I grew up in a small flat with my sister, my dad and my mom. When i was 7 my dad used to do things with me, he made me do things to him.. In a few words: he abused of me. Growing up, i’ve become a bad guy. I ended up with bad people, i’ve lost 3 years of school, and now i feel like a loser. I’m so young, but i’ve already lost hope in my life, i’ve lost faith in myself.. I feel like a shit. If i had the chance, i would kill myself. I used to get drunk and then cut […]
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I told my father how I felt, everything that I felt and he got mad at me, he called me names, he yelled, and then he left. A few moments later he came back to tell me that I was a waste of space, and I told him that I didn’t care what he said because I was going to kill myself that day anyway.
After I yelled that while everyone else in my family was listening, I ran. I ran because I knew my mother, my sister and my brother would try to stop me from doing that. I hid, but was found moments […]
I am 15 I have sucky grades I broke up with my girlfriend she’s a cheating liar my family is anti gay my sister says I’m cutting for attention and I have no real support no way to kill myself no hope
I’m 15 going on 16 I had a girlfriend we broke up because she’s a cheat my family is mean about gay situation my sister and I fought physically I realized cutting may not be for my I have sucky grades no love I want to die but I can’t the only suicide method in my house is a plastic bag or razor blade I’ve lost hope :(d
Hey everyone. My last post is Urgent Please Read! if you wanna see my whole story. Anyways I really just want to die now. My parents are so freaking annoying, my friends all hate me b/c of a stupid rumor and now my sister doesnt like me anymore. Why? Well we used to hang out every week. Then she got a job working for a family of millionaires. They have a daughter my same age. They do EVERYTHING together. Now we only hang out maybe once a month. She never invites me to do anything and she gets mad whenever I say something. No this is […]
I have been confined to my house for 3 years and confined to bed for long periods of time due to severe, progressive Rheumatoid Arthritis and Anemia. These are my 2 worst health problems out of 30+ diagnosed chronic illnesses.
If you see me on the very rare occasion at a store, you would assume I am heathy. This is why the term “invisible illness” describes many conditions when visible effects of the illness have yet to appear.
My family finally accepted that I need regular rest, i’m crabby, and i am constantly experiencing pain when I was diagnosed with RA. Now they leave me […]
My whole life I’ve felt that I will never live to anyone’s expectations and I haven’t. My sister is really smart and has this good life with her boyfriend, my dad wants me to follow her. I tried but I can’t, I can’t just go through school like it’s nothing I actually have to work unlike her, and I will never marry a guy because I’m gay and I kinda have a fear of men. So no matter what I know I will never be good enough, I wish I wasn’t a coward and hurry up and pull the trigger
Hello my fellow SP users, this is your neighborhood unlicensed, untrained, and not so neighborly therapist. I hope some of you may remember my post from a while back. If not let me refresh your memory, it was an explanation of addiction and depression and other mental disorders such as OCD. I never told you all my story. The first time I can ever remember being suicidal was when I was ten years old or so, my brother and sister had been picking on me and my mom had yelled at me for it, I felt like hell and I wished desperately that the issues […]
So today sucked.
It started off with me telling my mom that I had a girlfriend and her going on this long ass rant that basically amounted to her not being okay to it and when I asked she flat out told me she wasn’t. Then it was an awkward car ride and an awkward day at the barn where I felt unwanted. Then when I came home I kinda just kept to myself until my lovely sister comes home and freaks out on my because the bathroom was a mess when all that was left out was the dog shampoo and their towel and brushes […]
That’s what people said to me after I broke up with my boyfriend.. I’ve posted about my story a few weeks ago (I was engaged with a good and loving man who promised me he would be there forever.. But it didn’t work. My bad character and my childhood (like hell in fact) made that he wasn’t able to love me anymore). Since then I was depressed, couldn’t sleep anymore, feel like nothing, empty. And I don’t know how or why I began to hang out with friends, to meet people, to laugh. I remember saying myself: life isn’t so hard! Go on like this! […]
How do you have everything going for you and yet still find yourself just going to screw itup for reasons that aren’t entirely valid right now?
I made up with my best friend, I have my first ever guy friend, and things seem okay.but my fear of the future is causing me to want to end my life.my younger sister has my same fear ironically enough shes afraid of turning eighteen this year cause my parents will divorce forcing us to have to choose who we want to go with mom or dad.i don’t want to choose id rather choose suicide shed rather leave to […]
I try to get over my depression and I feel better for some days but I go all over again from the beginning . I’m tired of life and I decided to suicide . I know this will be hard for my family and I will miss my sister so much because she is life for me and mom was always a perfect mother for us and my dad and my brother are my love . but sometimes we need to take hard decisions because I can’t stay in this depression
I’m the reason why my parents may get a divorce soon.. the only thing that’s holding this family together is my soon to be seven year old brother. Listen, I’m not overreacting or anything when I say this, my family hates me. Because I’m pretty sure that most families don’t call their daughters/sons: tramps, sl*ts, wh**es, and other things like that…
When I was in the eighth grade I was put into an actual public school; I thought everything would turn out alright. I thought everything would go the way I wanted it to. I was wrong. Not even a month of school had passed before […]
Hi!
I’m a 15 years old girl. And I’m feeling like shit. I’ve been feeling very bad for quite a long time, but some days ago I couldn’t control myself. My mother was shouting at me, she kept on telling me the same things, while my sister was laughing at me and the entire situation. I shutted both up by suddenly hitting my mother in her face. She started crying, I ran away and locked myself up in my room before she could do anything else.
I hate myself! I don’t get it! Why do I always act so aggressively. This really isn’t me! I hate myself! […]
I shouldn’t have to pick up after my fiance and his friends and they still disrespect me. I’m not their housewife, sister, mother, or anything. I also shouldn’t have to be afraid that his friends are going to just barge through the door at any moment every day without knocking, even though I told my fiance that I’m very uncomfortable with that.
I need help fml fml oh my god I can’t take life anymore. The girls at school won’t leave me alone, the guys hate me. I try to be nice but always wind up being the mean one because they hurt me. Freshman year sucks I only get 3 hours of sleep a day and every night I chug down 6-7 sleeping pills hoping I’ll die but sAdly wake up the next day. everyone thinks im a whore though I’ve nevr done anything sexual in my life. Im basically my little sister second mom. no purpose here. If I left nobody would really care. Maybe […]
My “friends” have been cut from my life because they always believed it was fair that they could get mad at each other, but I couldn’t get mad at either of them without severe punishment. My family is starting to act the same way. My sister will confront me and threaten me if I get mad at my mother or grandmother, and my mother will do the same if I get mad at my sisters. It’s not reciprocated though. If someone gets mad at me, nobody fucking cares. These people who are supposed to love me and care about me don’t listen when I try […]
So, I’m a full-time nanny. That means that I live with a family and take care of their child. I get paid $20 a week. I don’t get breaks and I’m expected to clean as well. Not so bad when you have no bills to pay. Or at least you would think. I took this job because I know the mother in high school and she helped me out with my prom fare and when my sister’s dog got hit by a car, she gave us a ride to the vet. So the first few months I was here, I decided to work for free […]
I’m going through a really bad spell, as it was just my birthday and (as I suspected I might) and I spent it alone with a Cup O’ Noodles.
I told my *best friend* that even though I didn’t feel much like going to a casino (which she said SHE was up for, knowing that a casino wouldn’t be the best place for me right now, I suspect) I would love to see her and visit.
She never bothered writing back.
She is a terrible friend.
My most major effort toward a career that I’ve never spoken of on here because it was too real […]
About two years ago, I started to realize that I was feeling very different. Being only 13, I didn’t really understand my feelings. I stayed locked up in my room when I wasn’t at school. I didn’t really talk to anyone. I wasn’t happy with my friends and I felt completely alone. I finally told my older sister that I was feeling “different” and she urged me to tell my parents but I didn’t have the guts too. I wrote them a letter explaining to them that I thought I was depressed and I wanted to go see a therapist. My parents quickly went to […]