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by tphg 7/22/2015

written by tphg

This is the last place that I’m willing to share my thoughts. I’m tired of trying to help people understand how I feel about life; it’s a waste of a breath. As a self-professed nihilist, one of the big rules that I live by is that “it doesn’t matter what other people know”. Trying to convince anyone of anything is a waste of breath. Just leave them all to their own meaningless thoughts and I’ll stick to mine.

But here, I’m as close to being around comrades as I’ll ever be. Even though I feel half dead from a viral infection in my chest, that

7/22/2015 1 comment

Nature is Nihilistic: my view of the world

by wndozh8er 7/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

no matter if you commit suicide or die of natural causes in old age, the end result is the same: you will die in the end! Nature is cruel, heartless, and incredibly restrictive. For example, nature says the Ebola virus, which has no good function whatsoever, is more important than a child’s life. To me this is a horrible reality. No wonder people make up gods and believe in an afterlife. I however, do not because I am a man of observation. I can not look truth in the eye and deny it without being delusional and ignorant.

All all we are is meat. Most brains […]

7/22/2015 7 comments

It’s okay.

by tctc 7/21/2015

written by tctc

It’s okay to feel sad.
It’s okay to feel unwanted and lonely.
It’s okay to feel tired.

Afterall, pain is only temporary, right? And so is everything. Nothing lasts forever. Things only last long enough.

<3 y'all

7/21/2015 3 comments

Letting It All Go

by kills 7/14/2015

written by kills

I figured since this is where we met that it’s only fitting that I write you something beautiful here. Everything comes full circle and I pray that as I let you go – you will come back to me at the right time. I do love you but you are in love with someone else. You say you still love me but your heart is in his hands right now. I hold onto you in an unhealthy way right now. I hold onto parts of my past for comfort and security instead of setting my sights on the limitless possibilities ahead of me. My […]

7/14/2015 25 comments

Anime

by Woozi 7/14/2015

written by Woozi

Wow, off topic right?
Well if anyone needs a cheer up, Bleach is on Netflix. Also a lot of other anime.

7/14/2015 2 comments

The stresses of being different.

by alonelybird 7/13/2015

written by alonelybird

Everyone always gives me such weird looks whenever I talk or do something. I just say stuff, it’s a constant stream of shit. All because of my anxiety, talking just saying anything is a coping mechanism. People think I’m fucked in the head and they’re right. My actions are also mainly from anxiety, me constantly freaking out and just doing/saying different things because I don’t know any other way to cope except for drugs and self-harm and they’re probably not too good(?). I think I’m gonna flip out tomorrow, I can feel it, it’s not going to be a good day. I kinda feel like […]

7/13/2015 7 comments

Living, Breathing Something…

by theunknownxx 7/12/2015

written by theunknownxx

I know that most of you don’t know my story or what I’ve been through and what I’m going through now, the thing is, my story is a little too long, but right now…I just need help…my parents keep dragging me down and day by day my suicidal thoughts grow bigger and bigger and bigger…I’m just about ready to put on my black dress, my white floral heels, my floral black net leggings, do my hair and make-up, right a good bye note to my family and take the bottle of pills I’ve been stashing up, 197 of them 20mg each, that’s 3,940mg in me, […]

7/12/2015 2 comments

A rant/question

by violinplayer22 7/11/2015

written by violinplayer22

So, I watching pretty little liars with my sister right now, I have to be quick. If there are typos im sorry. So, I have been taking sertraline(Zoloft) for the last year, and I just forgot to take it the last week. I haven’t thought about suicide at all, and I looked it up to see if the medication had any effect. I couldn’t get a clear answer, so I’m asking now If Zoloft could have any effect on me. Thanks.

7/11/2015 3 comments

I’m tired of suffering

by CantTakeItNoMore 7/10/2015

written by CantTakeItNoMore

I don’t know why it’s so hard to survive in this world. It’s not fair. The rich people live easily and they don’t have to worry and I have to struggle every damn day. It’s hard and I’m trying to carve out a path for myself. Sometimes I wish I was never born. I think it might’ve been easier. I don’t have to struggle to find full time work, I don’t have to pay bills, and I don’t have to worry about anyone. When I think about it I think I’ve suffered from depression on and off for a long time. I’ve contemplated suicide on […]

7/10/2015 7 comments

Now I know

by Katki 7/8/2015

written by Katki

So, I found out for the first time in 20 years that I was right.. Being married did NOT give him permission.

When I said NO and when I was asleep and woke up with him on top of me it was NOT consensual.

Multiple times over a long span of time I lived in Hell because it was his ‘right’ as my husband.

FUCK YOU – YOU LOUSY MISERABLE SONOFABITCH – HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO ME? HOW DARE YOU!

HATE and ANGER and DEPRESSION and MISERY and its all because of YOU, YOU BASTARD

I want to SCREAM – all these fucking years like this because I WAS […]

7/8/2015 5 comments

Yellow Pic

by Parsley5267 7/8/2015

written by Parsley5267

I don’t honestly do not know why I am even writing this. Big brother can watch me have my nervous breakdown, I guess. It was not at all in my intentions to be one of those people who threaten their selves with their lives when things get hard. That’s weak, right? Although, I’m struggling to understand that, it makes your mentality to have strenuous strength to cope with the inevitability. Here’s the kicker, I am 16. I haven’t even lived to have the urge to end it, right? Ahhhhhhh, or maybe it could be the raging hormones and the typical teenage babble like, he said […]

7/8/2015 4 comments

why

by Sammie Motionless 7/6/2015

written by Sammie Motionless

Why is that I feel so scared and so paranoid now that he’s cheated on me twice. I feel as if I were back in when I had a abusive relationship but different. Why is that I feel that way? Is there something wrong with me? I mean I could just trust him again. But I’m scared to do that. Like what if he does it again. What if my friends are right? What if I am just letting him get away with it? Help me please I dont know what to do or feel . I should let it go shouldn’t I ?

7/6/2015 2 comments

Bored with Life

by cuky 7/6/2015

written by cuky

Not sure how to go back.
To the time and place of contentment.
Always looking forward to something.
Sanguine.
Fastforward. Decades pass.
Alone and disconnected.
Betrayed by God
Not having the common decency to exist.
Just as well. Turns out, he’s a dick.
Betrayed by life partner.
A wound that will never heal.
Powerless to trust or forgive.
The cyclops has no will to live.

7/6/2015 0 comment

Irony at it’s finest

by strange_insane 7/4/2015

written by strange_insane

It’s ironic, really. I helped people for most of my life, be it in person or on the web, trying to get them to rethink their life choices, telling them it’s all right, and that suicide isn’t the answer. I guess now I know how they felt when the foot is on the other shoe. I truly am weak, pathetic, and stupid, and I have just proved them right.

I will be ending it shortly tomorrow. I have made letters stating my amends with all individuals I have wronged in my life and a goodbye letter to my love. My worldly possessions will be given away […]

7/4/2015 3 comments

just read and try to understand.

by cant.fixme 7/2/2015

written by cant.fixme

When the sun goes down
and the sky is full of stars

Would you let me in
would you hold me thigh

When its dark inside
and i cant find myself

Would you call my name
and make it feel alright

When i fall back down
would you bring me up

would you kiss me right
and make me feel ALIVE
_Y.T

7/2/2015 2 comments

Pathetic?

by Freakinblackhart 7/1/2015

written by Freakinblackhart

Where do I start?

In a way I feel I have no right to be here. I’ve tried talking to others but repeatedly told my problems aren’t as bad as my sisters. Just first born problems I guess, feeling sorry for myself. I can’t fuck-ass around anymore, this is reality. As if I need to be told. Is my parent’s divorce reality enough? How about my sisters cutting, real enough for ya? how about not being able to sleep without feeling guilty about something: being a burden to my dad, an ungrateful daughter to my psychotic mum(emotional blackmailer, physically abusive to my sister and dad, compulsive […]

7/1/2015 11 comments

not seeing the point

by wdlj13 6/29/2015

written by wdlj13

There are so many things running through my head i might not make much sense, as I always do whenever I get suicidal. Actually saying that I’m suicidal actually makes me feel real juvenile for some reason, because I keep telling myself that I’m too old to run away from things like this. But truth be told, I’m just really scared of my life turning into nothing and having no point in life. I’m just really scared of my life right now, because I can literally feel it unraveling, because of who I am (and who I am NOT to be more precise).

I’ve always thought […]

6/29/2015 1 comment

Why am I so lost?

by violinplayer22 6/29/2015

written by violinplayer22

I don’t know how or why I even decided I wanted to commit suicide. I have an amazing and loving family, a group of beautiful friends, and amazing health. Yet, despite all this, I have decided that suicide is the right way to turn. Yeah, I’ve had problems with anxiety for the past 5 years, and I lost my best friend to his slut girlfriend, but this shouldn’t be my only option.

6/29/2015 3 comments

regret

by ashley 6/29/2015

written by ashley

I wish I didn’t tell my mom about how I self harmed, because I’m really feeling like I need to again. I get that I don’t actually need to the way I need water or food, but it sure feels the same fucking way right now.

6/29/2015 1 comment

Am I Crazy?

by zombiedoctor 6/28/2015

written by zombiedoctor

So let me just throw this out there.
I’m not suicidal but I have a chronic and, apparently, incurable illness that over the last 8 years has lowered my quality of life to almost comically unbearable levels. There are certainly days when I think, “so how long do you think you can endure this before jumping out of a fucking window?”
Let’s get real here – if you were an American being held prisoner by ISIS (or, for that matter, a suspected Muslim terrorist being held at a black site by the CIA) and tortured sadistically and de-humanized every day and was reasonably sure that […]

6/28/2015 2 comments

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