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What is Love?

by Ylem 12/25/2015

written by Ylem

I don’t understand love.
I just… I just don’t.

I have never fallen in love with anyone. I have never been in a relationship with anyone.

I can’t interact and connect with anyone on that level. I’ve tried reciprocating if someone shows an interest in me. But I can’t. I just end up hurting the other person because I can never meet them halfway. I just feel nothing.

The only love I have is for my family. That’s the only love I know and can show. I think it’s because they are just the only people I can interact with, as minimal as I do that as well. […]

12/25/2015 2 comments

HUNGRY!!

by bah 12/24/2015

written by bah

Ugh, I’m f*cking hungry and all I wanna eat is junk food!! There’s like nothing in my apt and I’m too depressed to go out.

Eating isn’t much enjoyable anymore because apparently I’m allergic to everything (soy, dairy, wheat, gluten, rice, seafood). What I can eat tastes like cardboard so while I am f*cking hungry, I don’t really *want* to eat. At least the foods I’m “supposed” to eat. -_-‘

Well I’ve got bananas and sour blueberries, but no real food. I ate my salad but ugh. It’s salad. Just. No. Fun.

I want to eat pizza and chips and sushi and noodles and everything and anything carbs!! […]

12/24/2015 7 comments

Lost

by Rinka 12/22/2015

written by Rinka

I feel so lost in this empty world filled with people. I can’t touch them, it’s like they’re so far away. Yet I stay here. Running around in circles. I sit down, but I cannot cry, because I know noone is there to say “It’s ok”. They’re not real. All fake. Go away..

12/22/2015 3 comments

Aaarrrggghh

by disgusting 12/21/2015

written by disgusting

I can’t believe I’m so frustrated over sausage!! So the people I live with have been super nice and insisted I eat real food instead of live off of ramen. I think I’m gaining weight from not being so starved and having food besides ramen. Ramen is all I can literally afford on my own. But they made sausage in sour kraut 3 nights ago and have had me drooling over it. But then, it was to be saved for the next day. And then the next. And then the next. It’s driving me fucking crazy!! All I want is a god damned sausage! Geez […]

12/21/2015 2 comments

ya its me

by kumar cherub 12/19/2015

written by kumar cherub

Have u ever seen a loser and talked with him then u can see me . I’m the real loser and gonna end life within some days. So wish me good luck

12/19/2015 1 comment

Today…

by Ylem 12/19/2015

written by Ylem

Today was… An Okay Day.
That’s a little better. It’s better than what I’ve been feeling for the past 3 weeks.
I have less anger, less rage, less pain, less everything I’ve been feeling lately.
I feel safe for the first time in months. I’m less paranoid. Took a walk on my own with no fear. No need to constantly look over my shoulder and scrutinize every single person walking behind me. I felt free.
I smiled a genuine smile. I could feel it. It wasn’t forced or fake like the ones I’ve been giving. It was a real smile.
I don’t know what’s happening, […]

12/19/2015 5 comments

by deerdezz 12/14/2015

written by deerdezz

Ive ditched cutting some time back but now ive picked up smoking haha. Well if its not one thing its another. Ive racked up some things to put me on the naughty list and while others are concerned how im going to handle them i find myself not really caring anymore. Even worse ive gotten into the habit of being a real clutz. At first it was just on accident but now they happen more frequently. I end up with scrapes, cuts and bruises that linger for a long time…but i kinda dont mind? Especially when cooking i used to be real careful but ive […]

12/14/2015 0 comment

Nobody cares about me :'(

by bah 12/12/2015

written by bah

If I were to die right now, nobody I know (in real life) would give a shit. It’s hard to want to live when nobody cares about you and you think your life is worthless, that it’s not worth living. And even worse when you can’t fucking kill yourself either, so you’re forced to be alive and miserable.

And it’s hard not to be miserable and depressed when nobody cares about you.

Bah!

12/12/2015 5 comments

by nicole123 12/12/2015

written by nicole123

Today was really hard . I had to get through work without breaking down . But I think my sadness turned into anger today . I work at a smoothie bar/wrap place and I was trying to make a wrap and the tortilla kept breaking and so I threw it at the wall. I was so fustrated . And it was so busy. I hate serving people . Everyone is always in a hurry. I can’t wait to finish my dental assisting class so I can get a real job.

I wish life wasn’t so hard for me . I wish I had it easier . […]

12/12/2015 1 comment

To Nobody

by Mike Rowedick 12/11/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

Some men write letters to their unborn child
An expression of love in a world gone wild
If my life were to end before yours begins
I want to share my love and make amends

But my letter is not addressed to an unborn baby
But to an unfulfilled desire that someday, just maybe
A new life could have been created if I had been a real man
I’d have loved you and nurtured you and been your number one fan

I’d comfort and care for you and make everything alright
I’d even chase monsters from under your bed each night
I’d have found you the best […]

12/11/2015 14 comments

The Road

by nozmoking 12/11/2015

written by nozmoking

Life was new
All to see; all to hear
All to feel, all was real
Then there was a bend in the road

The stars come out
With wonders and thrills
Miracles and spectacles
Then another bend in the road

Dreams and love
Hands in hands
An embrace; a kiss
And yet another bend in the road

Time and age
Love is now rage
Peace becomes pain
Then again, a bend in the road

No path remains clear
No wonder just fear
Seeds have been sown
Now, my load is end of the road.

12/11/2015 4 comments

Protected: So, this Christmas is my last.

by whiskered-fish 12/10/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/10/2015 0 comment

Location. Location. Location

by Frazer 12/8/2015

written by Frazer

If you lived near someone else on here, do you think you’d want to be friends with them in real life? Would you want to meet someone on here? Or do you like the practically total anonymity?

just curious.

12/8/2015 24 comments

The worst part

by notsureifreadytogo 12/7/2015

written by notsureifreadytogo

Is not being able to tell anyone. Limited to a note. An afterthought. No deep conversations. No reassurances. Just a fucking piece of paper. I want to tell people. I dont want to be stopped. I want to say a real goodbye. But you cant. You have to hold the secret, while you make ready. You have to prepare them without telling them. That’s what makes it a selfish act. How selfish of society, to make something so personal into a selfish act itself, because you can’t ease the burden for them without interference.

12/7/2015 1 comment

I just realised how lonely I feel.

by Lawli 12/4/2015

written by Lawli

I have been depressed for a long time and still never believed I was lonely, I have family and family etc.

Just this week it all came clear to me. Nobody understands me, nobody know who I really am, they don’t care about anything I like or are interested in, so I have nobody close to talk to.

Now it only feels like I have no friends, and my family are another world away from me. I don’t talk to them, and I have nothing to say to them, if I started talking about a passion or something I’m interested in, they would be hearing my voice, […]

12/4/2015 5 comments

How do you guys hermit?

by bah 12/4/2015

written by bah

I’ve been a shut-in for months now, only going out to get food. Lately I haven’t even been going out to get food. Been ordering food so all I have to do is go down 4 flights of stairs. But even that’s hard to do now. A lot of days I go hungry because I don’t have real food in my apt and I don’t even want to face the world, even if it’s so little as having to walk out my apt and go down and meet my delivery guys.

I feel pathetic but the only thing I do is go online, go to suicide […]

12/4/2015 22 comments

my eyes hurt

by sun prince 12/2/2015

written by sun prince

I’ve been so angry for the past two days and I don’t really know why, I just have this rage inside me that’s extremely hard to control. I’m becoming more violent and my already small amount of patience is dwindling to nothing. All day I’ve felt like punching a wall, or punching someone. My skin feels tingly when I’m angry and I’m not gonna lie, it feels good. I feel like I’m invincible and like no one can touch me. Three nights ago, my girlfriend temporarily disabled her Instagram account and I was really worried and I spiraled down so fast, and ever since that […]

12/2/2015 3 comments

I Will Only Let You Down

by winterskyout 11/30/2015

written by winterskyout

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66GHz-H4k6M
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still […]

11/30/2015 2 comments

Why all the hate?

by Alexther 11/27/2015

written by Alexther

I seriously don’t get why most people hate hardcore drug users… You don’t fucking know me, you don’t know my reasons for taking the stuff, and yet you tell me I’m ”a drain on our society”? I work for the cash I buy my fixes with, and I mean real work, not stealing from your fucking pocket or anyone else’s for that matter.

”Junkie”
”Methhead”
”Tweaker”

Oh please, the hypocrisy is limitless! Most of this shit comes from drinkers/smokers. Well assholes, EVERYONE has vices! The only reason that mines are ”evil” is because they’re illegal. Fuck the law, by the way. I’m not gonna let a bunch […]

11/27/2015 9 comments

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by quaero 11/25/2015

written by quaero

Not purpose. not peace. I will get over this lust, this loathing that lurks by my mouth. lust of my awareness to get mixed with outside things, lust to get lost in memory. why, this self is not the real one, i have seen it. There exists a state where one is distant from everything and yet he can function genuinely and solve problems. Everything is complete and honest, no lie involved.

11/25/2015 7 comments

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