So, I never thought i’d be trying to talk to people online for advise but here goes nothing… Iv’e been with many women trying to find that one girl and all of my relationships have never really lasted long because I just emotionally refuse to fully give myself to someone until my last relationship. I hope you won’t judge but my last relationship was online in an online game me and my friend used to play and I met this girl, she was really nice and I was getting in to her and I could feel she liked me and just when I was getting […]
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I know there are endless threads on this topic but I can’t seem to find a consistent answer. Does anyone know of a painless way to commit suicide (either from research or from a painless past overdose)? I do not know if I will get a response and if I do receive one I am not looking for some form of moral support. I understand that there is much to take out of life and that, as the 15 year old I am, I have not yet experienced many of the joys life has to offer, but I have suffered for too long. Medications and […]
I’ve come to realize that when someone asks any variation of “how are you?” They don’t want to hear the truth. They want to hear something along the lines of “I’m good, thanks.” So they can go on and not feel guilty about not having asked why you’re sad. If you didn’t admit it, you’re not right?
The same goes for when they do actually ask if you’re upset about something. They don’t want to hear that you feel like your entire life is crumbling around you, they just want to look like a caring person for five seconds.
So you hide behind “I’m fine” […]
Reality is boring & LIMITED !!
Real life is boring & LIMITED !!
Real world is boring & LIMITED !!
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, […]
fuck Reality ! Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks ! Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring ! movies, novels books, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
by niki
written by niki
fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING […]
The goals achieved.
The hopes desired.
Last goodbyes.
New starts.
Eyes are tired.
Soon they wont remember me,
Soon words will be rarely exchanged.
Soon they will have a family with children with exotic names.
Soon ill be a memory to them, soon I will not even cross their mind.
It will all take place over time
I feel so alone, and each time I wish to scream “Don’t Go”.
But they will leave me even though i love them to the pit of my soul.
I know how it works, it happens each time.
But it just makes me want to desperately rewind.
I know how it works, it happens every time.
Even though i wish to rewind.
rewind.
rewind.
rewind.
I know […]
I´m total failure and I know my life is heading nowhere and I lived in endless hope, but now the hope is totally gone and I don´t want to live anymore in this freaking world .
Well, I sure did put my 2.5 cents in today on many comments. I was inspired, for lack of a better word.
Whew. Apparently, a muse somewhere struck me with the writing bug this morning. Or, y’know, too much caffeine to know what to do with myself.
I will be gone for a few days. My mother’s memorial service is tomorrow, and I’m taking the rest of the weekend to remember and honor her. I’m sad she died, but I’m relieved she’s not suffering anymore. I know without a doubt she’s responsible for the events in the past two days. It’s my mother’s undying love […]
Hello,
I’ve been on this site a few times to ease my sadness. (I read posts that were close to what I felt, and regained hope from users’ comments.) After 3 years of discovering this place, I finally decided to create an account and tell my story.
I’m almost 20 now and I’ve been sad or depressed since I was 10. I don’t quite know if it was depression all this time with all the ups and downs in my life, but it sure took a toll on who I am today. (My parents don’t know about my “depression” if it is one…) Due to certain things that happened […]
I’m never good enough, I never make the right decisions, according to everyone else. I managed to pull A’s and B’s out of my ass when my mother passed away. I went back to classes two weeks after my entire life was destroyed before my eyes and yet I passed a university semester with flying colors. So, I tell my parents, being my step mother and father that I want to take an aerial silks class to, you know..do something for myself for once. I am a straight A student, I personal train three days a week and I hold a really good job, and […]
On 14 May 2014, I died. This was my 9th attempt and first success. I didn’t want to come back. But, yet again, I was denied of what I wanted most of all: to be free of all the pain, suffering, bipolar/PTSD and abuse I’ve endured for over 30 years. People called me selfish. Maybe so, but when you’ve lost everything that mattered, everyone you loved, even though they didn’t love you, being abandoned, rejected, your brain fucking with you on a daily basis, and you fight every single day to get through it, death is the only way out. I’m done with shrinks, the […]
I’m drowning in my own sadness and depression. Just when i think I might be getting better I get worse. It’s a constant cycle of feeling happy then utterly hopeless and wanting to die. I can’t break the pattern no matter what drugs the docs prescribe or what activities I used to enjoy. I can’t find a thing in my life to lift this depression. I’ve tried all the things from before but nothing helps. I’ve taken to constantly listening to music to try and help but every song no matter how happy it sounds makes me even sadder and more depressed. I can’t win […]
is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!
by niki
written by niki
is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..
otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!
I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & […]
Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??
by niki
written by niki
Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring […]
Not really in the mood to delve in the whys and where-to’s. About a month ago, now, I decided that perhaps it would be best to end my life. I’m setting into motion what I feel should be done before I leave, and it will take me a while. I have a lot of student loans, and if I die, I’m sure the burden may go to my family. I still need to find out how true this is. I also would like to help my mother pay for her house and get it together; she needs a few new appliances and perhaps I can […]
I’m still struggling. Suffering every single day, trying to get through this god damn life. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts suck.
I just can’t do anything about it.
I’m lost.
I’m hopeless.
I’m desperate for happiness.
And I’m suicidal.
“Pain Demands To Be Felt” – John Green
“I’ve come to learn this world is full of sin” Her Last Words by; Courtney Parker
If you guys are up to helping me, I’d very much appreciate that. Give me advice, on how I should deal with this. Anything will help.
I guess I realized I was different from the other kids around grade 4. I had big glasses, blonde hair, Scrawny, and a little bit on the short side. I grew up in a small town in a poor area in Vermont, pretty much in spitting distance of the Canadian border. My father is a city boy who grew up in Hartford Connecticut, My mother is a country girl from Brownington Vermont. Who I am is a direct result of their differences. My dialect is pure Vermonter, Until I get upset, Once that happens that Connecticut accent initiates full swing. Vermont is a strange place, […]
I am depressed, but I keep the thoughts to myself. Suppressing my sadness with a fake smile and loud laugh. I did what I was told to do everyday but yet,I always wake up from my sleep feeling empty .
I have no reason to live but I don’t want my mom to be upset and devastated, walking to my room seeing her lifeless child on the bed with a gun and bed sheets dripping with blood.
But I also cannot bear the feeling of being completely alone and empty, so I made a deal to myself.
In 2016, I will put an end to my depression, if […]
I hear voices in my head
I believe fairies dwell in flower beds
The night is a mystery and not my friend
For I see things at every corner and end
I cry for four days a week
Because of blame and sorrow my heart can’t keep
My dreams, like everyone else, have gone
Because they too are tired to go on
I don’t believe I belong
Life has been singing that to me like a song
I am a poet, but to everyone my poems appear
To be of sadness, yearn, insecurity, and fear
There’s a new voice in my head
That says I’d rather be better off as dead
But since I’m still present
And death may seem […]
I guess I’ll start by saying I’ve battled with depression, sadness and self loathing for over half my life and boy has it been a battle. From as long as I can remember I’ve made bad choices and generally have become a person a do not respect. It’s been quiet awhile sine I could look at myself in the mirror, for all I see is shame, pain and sadness in my own eyes. I guess I just don’t respect myself and what I’ve become.
I have been a horrible son and brother, who seem to drop off the face of the earth whenever life brings me […]