I’ve already figured out how I’m going to do it, I’m just struggling on the when part. Is there ever a right time? I’d do it today but my daughters birthday is thursday. Should I wait till after? I just don’t know if I can bear the pain till then. I know the hold that a death anniversary holds on people so I’m trying to be considerate of that. But like I said, I don’t Know if I can bare to go through another day. I’m so done.
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This was probably my 32nd time trying to end my life… and again I failed… I can never seem to fully break the skin enough to do anything. :'( I just want to do because, no one needs me nor wants me around and I have no purpose nor reason to exist anyway…
I still have a few other ways to try before I officially give up on trying to end my life for good… so far I’ve tried, Hanging, burning, cutting, drowning, electrocution, running in rush hour traffic, and beating myself. And I have done all of these things multiple times… 🙁 And no one […]
I just took 15 ibuprofen . I did it because I want my parents to know I need help. I don’t want to die. I’m home alone should I call my dad to take me to the ER? PLEASE HELP I DONT WANT TO DIE 🙁
So.. I’ve beenn seriously contemplating suicide. I have so many support systems, but I’m just not sure if i can do this anymore. It’s too much
I have a weak heart because I had anorexia, and my doctor has to watch my potassium levels because of that. Too low, my heart stops beating. Too high and I have a heart attack. I’m incredibly depressed and I don’t know how to do this anymore. Should I kill myself? Is this suffering going to justify me checking out early? Does anyone know of your body will reject (throw up) an overdose on potassium? How do I make things […]
i hold the blade
It casts a shade
Over my life
That is filled with so much strife
It’s starting to smell
Should I follow the plan
The walking feet of life
We will conquer the land
God of the sky, Zeus
Ultimate Hercules
One day when I am free
And it’s just me
Finally, the twisted curse over
I heard some weird sounds
There’s only one thing now
Gotta’ get the fuck out
Is it one month or three more days
The earth, I feel, rock of ocean
The water beats but not my mother
Nobody
It was all our curse. Bide the time.
OK I GIVE. Everyone jumped on me about my dog, so I will stay alive until she dies. Should only be a few more years. I can’t stand the thought of someone else having her.
Trust.
That word alone makes me confused. It’s something you give to someone and expect them to respect it. I gave that to a couple people and a couple people abused that. Someone close to me, he abused it. What he did changed my view on him forever. He didn’t do much but it was enough to cause my body to tense up and I was paralyzed with confusion and fear.
Why did he touch me that way? Did he think I was my mother? Being intoxicated changes what you see. I don’t know really, I was practically a hold still. It scares me thinking that he […]
Errr-sorry about the unsupportive manner in which I was attempting to “help” the poor upstanding father to cope,just then…It was Tough Love..and I think it can be very effective if applied the right way….I really do love this site and honestly it helps me quite a bit. I dont want to get 86’d out of here,guys.
For some reason,that seems to happen to me wherever I go and fairly frequently.(???WHY???)I feel so persecuted sometimes.Prob because im so pretty..Yes,I think that must be it.Jealous and Unattractive people are behind this campaign of persecution:):);) (JK)
Seriously though,I cant stand homophobic people. Makes me get […]
Well. Those 3 days I spoke about prior are up. The stage is set. I’ve never been so goddamn fucking nervous in my life. Should I back out last minute or fail, you have my word I will be back tomorrow to explain what went wrong. Gotta be strong, determined. This is what I want.
goodluck and godspeed
Frank
I’m thinking whether I should seek help for my depression. (Just a self diagnosis) Everyday there is just something that makes me feel more and more miserable. I feel like such a disappointment and am just wondering before I actually do kill myself and leave my family to grieve. Should I actually seek help or is it not even worth it?
I have prevented my self from preparing for my death many times but today it feels stronger. I feel like getting up at this very moment and getting what i plan on using to end myself. I feel sad that this night (or shall I say early morning) could be the moment I final do it. Each time I have these thoughts of preparation I always look online for a place to talk to someone just to know someone is there. I have lost so many friends and just want someone to know what I have been feeling and what I plan to do just […]
I’m 52, I have severe mental illness, I haven’t worked for my living in twenty years, I have a son that I never see. I live alone and have virtually no friends anymore.
I don’t listen to music, I can barely keep my house clean, I don’t cook anymore, I am on the internet all the time because I’ve really got nothing else.
I have N, I am storing it for future use, I don’t want to upset my mother so I’m trying to hold on until she passes.
Should I not be here? Sorry I am not some guy hanging out with his mates in a virtual […]
I wonder if I should just remain eternally at 16,
just stopping time in its track before it strikes 12 before the 16th of July.
Should I fufill the promise of 10 years ago,
and put an end to this chapter,
or should I break it to stay?
Time whipping by before my eyes,
this deed long over dued,
I’m living on borrowed time.
To disappear into foam while looking at the sky,
to be one with that nothingness that I loved,
to merge with the being known as emptiness and be non-existant.
Strangely I feel content,calm even,
I’m at peace, I am one with myself,
the summer breeze toys with my hair- and I look out into […]
I am perfectly aware that this is a stupid post but who cares? Is it bad that I listen to music about suicide, rage, and good ol’ depression. Should I listen to “happy” music or should I continue my current listening habbits?
I don’t know how many times I’ve started to type. “H-E-“, No! Stop! People have their own problems and worries. Why should they stop to help me? Would I stop to help me? I don’t know how many times I’ve heard my inner voice scream with the intensity of a million suns. Many people read this post and think, “Oh, it’s just another chick asking for attention.” I honestly wish that were the case.
The darkness is getting darker, and the sun has faded away. I no longer see light, just softer grey’s. My hope has flown away with birds. I’ve cut communication. I can no […]
Hello,
Unlike most people here my situation is not critical…
I have no friends, But not because of my personality or anything, I just dont talk to people alot, I’m affraid to talk to people. So most of my days I’m sitting here, alone, listening to the radio or watching TV. Nobody Called me for christmas or my birthday…
As for “suicide” well, I’ve been thinking about it for a good year or so.
Everynight it was “Should I do it ?” And of course, I ended up falling asleep, Or I decided not to do it.
I actually “wanna Die” because I think it’ll be easier than to have […]
You’d suspect temptation to be caused by lust or just plain carnal instincts. In my case my cousin was the lustful desires I had. Yet the true temptation at the moment pegs from Nycolle the first girl I fell for. (Read my earliest posts for my deranged and mentally inadequate child in me) Â Onto the point at hand, I recently created a new facebook, found her on it after finding she blocked me. I found her on snapchat as well and here is where I consider things. Should I really risk messaging her again. It’s been over 5 years, why bother my childhood love? […]
I’m afraid I fucked up again.
I was out partying the other day and everything was going really well. I was having fun with a friend I made in the bus (I was on an trip in Italy with school) IÂ genuinely was having fun which is rare as it is.
Than all of a sudden she mentions that someone she knew someone who committed suicide that day almost a year ago. I tried to comfort her but just ended up breaking down myself and needing her comfort. aka I sat there crying for about an hour on her shoulder for everybody to see.
Obviously I told […]