit. I started crying with no reason again, I have this urge to hurt […]
Ive found some media coverage around the world on a method that is near full proof and not much pain if taken with alcohol and sleep meds. If read papers and papers and stacks on this shit. Unfortunately this site is about no methods. Its been glamorized in hong kong and korea through media outlets. So ive chosen this as a way out if i do go. Pretty sure i will as i cant comprehend hearing voices till im 90 or so. Also male schizos are 60% likely to attempt suicide once. Its my life lesson i have to learn.
Also people have accidentally killed […]
Hey guys, I know some of you will read this, some of you won’t, I just want to say that if you are struggling, or hurting, feeling down and depressed, having suicide issues, or whatever it is, please come to me, I want to help you, I honestly, truly, really do. I want to help you get through it, I want us to talk, I care about each and every one of you on here and I know you guys may think “you won’t help me” “you have no idea” “I don need your help” but please give me a chance to help, this means […]
Yeah, everyday seems like slow suicide. I always wake up feeling like shit and I’m greeted by a little box beside my bed. It encases a lethal toxin I bought last week to aid my transition. Depression is eating me from the inside and this fucked up totalitarian capitalistic matrix incessantly plunges me into an existential crisis. This is the only place where I feel safe. I’ve read a couple of encouraging posts but the optimism is short-lived. There’s two individuals on here that intrigue me so much, Salt and Randal. I always read their comments on posts and they’re pretty thought provoking. I wonder what their […]
Positive thinking / radical self love
I saw this linked on facebook yesterday and agree with it 100%. Even my friend that I’m in love with, who has a real bad deal in life, believes this think positive crap. I’ve always said I’m living proof you can work as hard as possible, give all of yourself, put out 1000% and still not get shit in return. Seriously, go read the article because I can’t put it any better.
Before you convince yourself that now is the time to leave this world and enter a whole new dimension of an unknown abyss, ask yourself these questions. (and feel free to answer them yourself in the comments):
What makes it so hard for you to stay?
What do you view suicide as?
How would you commit suicide?
On average, 6 people are intimately affected by the suicide of a friend, family member, etc.
Who do you think would miss you the most? (Can be more or less than 6 people.)
Why would those people miss you so much?
What is your favorite thing about your everyday life?
What are some […]
Do you believe in love?
This is a good question.
I believe in wanting someone so badly that it makes it hard for you to live without even thinking about him or her. I believe in feeling good just by having her or him next to you. I believe in being in love more then i believed in myself and that’s probably what keeps me going.
But then again what is love, do we even know love or is it just the idea of love. Could we even recognize love if it wasn’t from what we’ve heard read saw, if it wasn’t for other’s ways […]
I feel empty. I’ve read 4 books in 2 days and now I’m just laying in bed staring at the ceiling. I don’t know what to do anymore.
Did a random entry on a search engine for ‘I’m so fucking lonely’, and this was one of the results. Seems legit.
I haven’t read a bunch on here, but I do know that if I was not sure that there is an existence after we die, I’d have been dead quite a few years ago. I wish I didn’t have this knowledge. The way things are right now, I’d rather not be here. I don’t have the gut’s to put an end to this existence knowing I’ll have to face my maker on the other side.
I’m such a fucking idiot.
I’m tired of not being able to manage my moods.
I’m sick of the fact that I have zero social skills,
and can’t really “read” people.
I’m tired of pills that don’t really fix anything.
I’m tired of not having the balls to kill myself.
(I’ve come pretty close though)
I’m tired of doctor’s who think they can heal me.
(They can’t)
I’m tired of the voices I hear, which I’m convinced are demons.
I’m tired of people not believing they’re real.
I’m sick of the fact that they’ll never stop until I’m dead.
I still believe in God.
I still think I’m going to heaven (but not certain anymore)
I sometimes don’t think […]
Has anyone heard from the user Hulahoop recently. I think they posted last week. Just wanted to check in and see if they are ok.
Hulahoop, if you read this. Please email me. my email is nwren86@yahoo.com. Just want to make sure you’re ok.
@worthless_loser-73 had mentioned in his comments that he wants to die before his birthday that was in early june and he had scheduled a post for 6 june named “by the time you read this” which I thinks that post was for after-completed suicide and that post had been deleted. He has also not posted/commented for many days also.
There are 3 possibilities that
1)worthless_loser-73 has completed his suicide. And that his near people or cops got to know about suicideproject.org from the suicide note and they contacted suicideproject.org email and as a result the sp admin/moderator deleted that scheduled post or
2)worthless_loser-73 has been only injured from his […]
After what seemed like forever of agonizing over my short story, it’s finally complete. Free of grammar errors, and everything.
I chose to write about obsession. It’s toxic and beautiful, all at the same time. The story feature two young boys, blood pacts, and an abundance of flower references (there’s a list with their meanings on the last page, so you don’t have to google them). I call it Hazelnut and Honeysuckle. You can read it here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_hYu-7W-pGpTd4qitNZg1DRrl5hHbu_-EjbxZ06njIM/edit
None of you will probably read it, but I can honestly say I’m proud of this. It’s fairly well written, and people have liked it thus far. I […]
Well when I was little I had the best life I didn’t care what people thought, loved my life, loved my family, friends, oh man I had lots of friends. And I loved it I tried my best to be nice. Well on May 28th 2011 EVERYTHING changed for me and my dad. My mom past away and I miss her so much to this day. Shortly after that school got bad I started getting bullied I lost all my friends so I shut myself in my room 24/7 never talked and thought to myself what did I do? now I have bad anxiety/social problems. […]
Is worthless_loser alive? There was a scheduled post by him for 6 june named “by the time you read this” . I think that 6 june was his date for deadline for suicide. He has not shown any activity for some days also and his scheduled post has been deleted . Who deleted that scheduled post?