I’m going to jump off a building. My life isn’t even in shambles, which makes me hate myself even more. I got handed what I thought was my dream job. I can’t Handel it, and hate it. I have no backup plan or motivation. All my jobs have been luck, I’m stupid and have no actual skills, hobbies or dreams for the future. Pathetic. All my friends work for the company and I can’t quit. There is no leaving on good terms. I’ve been depressed for months. Can’t stop sleeping. Miserable to be around. Everyone’s advice is to keep trying and figure it out. I’m […]
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Fuck. I don’t have a drop of spit left in me. I knew when I lost my job a month ago that I would need more energy to turn things around but I am sinking fast. I decided to forget about pounding the pavement for another I.T. job and start looking for freelance recording and voice-over gigs. This I can do from home and I have all the hardware I need and I have the chops to do it.
The problem is I still need to get organized, refresh my skills and dig everything out of the closet to get set up. But I am just […]
i hate the bad thoughts i have about myself.I mean,i know i have a wonderful life.I Have very worried and caring parents and frinds,my family is wealthy,i dont have any health problems etcetera.but I can’t stop thinking that i am too dumb to go to med school,that i am to damm uggly to be interesting, that i lack social skills compared to my frinds,that i dont make my parents proud and that i am to selfish.I think it is why i want to become a doctor,so it would help me stop worring with such ridiculous shit compared with real people’s problems.i just […]
How would you define a loser?
Let’s see:
Would a 25 year old who cannot hold down a job for more than 6 weeks without getting fired and who has been unemployed for about 2 years qualify? Still living under your parents roof?
How about the person of the same age never having been in a relationship or have even had a real kiss? (The main issue being societies expectations. It does not really bother me too much.)
Or what about having no real friends because you have such poor social skills, get socially anxious and are known to have a temper? Where even mental health staff have given […]
I used to have suicidal thoughts as a younger teen. My mother had a rough childhood in China and would accidentally try to force me into her ideal life. But my mom also would call me a lazy ***** or fat pig (i used to be quite the chubster). I just want to say that it would have been helpful to know someone loved me out there. I felt deprived of the affection i deserved. I understand if you don’t give a bit but i just want all of you to know I LOVE YOU more then you could ever imagine. All of you no […]
Good day everyone,
Terribly sorry for seeming helpless and sharing too much of my personal issues here, but when one is desperate for help they take any opportunity.
I’ve been researching on ways to avert suicide and I came upon this site. I have been battling against suicidal thoughts since I was 11 after a classmate demonstrated, in front of our very eyes, how to slash wrists. (Mind you, she just wanted to show how brave and utterly reckless she was for doing something that makes her feel above others who couldn’t, at the time, even consider harming themselves.) – I followed her footsteps when […]
Hello,
I am a 30 year guy who had been battling depression and self hatred for many years. As the years have passed I have to work even harder to mask my pain. I may have a college degree but I have been out of work for almost two years, have almost no genuine interest and continue to isolate myself. Oh, I also still live at home and have hate myself for not seeing the necessary steps to venture out on my own. I have no real desire to be in a relationship and find myself retreating when my anxiety levels increase or if no creative […]
I shouldn’t be jealous
i shouldn’t be annoying
i shouldn’t ask questions
i shouldn’t be concerned about anything
I shouldn’t care
i should go back to how I used to be
i need to be normal
i need to be happy
i need to improve on my communication skills
but why can’t I just be me?
I’m so very tired.
Having battled depression for at over 40 years now and still feeling like I’m in the same place I started. Alone – divorced after too many years of a bad relationship and now my latest SO decided that I wasn’t worth the effort and took up with someone else. I’m unemployed and unemployable, my skills and my background being obsolete. I make myself get out of these 4 walls only with the greatest of effort and my energy is nearly depleted. I’m tired of fighting battles I can’t win. I’m sick of feeling like the world is just rolling over me every […]
Two nights ago, i was showering because i wanted to self harm so bad and they told me to use that as a coping skill…it worked, until i started shaving my legs hard and fast because I was thinking about it…took a whole chunk of my leg off….good thing it looks natural. I don’t know what I should do for my coping skills anymore. I used to love showers cuz they made me so tired but I always have to shave in them and it just sucks to be around razors right now. any suggestions?
May 19, 2014
Listen Up Dumbfucks:
Most people kill themselves because of a mental condition. This is true in my case too. The condition I suffer from is that I am not normal, I am not like everyone of you “sane” people.
I am not normal in the sense that I am not like every other one of you brain-dead zombies. I can think. I can reason intelligently. I can observe and learn from life. I can make my own decisions and follow through on them. And I can do these without any aid from celebrities, T.V., radio or MySpace. Unfortunately, every one of you shit-brained […]
So I stumbled on this site tonight while researching methods to use when my time comes. I’m a little nervous about saying this out loud (or even in anonymous type), but yes, I do intend to end my life. Not now, or even in the near future, but when the time is right. There’s only one reason I’m still alive right now really, and that’s my dad. Not only is he a great guy and my untimely demise would shatter him, but he’s also paid a great deal of money our for my new doctor to stabilize my mental health. To her credit, btw, I’m […]
It’s crazy to think that for 17 years the man I call daddy isn’t even my biological father. You both claim you weren’t trying to hide it or lie to me but honestly I could care less what you say. You did lie. You hid it from me. You hid him from me. The man I call daddy doesn’t have my blood in his veins. It all makes sense though, why the postcards were never signed “Daddy or Dad” but instead with his first and last name. I was little so I never noticed. It shouldn’t have been such a shock, all the clues and […]
So for you who have been following up on my post you know i self harm quiet a bit and quiet deep to. Instead of self harming the other day i chose to make some amv ( animated music videos) for vampire knight.
Please check them out and let me know if their any good. Also subscribe if you wanna keep up with my blogs and other videos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCaTinffnkI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjnYh6GRmVo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmrCUV9BdHY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m35rBe1iYKc
I hope this new coping skill works for a while.. and doesnt die in a matter of a week.. like most of the others..
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