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Checkin’ Out…

by diablofan83 1/5/2015

written by diablofan83

Well I’m finally to the point where I’m ready to go. I’ve been a waste of air these past few months anyways. I thought soo much better of you, but as always, you never fail to disappoint. “Did he say anything about not being able to see his son for his Birthday?”. Yeah, I heard all about it like always. Your hurting him the most out of all of us.

But I forgive you, mainly because I have to. I guess a lot has to do with the fact that despite what you’ve done to me, I still love you. Must be unconditional love, who knows. […]

1/5/2015 1 comment

If I just lay here…

by impossible_girl 1/3/2015

written by impossible_girl

Now I’m gonna have that song in my head. I don’t want to die. I just … don’t want to live, either. Can you commit suicide by apathy? What if I just stop taking my meds, stop eating, stop drinking, stop doing anything other than lay in my bed and stare at the wall and remind myself that I’m a cold-hearted monster that breaks everything, that can’t really love, and that no one will ever love back? I hope my cats wait until I’m dead to start nibbling at my body for survival, but, well, c’est la vie. It’s […]

1/3/2015 12 comments

I need help

by MysteriousCloud 1/3/2015

written by MysteriousCloud

But I’m so messed up I can’t even let people help me. It’s times like these when I’m sat in my room alone crying and wanting to scream and just get out of this horrible mind of mine when I actually start thinking I need help. I need someone to tell me what’s happening, what’s wrong, and how to make this stop. But I can’t. Nearly a year ago I had a counsellor at school for 5 months. For 5 months I didn’t say anything. I felt trapped. When she would ask me questions I’d sit there like an idiot staring at the desk. I […]

1/3/2015 4 comments

Confused and fed up.

by MysteriousCloud 1/1/2015

written by MysteriousCloud

I’m getting worse mentally. Before I could hold it all in, now I burst into tears whenever I’m alone until I cant breathe and start shaking and feel sick. its so weird and I don’t like it. I get stressed out and scared more than I used to and its all starting to crumble and show on the outside. However I suppose on the good side I have stopped hurting myself. But I don’t know which is better to be honest, coz this shit is messing with me and I’m fed up of it, I’m fed up of being here.

1/1/2015 2 comments

I am finally here…

by alina_01 12/31/2014

written by alina_01

A whole damn year has passed and to be honest I’m glad that it is finally about to be over! My 2013 leaked into my 2014 and to be completely honest 2014 was so very unkind to me truly it just screwed me over and over. Today is the day I say good bye to 2014 and leave all the horrible things that happened in the past. I want none of 2014 to even taint my 2015, because this truly will be a new start for me. I will be starting a year without the negative people and the negativity period, this year I will […]

12/31/2014 2 comments

jail and christmas dinner

by Harrison 12/27/2014

written by Harrison

So, i am a failure. After graduating with a BSME, i am too emotionally fucked up to get a job so i kept delivering pizza. I am 40 and this was supposed to be my big turn around. Instead i flipped out on a drunk asshole college kid, and on a first arrest ever got 2 and 1/2 years.
I am out this last June, and this is my first christmas back. So thats the jail part.

My dad and brother-in-law argue and so only my sister has been coming with my two nephews for the last 5 years. So this year they decided to […]

12/27/2014 0 comment

Why

by Atlus-of-why 12/23/2014

written by Atlus-of-why

I don’t see the point of staying alive anymore.

This is the conclusion I’ve come up with after the past 7 years. I just don’t see why I should keep going.

I’ve been faking my way through life for years now. My parents doesn’t know about it and if they did they’d make it worse.

I’d like to talk to a friend but i don’t have a lot and none of my current friends would understand how i feel.

Over the past year I’ve started to feel less and less joy from doing the things i liked once. I tear through book and don’t think any thing about them. […]

12/23/2014 2 comments

by LetItGo 12/23/2014

written by LetItGo

we’ll dance through the night with the moon light shining down on us
but in a few months ill text you while im drunk i won’t get a reply

we’ll talk for hours on end in the middle of the night both of us tired as fuck
but in a few months ill try to start a conversation with you and you’ll ignore me

we’ll hug each other when we see each other and talk for a few months
but in a few months when i see you you’ll ignore me like im nothing

we’ll talk about deep things and question life and have a great time
but […]

12/23/2014 1 comment

I love you, little one ????

by grievinggabby 12/23/2014

written by grievinggabby

I feel horrible about myself. I was very depressed before I got pregnant. It was to the point to where i was using hardcore drugs. But i knew if i wanted to be with the person I’m in love with, i had to do better. Because he’s a good boy, and he only wants the best for me. So I did, got sober, but I was still very depressed. So i started using again and hid it from him… Then I found out I was pregnant and it was very difficult to stop. I am still very depressed, and I’m worried that once my son […]

12/23/2014 7 comments

How can I be happy again?

by UmaasaSaWalangPagasa 12/23/2014

written by UmaasaSaWalangPagasa

Hey there, so I’m going to start off with me introducing myself. Hi, I’m Jaja, a really depressed fangirling potato (don’t judge). I’m asian but not really good in math.

So let’s start my story, I was really a happy girl but then cupid shot me, accidentally, and I fell in love with this guy. This guy was my former classmate at summer sports school, and since he’s like 2 years older than me, I figured that I could be closer to him if I ask him to tutor me on Facebook because I hate the outside world, where all sociable humans are, disgusting, anyways, so […]

12/23/2014 1 comment

Scribbles(The only thing i seem to be gd at)

by confusedboy 12/22/2014

written by confusedboy

What is life when u dont know its meaning..

i cant look for the future when my present is trembling..

Trembling with fear of not knowing..

This fear just keeps on growing.

Every hope life gave me was misleading..

Every happy start led to a sad ending..

12/22/2014 0 comment

No safety in sight.

by dusty990 12/21/2014

written by dusty990

I don`t know where to start.

I was dating the most wonderful woman for a short 20 months; not long, I know. But the time we spent together is irreplaceable. I already deal with depression and anxiety so when she left me one week before Christmas it just set off a severe downward spiral. I cannot get through the day without drinking copious amounts of alcohol and freezing up when the emotions get too strong. I`ve started self-harming again, I haven`t done this in years. It`s not her fault, this is not just because of a simple breakup but an underlying fact that I have not […]

12/21/2014 11 comments

A new way

by Akiira 12/15/2014

written by Akiira

I don’t know if this will work, i just know that i’m done with everything, I feel so tired and anger, I know it’s my fault, I just don’t know how to start feeling good again… I’m sick of myself… This is new, share something that is to hard to say, I don’t know if I can keep doing this anymore.

12/15/2014 1 comment

Their Way or No Way

by DAlex 12/14/2014

written by DAlex

Hey there. So, I’m back again on this website, for the third time. Three major bouts of suicidal thoughts and depression. But that’s besides the point. Earlier this year, I began my freshman year of high school, and with it, the best years of my life, as I have been told so many times. Unfortunately, that promise is not living up to expectations. I was placed into a college preparation program by my middle school teachers, though I decided not to sign up for it last year because I didn’t want to have too much on my plate. Additionally, at the start of the year, […]

12/14/2014 0 comment

Survival instincts

by hopeisafourletterword 12/14/2014

written by hopeisafourletterword

Picture this: Someone has just started contemplating suicide, and they came up with a foolproof way out of this world. As they were getting lost in their own head, imagining their peaceful death, someone they love dearly pops into the picture, and all of a sudden they start shouting their name, crying out for help, but it’s too late. Their death is inevitable, leaving that loved one with nothing else to do but watch them fade away and cry. The person snaps back to reality and starts questioning everything, leading them to live another day… and another… and another…

Wherever our built-in survival instincts are stored in our […]

12/14/2014 3 comments

I just want to disappear

by bowdown 12/10/2014

written by bowdown

I just can’t do this anymore though, I lay in my bed awake just thinking and not thinking at the same time. On the weekends I don’t leave my bed. I have this powerful urge to get up and start walking. I want to walk and never look back. I want to walk so far away and just stop existing. I’m a freakin burden to my parents, siblings, friends, everyone. I feel it, I see it in their eyes. Why is this happening to me? My ex and I just recently broke up, we were dating for a year. I just found out that a […]

12/10/2014 1 comment

Where to start…

by qwerty85 12/9/2014

written by qwerty85

Don’t really know where to start or what I’m trying to achieve so I guess I’ll just empty my thoughts into this box.

Suppose people who read this will think I should have been to some kind of therapy by now but it’s always something I’ve put off out of fear of judgement and being seen to be too sensitive. Kind of hoping that explaining everything here might help a bit, but we’ll see.

So I’ve never known my mother since she left myself, my older brother and my father when I was 2, so me and my brother have always lived and moved around with my […]

12/9/2014 4 comments

My advice!!!

by gabreialla 12/8/2014

written by gabreialla

hey every one I just want to tell this advice to every girl if you ever love someone it’s ok love him but don’t ever give him your body let him play with him ,because you will regret it after believe me . I know you will give him your body because you love him but he would be just playing with your emotions and passing his time with you . after he plays with you he would tell you simply (I can’t stay in this relationship) simply as if nothing had happened . and you would start crying in your bedroom and he would […]

12/8/2014 7 comments

Judged

by creatoroftheuniverses 12/3/2014

written by creatoroftheuniverses

Earlier this spring I made the huge mistake of telling my closest friends about my suicidal thoughts. Being the friends that they were, like any other people, they tried to talk me out of it. But my suicide plans got out to other people. They’d come and ask me about it and would always plaster a “concerned” look or “friendly” smile on their face, and start with the same frightening phrase, one that sends shivers down my spine

“I won’t judge you”

If approached about your suicide, when you hear that phrase leave their lips. Run my friend, run.

12/3/2014 4 comments

holding on

by 1298 12/3/2014

written by 1298

ever feel like you’re losing everything? you watch from a distance, but even from another perspective, you can’t manage to make sense of what’s happening.

so you choose just one thing to hold onto. it doesn’t really matter what it is, but you make it mean everything, because you need something to stay. you need this one thing for the world to revolve around because if the world doesn’t have an axis then what the fuck. you’re too scared to let go, you might fall and you have no idea where you will land.

but happens when you start to doubt that one thing? when […]

12/3/2014 4 comments

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