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No gain only Loss

by slaves2love 6/23/2013

written by slaves2love

So this is my first post and I’m either afraid I will leave out too many details or give too many details.Â I’m not really sure who will read this but there is no happy ending to this story.Â Here we go.

To start things off I’ve never been truly happy I suppose.Â I’ve lived pretty rough at this point.Â Early on in life I dealt with an abusive sibling who being much older tortured me in ways I dare not say at this point.Â Things seemed to ease up upon taking up gymnastics which gave me an outlet to do things.Â However this gave me untold […]

6/23/2013 2 comments

i want to disappear

by imlostatsea 6/23/2013

written by imlostatsea

nobody really knows what I feel like inside. I am in therapy and medication but I still don’t feel good. I cut just to release what I am feeling inside. some people have seen the scars but they will never understand. I lost many people in my life and the only thing keeping me going is bands. I have bad social anxiety and I can’t stand others seeing my ugly face. some people at school tease me but that is only to impress their friends. I truly hate myself. every feature about me. my nose, my hands. my back, my elbows, my chin, my cheeks, […]

6/23/2013 2 comments

this is the end

by Stacie 6/18/2013

written by Stacie

i realzied iam the biggest pieace of shit that can exist i somehow make others around me to try to commit sucide somehow by just being myself there is no help for me anymore

at all Â I have called people tryed to reach out and i have a love that i dont feel is been returnted i know its stupid to say goodbye on the computer like some kind of attention ply mabe i do want attention but mondays are the hardest i dont care anymore no one cares about me i might as wel be invisible right now so goodbye iam sick of it i […]

6/18/2013 6 comments

I just want to check out

by anon81 6/16/2013

written by anon81

I ruinedmy life with bad choices, poor academic decisions, bad financial decisions, and dishonesty. When I met my husband and gave birth to our beautiful sweet babies I was so sad. Sad because all at once I knew I would never be worthy of this gift I was given because of my past mistakes.

I have devoted 10 years of counseling to my bullshit, with multiple explanations that the attention seeking and erratic behavior from age 18-23 was linked to feeling worthless at home, feeling powerless, bla bla. I don’t blame anyone but myself. The best way I can explain it is that I was crazy […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

I don’t know why

by Meaghan 6/14/2013

written by Meaghan

I don’t know why I feel this way

I don’t know why I do this to myself

I don’t know why I cry so much

I don’t know why I tried to kill myself

I don’t know why I push everyone away

I don’t know why I feel so alone

I don’t know why I am anxious

I don’t know why you hate me

But then again i think i do.

6/14/2013 2 comments

Falling apart

by disturbedinlife 6/14/2013

written by disturbedinlife

My life is falling apart by every minute. I lost my papau (greek grandpa) and i lost my very close family friend to me, my family is having problems and my so called “Friends” auctally hate me. Ive started cutting. I feel worthless. Even at school my teacher doesnt even call on me, i put my hand up in class and you know what. she dosent listen to me nor talk ot me. i feel invisiable.

i feel like im nothing. I hate my life

i hate everything.

6/14/2013 5 comments

I’m still alive!

by MichelleJ 6/12/2013

written by MichelleJ

Looks like my previous suicide plan isn’t necessary for now. My plan was to wait for five years, then kill myself if life is fucked still, or if it fucks up. There’s no way of knowing if life will fuck up, but because I’m happier now, I’ll see how I am in five years. Eye surgery successful, even though I only have one real eye, the other one feels the same as the real one, no more pain, have friends in one state in my country if I give up on family here or if they give up on me. Either wway, suicide isn’t necessary. […]

6/12/2013 2 comments

So, Uhm, Hi…

by JustKeepDreaming 6/12/2013

written by JustKeepDreaming

Well, I guess hello.
I don’t exactly know what I am doing here..
About ten minutes ago I was ready to end my life, but a person I know recommended I check out this one website awhile back and I figured it couldn’t hurt. That’s how I ended up here.
I don’t really know what I am suppose to say, or do. But I just really need to tell someone what is on my mind.
If you are also on this site reading my words, it is safe to assume that you’re dealing with something around the topic of suicide so you know the amount […]

6/12/2013 12 comments

Everyone’s leaving me. How can I trust people?

by dbg 6/12/2013

written by dbg

Three years ago this summer I lost my father. He managed to make it to my graduation and my first summer semester in college. However, towards the end of that summer my father decided to take his own life. To be a victim of SUICIDE.

During that summer, I lost three of my best friends. Not cause of death, no. But because we split up and went to different universities around the state. We do still talk to each other from time to time, its just hard to find another group of people that you share some of the same interests in, the same personalities, and […]

6/12/2013 4 comments

killing me

by givin' up? 6/8/2013

written by givin' up?

I fell like there’s a stone destroying my chest..
my body has banned me cry..
I refused to look sad at school or in front of my friends..
I have to be a support to my friends
I have to stop cutting
I’m the only who want to scream?
my world is in other dimension..
please just tell me that I’m not the only one feeling like that right now
nesecito contarle a alguien mi vida pero tengo tanto miedo de darle mis problemas a otro, ser feliz no era lo mas importante? no tengo corazon, estoy sola, me siento asi pero me da miedo […]

6/8/2013 1 comment

i did it again.

by Charlotte 6/7/2013

written by Charlotte

four months, down the drain. i want to get a tattoo when i am older, one that looks like the red scratch on my hand at the base of my thumb. i have tried to tell myself that it doesent count, but i know that it does. i know that after four months i have hurt myself again, but to be honest i dont care. everything was just building up inside of me and everytime i look at the cut i am not angry or sad. i am strangely happy or proud. i dont know why. this cut right now means so much […]

6/7/2013 3 comments

I found this so sad- and sadly, it’s true. Bad things happen to good people. I wish this could change :/

by PascelTrees 6/5/2013

written by PascelTrees

6/5/2013 0 comment

Why so ser…Se..Sd…Depressed?

by Faithless 6/2/2013

written by Faithless

They are all the same. My artistry shot through, my ability disjointed. Let it stop. I can’t create anything worth a damn anymore. I have such hatred for you Faithless. I despise you Faithless. And yet perhaps I cannot hate enough. I am still here. Is it the medication? Is it a peverse bond with my dearests? Am I really not that depressed? What am I perhaps? I know what I was; Smart, artsy, witty, social and earning a decent wage. What am I now poor, sad, pathetic, dense and medicated. I was never alone, I will never pretend at that. I still have such […]

6/2/2013 1 comment

My Nights

by kieravan 5/31/2013

written by kieravan

I can’t even explain my feelings every night

I feel my heart aching as I turn out the light

Can’t shut my eyes, swollen from each tear

I never expect my thoughts to get this severe

Knife, scissors, pills all cover my desk.

All which can leave me very statuesque.

ThoughtsÂ eruptÂ my mind about all I hate

I don’t know really if I want death to wait.

Each night I spend lying completely alone

When will it get better? it remains unknown.

Searching deep down to find me a reason

Why I keep living through this suicidal season.

Exploding with depression as I lie in my bed

This pain is too much, makes me wish I was dead.

These thoughts […]

5/31/2013 0 comment

I hate love

by Lover4evr 5/31/2013

written by Lover4evr

My boyfriend and I just got in a fight. Beginning because I wouldn’t send him pictures. He got mad because I sent ONE to a kid over a year ago, as I went through my freshman slut phase. I told him it was a mistake and not to talk about. But he kept dwelling on it. I started crying because this is what it causing my pain again. People bringing up the old me and bashing on me. He kept asking why I was crying and I just kept telling him he wouldn’t understand. Finally, I reminded him of my depression, which he then reminded […]

5/31/2013 8 comments

Secrets

by HurtsButHelps 5/26/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

I remember when I had none
No secrets.
There were no need for them.
I could trust anyone and everyone with anything.
I had no secrets.
I had no worries.

But one day something changed.
I became older, more mature
and suddenly everything was my fault.
Have you ever had a loved one pass?
Have you ever been bullied?
Has your mother ever gotten mad at you,
and said the words “Its just who you are”?
That’s all happened to me.
Now I’m worried.
Now I have secrets.

There’s no going back to the old me.
There’s no reversing what’s happened.
There’s nothing I can do,
besides […]

5/26/2013 1 comment

For you

by HurtsButHelps 5/22/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

For you,
I would climb any mountain.
I would cross any river.
I would navigate through any desert.
I would go through anything,
for you.

For you,
I would walk a thousand miles.
I would limp a thousand miles.
I would even crawl a thousand miles.
I would do it on hot coals.
I would do it on ice.
I would do anything,
for you.

For you,
I would love no other.
You are my entire world.
But you don’t care.
I would cross the world for you,
but you wouldn’t take a single step for me.
So why do I keep coming back?
Because I would […]

5/22/2013 2 comments

What Did I Do Wrong?

by Olivia Katelynn 5/21/2013

written by Olivia Katelynn

What did i do wrong?

Why are you always sad?

Why do you look so depressed?

Are you okay?

Is there any way is can help you?

Why dont you ever smile anymore?

What did i do wrong?

Why would you want to hurt?

Why do you intentionally harm?

What happened to your wrist?

Why are your thighs so bloody?

What did i do wrong?

Why do you dream of suicide?

Why would you want to die?

How can i make you stop?

How […]

5/21/2013 2 comments

A little deeper

by HurtsButHelps 5/21/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

It was only the first time.
I spun the blade around in my hands
contemplating if I should really do this or not.
I heard my mom yell.
Yes, I should, It’s worth it.
The blade sank into my arm,
cutting across my arm.
Not too deep.

It was only the second time.
The kids at school were bullies.
My parents just got mad.
I took the blade in my hands.
I didn’t even think about it.
I pushed it into my arm,
cutting across parallel to the last one,
A little deeper.

It was at least the 50th time.
I didn’t even have different reasons anymore.

5/21/2013 1 comment

why

by myowndestruction 5/21/2013

written by myowndestruction

why why why is the question i get asked everyday .
why are you sad why are you mad why are you hurt why are you depressed . why why why
why are you cutting why are you suicidal why do you wanna die .
why do you feel so alone .
and i just sit there and cry cause to be completely honest i dont know why i dont why i am such a mess or when it began.
i dont know why i wanna kill myself i just feel like it would be the best thing .

my bestfriend kellis commited suicide today […]

5/21/2013 2 comments

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