Okay, normally I don’t like talking to anyone especially my family but this time I was kinda forced. So me and my sister started to talk and then she mentions taking antidepressants and I just start having this major panic attack and just ran away from home for a couple of hours. I don’t understand why I panicked so much.
So.Next week I’ll have my final and the most advanced exam. So I know it’ll be little hard. I’m depressed and I can’t remember many things. But I know I will pass with just low grades. But, when can I do what I love to do? I hate this formal advanced education. I’m facing exam that I don’t want to be. I won’t be who I wanna be. I’m forced to do my family wanna see. See you later people. I just do best as I can. Hopeless what to do next..
In our maximum Iron-Age
And in the name of astrology.
Inside of me veiling torment
I guess I’m not normal, ’cause you’ll never know.
I rather you not see, and then to have you, self-destruct
So, I’ll go on and slime away, now.
I’m not happy about reality, for me, it’s the animals
Oh, Gaia.
Where are you my representative
Done down to this, one.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cYzDjSvQQQ
So, what’s happening in Europe.
The last place, where I can go
When Berserk has
At least the windows are open
Maybe if we wait the other time
I wander, how you even see
Somehow, can she find
So that and then
Perhaps, to clemency
Of what is the wrong
All that I have ever
It’s incredible
What you don’t even
I’m chanting
In the singing, of the Muk
The voice of Espeon
Can’t do anything
Retribution
Of the lamb
.
I miss you
So pretty, your smile
It feels like forever
But it’s only been a while
Just a bit more till I die
I wish I got to know you
You bring a tear to my sad eye
It’s true, I love you
I love the way you dance, I love the way you are
So, where can I set the game-station at?
Anyone? Dudes, ladies. Pizza!!
C_>
“Hold on little girl
Show me what he’s done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can’t be that bad
When it’s through, it’s through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on dear come on over
Let me be the one to show you.”
I’m so angry today. That bullshit about God doesn’t give you more than you can handle..is just that-bullshit. I am not asking for a lot, you know? But still, it’s like I’m a dog getting my nose rubbed in shit.
and it’s so painful to see you in such despair.
That this must be our cross to bear, what brings us together as perfect strangers. The black dog on our shoulder. Wish it could be anything else for all of us.
I spent all night last night reading through posts and comments. When I came in I was crying for myself, hoping not to feel the end of my rope once more. I went to bed crying for others, hoping they can somehow find their way back up their rope, and if not, that they can find in death the peace they so crave and deserve. I […]
Sorry if the title sounds hopeful. It isn’t.
About two months ago, I made a minor attempt on my life (not particularly committed, more of a shake-up than anything) but, after a slow upwards curve after that point, my mind has returned to the well trodden trail it knows so well. I’m just miserable. It’s been something I’ve been ignoring, repressing, letting build up inside. I feel like a skimming stone, leaping in ever-descending arcs until I come to a halt (dumb metaphors, we got ’em). Every fall is harder, shaking my confidence more and more over time. Nothing works.
What am I but a leech, an […]
So, I watching pretty little liars with my sister right now, I have to be quick. If there are typos im sorry. So, I have been taking sertraline(Zoloft) for the last year, and I just forgot to take it the last week. I haven’t thought about suicide at all, and I looked it up to see if the medication had any effect. I couldn’t get a clear answer, so I’m asking now If Zoloft could have any effect on me. Thanks.
You told her you hate her
And want her to die
So she thinks to herself
Maybe you’re right
I should just take this knife
And bleed once again
One scar turns to 5
And 5 into 10
And now thanks to you
She’s given up on her life,
Do She reached for the bottle
And took many a pill
But you never hated her
Or want her to die
But now it’s too late
Cause she went home and thought
Suicide!
No, I’m not okay
If you think I am,
Then I beat you at the game –
Because you know I’m not..
So which one of us is better at pretending?
So, tonight I go to church with my girlfriend but she seemed to be to herself so I begin communicating to her god sister who made me highly frustrated. So, I speak to my girlfriends friend and so on. No physical contact with any of them, no intimate talk just laughing and having a good time. And every now and then I tried bringing my girfriend in but she just wouldnt. Later I text her god sister apologizing for being sensitive as she told me she was joking. Even later I text my girlfriend and let her know im home and ready to call her […]
The trees are screaming
The baby’s bleeding
And you my love, you are crying
Why do you weep?
So sorrowful
All these secrets you do keep
But if we could only talk
Maybe it would help
I wanna make it okay for you
I don’t know how
When I see your face
I smile and I cry
Coz every time I see you
It’s been longer than the last
And then we leave without ever speaking
So I got arrested yesterday for heroin possession and trespassing, I have an abscessed tooth causing untold amounts of pain, I’m close to losing my job, and might have to go to prison in 12 days. Suicide has never seemed like a better option.
The moon and I have a unique relationship. I’m a cancer and cancers are called “moon babies”. I often stare at the moonlight. It’s fascinating to me. My dream life would be sitting on the moon, in the pouring rain, in quietness with my dog. I daydream about life being that simple.
Mine is terrible I have this amazing guy who is my bestfriend from preschool. I had to protect him because he had sex once intoxicated so my ex wouldn’t throw him to jail. Cause all he wanted is to be a dick to me because he has nothing better to do in his life. But the best thing about my bestfriend is that he is trying to help me lose weight cause I didn’t like it and he is also very caring about my cutting, I’ve cut my legs so bad that I have a infection in one of the deepest cuts and I have […]