I can’t even manage to think life is this hard I just wanna stop life and just go but I know there are to many people who would be affected but it’s all the time I’m having to make other people happy when I have to wear a mask of happiness so they can be happy they never seem to think about what I want whether I’m happy or not I can’t be bothered with this life anymore
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I literally have nobody right now and I feel so alone and so empty I feel so much pain I cant stop crying I just want to die I don’t want to wake up someone please help me I cant take another second of this please!!!!!
I’m depressed and it’s been awhile since its been like this. I gave up cutting 3 weeks ago I just want to do it I need it I really do need it. I keep having dreams of me commiting suicide so the thoughts of that has come back. It’s not that I feel like I have to kill myself not the feeling I used to but the possibility that its the only way to stop this cycle of depression anxiety depression then okay for a while the again and again. I have some one and a moderately good future to look forward too. I just […]
I have wanted to die for the past 9 years.
I have been cutting for the past 5 years.
Every single days for those past 9 years I have thought about disappearing , running away or just giving up and ending it all. I spent those days thinking how amazing it would be if i could fall asleep a night and never wake up the next morning.
I’ll be turning 21 in two weeks.
Every year for the past 5 years, when i blew out the candles i wished for my life to stop.
Nothing has changed. It’s like life has just been at a standstill.
I still want to die.
I can’t anymore. I physically can’t. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I can’t be of use to anyone. I can’t keep my hands from shaking. I can’t keep my breathing even. I can’t stop myself from cutting my body up. I can’t love. I can’t cry. I can’t keep this up anymore. I can’t seem to care. But the biggest can’t I have in my life is how I can’t seem to kill myself just yet. What am I waiting for? Can’t. Can’t. Can’t. That’s all I seem to think in terms of. Was. I want to be was. I was struggling. I was suicidal. […]
Stop desiring and you will stop suffering.
I’m so fucking ugly.
No, stop. Don’t think about it.
I don’t feel anything.
Yes I do.
I can feel everything.
Just shut your fucking mouth if you don’t know what to say.
I don’t need your words, they won’t cure me.
If you want to help let me talk.
Stop trying to promise it’ll get better.
Stop trying to make everything simple.
Stop trying to belittle the situation.
I need help, I get that.
Thinking positive, I haven’t heard of that before, I’ll do that.
Having fun, I’ll give it a go.
But,
it doesn’t feel fun.
Please don’t ask me what’s wrong.
Don’t […]
The world? Getting angrier. Society? Getting shittier. People taking their own lives? Is occurring more and more. And the bullies? They never stop. They continue to bring someone down to their death. Everyone asks me what I want in life… I just simply want to be happy and I want world peace. But the happiness? Can happen. But world peace…. never is going to happen.
The railing looked so easy to smash my car is heaver then it can hold. These were the thoughts traveling through my head today as I skipped college classes to “run away fro my feelings” . This morning I found out my ex boyfriend already has a new boyfriend. he is thin pretty and motivated. I am none of these. I loved him for the two years we had so deeply only to be tossed asside when out of comfort with him i gained weight and just relaxed. He wanted to break up so badly but he wouldnt be “the bad guy” he would sit […]
I was a rebound. We weren’t even dating for 2 days. She didn’t even want me. Right when someone better came along she wanted to leave. So why did she even say yes in the first place and why does this hurt so much. It’s like I can’t stop crying..
My tears can’t stop falling,
And it feels like dying.
Please someone tell me how to stop loving someone so much. So fucking much. Should I tell him? I don’t want to lose my best friend ever. I’d prefer to be miserable for the rest of my life instead that he stops talking to me and treating me like his best friend.
I have been cutting for two years. My parents found out last may. Seemed like they didnt cre. I stopped for my friend becaus he askdd me to stop or he would tell my principle. I stopped. I have been feeling like cutting again. I wanna see the blood running down my arm mimicking my pain.
Keepin’ my eyes on the road this time around
Keepin’ my hands pressed to the wheel
Something so strange as a woman has got me down
Ain’t gonna be your damn fool again
Drivin’ tonight just to ease my mind
A man in his mood is a most dangerous kind
And there was a time my head went blind
Couldn’t see the sign at the time years would go by
Before I wondered who or where or what or why
Lovin’ you was like lovin’ a house on fire
Burning and learning baby when the damage was done
And now I’m tired and I’m […]
My previous post was about my saving up but, due to recent events… I’m just going to do what I had in mind quite a few months ago… I am going to go out to the woods, take some pain killers, cut myself up(if that doesn’t work) I’m just going to climb up a tree and hang myself… No one will find my body, no one will care, no one will notice…
My life is just a nightmare that will never stop hurting me…
I have to end my pain… once and for all! :'(
I am so absolutely and unbelievably sad. I’ve had to stop my medication because I can’t afford it; it’ll be over a month before I can restart my medication for my bipolar treatment.
In the meantime, there is nothing that I can do to alleviate this sadness. It is a burden that is slowly and adroitly killing me. I am just so very tired of being cursed.
I am alone.
I dont want to feel this way anymore, but the only way for ghe pain to stop is if i just end it end it all. Is it wrong for me want a perfect life, but i already know i will never get that. I got in a fight with my grandparents on saturday for that they made it seem like they dont care if i kill myself. I yelled at my grandma tell her they are the reason why i cut myself” and all she said was “go do it, kill yoursrlf ill care less. When she said that i just wanted to end […]
The tears can’t stop coming out. I can’t stop hyperventilating.
She’s gone. I’m never going to see her again. And yet, she’s alive and well.
There is no worse feeling. I thought what I’d felt last winter was harsh. But that was nothing.
I’ve lost. I’ve lost so much. Someone help me. Someone please fucking help me.
Again. Another day. I hear my two youngest that share my home leave for work. My daughter’s little dog comes into my room after she’s gone to work and cries to at me to be picked up. I do, and she digs under my blankets and falls asleep.
Hour by hour goes by. I fight to stay asleep. Noon comes. Noon gives way to one o’clock. Then it’s two o’clock. I dread the searing pain of getting up. It’s the end of the third week of the month and pain meds are dwindling. Not enough. My bank account is dwindling. I should be up and looking for […]
I need to stop thinking
to end it. this my only goal now. i failed before but i hope this time it takes. i will not stop trying until i succeed. there is no argument to sway me or pill to save me. this is the only place i have to say goodbye, so goodbye.