I’ve been having so much trouble lately. I’m too stressed, I’ve been incredibly suicidal. And I can’t sleep. And it’s all because of people. I just wish I could meet someone who was genuine and actually just wanted to carry on a conversation. But who knows, I might not be here long enough to ever find out…I just want to know if it’s worth it to stay and try to find that person.
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What do you think about sex?
Do you want it?
Do you satisfy your sexual desires?
Your sexual desires, are they bigger than your suicidal thoughts?
I personally think that sex is something really irrational and disgusting, at my age (17) I think I’ll never do it.Naturally, I have sexual desires but I refuse to satisfy them.I know I’m going against my nature.I have suicidal thoughts almost all the time, but eventually I suddenly start thinking about intercourse and for a moment I forget that my life is a crap…actually I think that life itself sucks.
I wish I were asexual.
I have so much fucking homework and why is that? Because I procrastinate, I just don’t feel motivated at all to do my homework, I prefer to sleep or just do nothing. How stupid of me?? I should use my time better. when the due dates get close, I even hesitate to do it, I wait until the last very minute. and even then I have no motivation whatsoever.
I should be doing my homework right now, but I still got some time.
since I found this site I feel a little better because now I know for sure Im not the only one […]
I’ve always been the strong one. The one who held others up when they couldn’t take it. I never wanted to burden others with my problems, so I tend to fake a smile and say I’m okay. I hate to be viewed as weak. It started when I was little — I was born to teenage parents who had a taste for methanphetamines. They did try to get clean when I was born, as well as three years later when my little brother came into the world. But their lifestyle caused me to take care of myself at an early age. A funny story I’ve […]
I began having severe depression at 12 years old due to achieving an erection everytime I stood up. That lasted for 8 years til I was 20. Depression worsened after 2 years and when I was 14 I started having suicidal thoughts but I kept them to myself. Â I had so many suicidal thoughts over the next decade, it has to total in the 100,000s. Â I dropped out of high school due to having no energy to continue.
I went to college many years later. I had constant suicidal thoughts, every building I saw I saw myself jumping off of. Sometimes with myself set on fire. […]
I’m not for sure how I want to go. I really want to just die and the only way I can do it right now is cutting too deep and I’m scared that I won’t cut deep enough and I will just have big cuts on my arms. I either don’t want them there or I do but I would rather be dead, ya know? Like I don’t want anyone to find out that I tried to kill myself. Anyway I’ve looked for sleeping pills but I can’t find any. All I can find are 4 bottles of freaking ibuprofen. I really just want to […]
People assume that we, who are suicidal, are stupid or not smart enough.. We are actually very smart, we can see things the way they are, we analyze the problems and we know there is a solution but we also know it will always come back to the same Shit
I’ve been suicidal for a very long time now. Seriously,I don’t understand how people “recover”. It’s all I can do to keep myself together everyday. Some days are better than others. Most just suck! I go in to see him today& I feel worse coming out of there. He makes me feel bad for feeling suicidal, like it’s a switch I can turn off. I’ve had these feelings for a VERY long time! How are they supposed to go away in 7 months? I’m supposed to be able to call him if things get bad for a coaching call, but I don’t feel like I […]
I feel like most people notice depression signs  but rather adopt the role of the spectator instead of intervening. Why are there so many out there claiming one can and must get through stuff alone? Why is death considered a weak choice? Why do we shame ourselves when there’s nothing shameful about feeling depressed, lonely and suicidal.
As I get fully recovered, I’m trying my best to put myself out there in social environments and whenever this kind of subject gets on the table, people bash and deny help to those who are desperately asking for it.
How many of you had your parents, a friend or […]
I feel so alone. It’s like IÂ have the perfect boyfriend, friends and family. So why do I consistently feel this urge to harm myself. It’s been 6 months since I’ve cut and smoked. So why do I still feel this way. Why can’t the thoughts disappear. I want it all to end. I don’t always want to cut myself. I want to stop being so tired and sad all the time. I hate it. I hate myself. I’m not skinny enough or pretty enough. I just want to feel okay again.
Hi folks:
I’m in a very tough situation, I have two trials pending and none of them will bring anything good to me. I could even end up in jail. May be for two years or more.
My idea is to CTB before it happens. I’ve practiced the compression method but it seems not to work at all. All I get is a swollen head feeling. This would be my only option in jail.
Meanwhile, I have a ******** tank here at home, waiting for me, but I never find the right moment to do it. My mum knows I have that ******** bottle, but the agreement is […]
Hey,
So this is my story of my Depression and search for help.
I live in London and when I made the transition to year 7 it was very hard for me as I’m not great at changes and my aunt died of cancer recently, so I started seeing the school councillor. So it was all going well and helping with the death of my aunt, but after about two year when I was in year 9 another of my aunts died this time it affected me hugely so my mood dropped, so with this I started self harming. So I kept up with the self harm. […]
Hey, I’m sixteen years old (almost seventeen) and I just really can’t cope anymore. I have no reason to live.
I’ve not had friends in years. Nobody wants to talk to me unless they want something off of me. And because I want friends really bad, I just let them use me, but then they leave. I guess I could say I have abandonment issues. I’ve been basically abandoned my whole life.
I don’t exactly have a family either. Well, they’re there, but I don’t even exist to them unless they want something from me (usually money) Which yes, sounds oddly strange since I’m only 16, but […]
Okay so i’ve dealt with depression for most of my life.. but more recently it’s gotten worse and i’ve been fairly suicidal for a month. Anyways.. in the past month or so i’ve been told things, advised things, suggested things… and i keep wanting to scream back at them with frustration. So here is my rant, maybe some of you can relate.
1.) Maybe it’s just a seasonal depression, lots of people get sad during winter. -No.. last time i checked i’ve had this for most of my life and the weather should not make someone suicidal
2.) If you’re ever feeling suicidal or thinking about making […]
I hate it when someone who was previously “suicidal” says that suicide is selfish. Because, if you’ve ever been in that mindset, then you know that it isn’t selfish. You can’t just forget wanting to end your life. It’s preserved forever in your mind. No, you don’t just forget that feeling. And why would anyone say that anyway? Why would you ever insult someone who is at this point? You would never tell someone with cancer anything like that. Why is there so much negative stigma surrounding this?
Hey guys. well, where to start. I’ve always had suicidal thoughts. when I was 17 my first serious girlfriend left me for her ex. I went through a long stage of depression. for at least 6 months. I wrote a long suicide note to my family one night when I was certain I was going to kill myself. I was in bed, left the note laying on the floor. I had a plastic bag put it over my head waited a couple of minutes…I could slowly feel myself drifting away. but as I was about to fall into the ‘no going back zone’ I had second thoughts […]
I’m am currently fighting with my one of my best friends over the fact I’m suicidal. I was stupid enough to send a drunken message to my ex, who sent this message to my friend who is now fighting with me because he thinks of it as weak. JEEJ ME , THIS WILL SURELY MAKE ME LOVE LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN,…. NOT.
How do you tell the ones you love that you are suicidal? That every day you need to make a conscious decision? You have a stash of painkillers ready for the moment? That going to the mental ward again doesn’t solve the chronic physical pain? How do you reach out after so many failed “cures? “
I love all kinds of music. However there’s few songs that grab hold and this is one. I could die listening to this. Â (Not that I am, just saying)
So what would your last song be?
I wrote this a long time ago, in my teens when I was first coming to terms with my depression and feeling suicidal. This was one of the many many poems I wrote going through a really bad time. Thought some of you might relate or have at some point.
I can’t bare to go on much longer
These suicidal feelings continue to grow stronger
The only escape is in my sleep
I’ve dug this whole and now I’m in to deep
Don’t act like you know how I feel
For you see this life of mine is surreal
Still praying you hear my desolate […]