to end it. this my only goal now. i failed before but i hope this time it takes. i will not stop trying until i succeed. there is no argument to sway me or pill to save me. this is the only place i have to say goodbye, so goodbye.
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If you want someone to talk to I am here, to listen and, if you wish to help. I believe there is always a way forward, a way through the depression. Perhaps it is stubbornness on my part, refusing to let it win. Tho of course if your mind is set on leaving, i wish you the best of luck, and i hope your chose way out dosnt cause you too much pain, i am always here to talk if you want. Peace&Love.
Peace be with you friend. I’m sorry things couldn’t get better.
thank you for seeing me out with grace. the pills and alcohol are kicking in so i probably wont reply again. adios.
Pills? I hope they work, most of the time overdoses dont end in death (going by other members i know who tried them) I hope youve some chillout tunes going, the most relaxing songs you could get, thats what id like if i was to go out
many boxes of pills. alcohol. and in the end, hanging. its going to be a good day.
May you finally find peace, and if possible, Drop us a line from the otherside?
there is no other side. i hope there isnt. i want peace and oblivion not continued existence.
I know how hard life can get, but if there is even the smallest chance that one day you could be happy, don’t you think you owe it to yourself to try? That’s what I keep telling myself. And you know what? There are 7 billion people on earth and most of them don’t spend everyday miserable and thinking about suicide, in fact most of them are so happy with life that they can’t possibly understand why someone would want to check out and if they get to find happiness why shouldn’t we? How are we worse than them? In what messed up world don’t we deserve a normal, satisfying life? Yeah I’m ranting, sorry. The point is that happiness isn’t some distant dream, it’s possible and one day you might find it, but to do that you have to still be here when the time comes. I’m probably not in the right mind to be giving advice right now, but I hope this helped at least a little bit. I’m here if you want to talk.
But if you truly can’t find any other way and you’re going through with this I wish you the best of luck and hope you find piece.
Prehaps you are right and there is nothing after this, prehaps you are wrong. Whatever happens i want you to know there is always help here.
i am beyondf help. treuly amn. canmt qait to sleep
nobody is ever truely beyond help, no matter how bad there is always help. sleep well, if you wake up you can seek that help, if not im sorry you didnt get it earlier
i kno that feel of beyond help; yet i know somehow that you are capable of being helped and getting it
falling asleep, dizzy and cold. thanks for talking me out guys. appresciate it. rea kluy dsoi
Are u there? :/ or dead?
al most i tjink. waiting to fall asleep
Its not too late to call an ambulance or something, you dont have to die 🙁
5 boxes sleeping puills 2 bottlers nyqul, lots of alcojhokl. hertes to hopuing soon
Are they perscription? like strong stuff? if not ur better off getting ur stomach pumped, ur going to feel like shit tomorrow
before i fall asleep i im going to wrap my belt arounf my neck and the closet bar. it holds me i checkerd
You can always not. go to bed, sleep, tomorrow and every day from it you can get the help you need. you dont have to go through with it
i chrckec toxicty lrevls. its enought o kill me, im just going to make double sure
Hospitals can help, im sure they could get enough out before the toxicity became an issue. u can get better, you dont have to do this
i really wish there was another way. there isnt
You cant know that for sure, options are only limited by your ability to imagine them
Breathe deep the gathering gloom,
Watch lights fade from every room.
Bedsitter people look back and lament,
Another day’s useless energy spent.
Impassioned lovers wrestle as one,
Lonely man cries for love and has none.
New mother picks up and suckles her son,
Senior citizens wish they were young.
Cold hearted orb that rules the night,
Removes the colours from our sight.
Red is grey and yellow white.
But we decide which is right.
And which is an illusion?
That song is so beautiful and yet so sad.
Moody Blues – Days of the Future Past
There is a way to get help if you really want it.
Are you still with us smalls714, you’ve been through a lot which you mention in your other post about suffering depression and feeling insecure because of an abusive relationship, but you don’t have to die, stay and talk.
i passed out and vomited, im going to try an exit bag next
Is there nothing that will make you think again, it doesn’t have to be like this.
no, have nothing to live for any more. Tried to get better but my life can’t ever go well. /i feel so absolutely alone. i have no job no skills and im afraid of people. waking up is painful i dont want to do it anymore.
I’m sorry you feel so alone, and that waking up is painful, I often feel like that, that the world is against me. It just seems that you have been dragged down by this relationship you had, that it’s time to find a new path, but depression has robbed you of that if you let it. Depression can be dealt with, you needn’t die, if only you can try.
I know you said you’ve tried to get better, but ending it is such a difficult thing with unforeseen consequences if you get it wrong. Please try and stay posting, it can help, people here are understanding.
I’m just giving up. not going feed or clean myself. just sit catatonic and wait for death.
haha, good luck. i believe the not cleaning part, but you will feed yourself.
how old are you?
38
Smalls714 your post breaks my heart, u know…. My boyfriend commited suicide, I’ve became a Christian since have u seeked out to God? Give it a shot, he always makes things better and comforting to me… Have u tried to speak to a family member or friends? I’m extremely devastated to hear that u aren’t interested in living, I will pray for u… We love u! Just before u commit any wrong doing before it’s too late, ask God for forgiveness PLS! God bless u hun.
your bf committed suicide? that’s terrible.. im sorry to hear that. i am suicidal because I dont have a gf.. jesus, he must of been really messed up to have gone through with that.. sorry you had to even known such a guy that would do such an evil thing..
In the past I’ve been here to encourage people to try to live & in a lot of ways I still feel that way. As of yesterday I’ve begun to question if there really is a God. Truelovemisfortune you say seek out God & he’ll make things better. Until last night, I’ve been praying to God for a couple of things (no it’s not the lottery). It’s to have someone come back to me or at least understand why. Either there is no God, God doesn’t care about you until you die or God is vengeful. It’s just what I’ve been through over the last year. When all this first started, I lost 30 pounds in about 6 weeks. So you’ll forgive me if I’ve started to question Where’s God.
i havent éaten in 3 days. I am 38. Sorry i am not religious
well you got 28 more days to go.. i am sure you will scarf down something to eat by then though, if you have a computer with internet, you can afford some food and water to eat.
I havent eaten much either the past few years.. too depressed.. lost 30 pounds and look like a twig… fuck life sucks for us eh buddy. its all in our head.
if I don’t drink anything I could be gone in a week.
nope, ud pass out, medics would come get ya and fill ya full of fluid. sorry dude, the only way out of this is to just try and live as happy as you can.. watch movies, try to get a lover, get a better job, shit, you dont live in africa do ya??? go get an escort, that will make ya feel a lil better for the evening. why do you feel so depressed? did you ever smoke weed??
I always ask that question on a depressed person, cause that shit sublimely ruined me.. among other addictions… sigh ya were fucked up man, i am.. so what we gonna do about it? cant kill our selfs.. wed only end up hurting our selfs more and having to live with even MORE pain, mentally and PHYSICALLY. plus, once we commit suicide, what then?? we go straight to HELL where we burn forever and MORE PAIN FOR ETERNITY!!
you do know we got somewhere after we die right? so no matter what, we answer to something when we die. Ha, maybe though if we DID commit suicide wed wake up in a COOLER world, and be like shit, i wish i killed myself earlier muahahha but i highly doubt that.
There’s no one to find me so yeah, i’d die.