I was just delt a bad hand where everything is a struggle for me. I just don’t see the good in life. I trained myself cognitive behaviors and programmed myself to continue to thrive to be productive against my own negative thinking. I have excelled in going outside my box but It’s so exhausting and Im still not happy. Still not any further than I was. There’s nothing wrong with me hating life as long as I’m productive in society. That’s what all the doctors preach right? I’m done pretending, I’m done putting up a fake face. I just want to be in a room […]
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I was feeling hopeless and then I looked up at the sky and saw the stars. Billions of stars and the vastness of the Universe all the way to the biginning and for a moment all my problems seemed insignificant.
Creation is an amazing thing, i dont believe in God, which makes this even more amazing. For us to exist, infinite amont of puzzle pieces over billions of years had to fit perfectly together. I wish i could live in a time when humans, as a species, had to fight for survival. Those were the simple days. Without insects we wouldnt exist, without preditors we […]
I hate that I am overweight and that especially lately I comfort eat a hell of a lot. I hate my appearance -the fact I have naturally curly hair is a curse, I wish I had a cuter nose and a generally more feminine looking face, my appearance is top of my list of reasons of why I want to die, I hate the way women are treated in society in general-mainly valued for appearance and that fake beauty is valued more than natural beauty seems a lot of people find a woman’s un made up face unacceptable, I hate how weak I […]
I’m worthless to society. There, I’ve said it. There’s absolutely no use for me and there is no way I’m ever going to be of use to anyone anymore.
I’m a 41 year old man, no relation, no proper education, no job, way too insecure to even handle anything remotely relating to success and having nothing of interest to anyone. When I open my mouth nothing of interest to anybody around me comes out of it. I really am of no merit to society.
It hurts a lot to see all the people around me have wonderful complete lives, with working careers, friends, hobbies and relations. Basically the […]
I am a weird guy. I have weird preferences when it comes to entertainment, all the ideologies I embrace are contrarian, weird sexual tastes ( I am attracted to female hands), fucked up persona, socially inept. I feel like an outcast and I just don’t fit into society as a functional being.
ahh just wanted to vent my insecurities … sigh
….. and I think I am touch deprived … I need to touch shoulders with someone 🙁
I just read this article… I guess the jist of it is, this guy, once successful, racially profiled and thrown in jail, didn’t do it, got the crime he didn’t do wiped off his record, gets job offers because he has the experience, but doesn’t get the jobs because he’s homeless. Yeah, once you’re on the bottom rung of society, you can never get out. http://buff.ly/1YWIKZZ
I feel less suicidal, being nothing.
I am not a student, not an employee, not a daughter, not part of society. Not glum, not unattractive, not any other adjective.
I feel better when I am not obliged to fake emotions. I dont mind being alone anymore. Can I just float through the days, just for awhile?
Can I stop identifying myself as my experiences? Can I stop feeling ashamed for having not accomplished anything? Can I stop identifying as a human, and just wander through Time as nothing, just for a little while?
Hi, I’m new here. I suppose I’ll start with a brief reflection of my life. I apologize if my sentences are extremely scattered. Currently, I’m 24 and a bi-curious/bisexual male. However, being a closeted bi is the least of my problems… My problems started long before everything hit the fan. I was born a little over 1-pound and close to the end of the 2nd trimester. I had brain trauma from the birth itself which caused the doctors to never think I’ll walk or talk. Almost a quarter of a century later, I definitely defied their expectations. Yet in the eyes’ of “normal” society, I […]
According to the dictionary definitions of freedom include:
a : the absence of necessity, coercion, or constraint in choice or action
b : liberation from slavery or restraint or from the power of another : independence
I been thinking a lot about these two definitions. Take definition A For example – when people denies your right to choose or passes legislation to prevent choice (especially in terms of right to die), isn’t that coercion? Isn’t that constraint in choice or action? Look at example B – isnt the human condition in of itself a form of slavery? We are restrained by the laws of nature, and […]
None of us signed a contract to be born. It was the choice of our parents. In my case, my immature 19 and 21 year old parents choose to have sex without a condom, than decided not to get an abortion when biomom got pregnant. Me, the person effected the most by my parents irresponsible choices, has no choice to opt out of life. At least not the way I want to.
Why does our CULTure and the medical establishment consider it a mental illness to not want to live anymore? they think it’s absolutely nuts not to wanna live in a world were your enslaved […]
Even though I’m not suicidal (actively seeking a way out or planning anything) I’d be more than happy to choose a peaceful exit from this world. I don’t get our societies sick and twisted obsession with forcing everyone to stay alive against there will. I was put in a psyche ward over a month ago, and yes it did “help”, but it was only temporary. They get payed to force me to live, my family wants to keep me alive for there own selfish purposes. Like I said many times, I didn’t choose to be born nor have I chose the cards I was dealt […]
Have u ever looked around and seen people laughing, smiling, talking…. An ever thought why? Now, it’s an everyday occurrence for me. Why are they laughing. What could possibly be so funny that they laugh without a care in the world. Why motivates them to maintain that tiring position of a gin on your face. For me, I wear a mask. I don’t even know why I do. I smirk when I’m suppose to, don’t talk out of place, and listen quietly. Now I’m in my bathroom, tearing up, questioning my will to live and move on. Why are we even here. Why do we have to […]
I got arthritis at 20. Now I’m soon 28 and I recently had to quit my job because of my disease.
I’m an introvert and also suffer from social anxiety. I have been depressed for as long as I can remember.
Now I’m in danger of losing my apartment because no one wants me for work. I never speak to people, so I have no friends, just some acquaintances.
I used to have at least a spiritual point of view at the shit in my life. I’ve experienced some trancendental stuff, but now I don’t see any point whatsoever.
I just want to die. Society is made for extroverted, […]
With All of My Love………………….
Its better this way, it really is. I don’t think I will ever be able to explain how pain filled, lonely and useless I have been for so many years. Living is a complete hell for me.
No one I know would wish such pain on an animal they love and, would indeed, put the poor thing out of its misery. It would be selfish to compel it to go on living. If any of you ever have to experience this deep misery, you may, at last understand it takes courage to go against the natural inclination to live and thrive. The […]
Hey folks, look to the sky, that bird floating above the clouds is the divine seagull. These graceful fliers may look unphased by the troubles of life, but wait until they touch down, and it’s a different story. When you see one on the ground they’ll usually be in tatters from having to fend off and procure food from their hostile and greedy friends. It could make anyone think they ended up that way from tumbling down in a near deadly crash. Alas, life in the dirt is rough, we get up, we fight, we stay up, we fight, every once in a while we […]
I read a lot of things about natural selection and how people value beauty over substance. I started thinking – I’m gonna do my own research! So I went on YouTube and looked people who was crying out for help, mainly those ones who use flash cards. The “attractive” ones got all kinds of support and sympathy while the “overweight” and what society views as “unattractive” got mocked and made fun of, even if there issues where more serious. It’s sad! Empathy being induced in the human mind based on physical attraction…….another example of the insane majority.
I am ready to go. My family hates me. I am all alone. I am taking Tylenol and drinking alcohol. I have my letter ready for my parents and society to read. This is all of society’s fault.
Hey, all. Sincerely hope you’re doing well. Er — as well as can be, given that we’re all in a suicide forum.
I guess I’ll get right to the point: One of my major fears is poverty. I live in a Third World country, and I see it every day. The lack of healthcare, the people living in the streets, the laborers breaking their backs every day and making f*ck-all. Shamefully, I’m more concerned about not falling in with them than actually helping; there’s just too damn many people in need. Sigh, yet another reason to just catch the bus, if only I weren’t so cowardly. […]
SOCIETY: are you under 100lbs?
GIRL: no, but im happy.
SOCIETY: is your hair down to your ass?
GIRL: no, but im happy
SOCIETY: do you have huge boobs?
GIRL: no, but
SOCIETY: do you have a flawless smile?
GIRL: No.
SOCIETY: Do you realize how ugly you are?
SOCIETY: Do you realize that no one wants you?
SOCIETY: Did you realize your stupid?
SOCIETY: Where did you go?
SOCIETY: have you commited suicide?
SOCIETY: Omg, no, she was so beautiful, and special, and loved, she will be missed so much society is so ugly, why did she have to go?
I recently heard, in audio precepts, a book I had long sought in my adolescence called Harnessing Your Emotions by Andrew Wommack. Although this is a Christian take on psychology, it did help me realize that our emotions are controled by our thoughts not the other way around. This in turn has aliviated me of social anxieties, personality disorders and psychological ailments. The populous runs with the idea of psychology that our cirumstances dictate how we should feel and act which becomes our excuse for destructive behaviour.
For those who struggle to smile or get out of bed, hearing that “you choose to be happy or […]