I’m am currently fighting with my one of my best friends over the fact I’m suicidal. I was stupid enough to send a drunken message to my ex, who sent this message to my friend who is now fighting with me because he thinks of it as weak. JEEJ ME , THIS WILL SURELY MAKE ME LOVE LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN,…. NOT.
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he sees it as weak? or he is jealous…
Well, I know he’s a manipulative *****. But that’s kinda why I like him. I guess he could be jealous, but he’d be the first to deny it, it’s an interesting thought to investigate though π
or maybe… the friend is trying to start something with the ex…
Or it could be as simple as not wanting to see someone you care about, act so pathetic and self-destructive as to reach out to someone who has treated you unfairly, and contributed to the lingering difficulties you still struggle to resolve.
Idk. I can’t blame you for reaching for what the heart wants… even if it seems absurd and obviously impossible, from an emotionless, clinical perspective.
Nah, it’d be long distance and I’m sure he’s not intersted in that.
From a rational standpoint it is wrong what I did, and will face the consequences for it. Not like I really care, life is fucked up as it is.
tbh, he thinks he’s saving me by being an asshole but he’s just making it more nice for me to kill myself to proove a point to him.
just a thought: it’s possible to like someone and not be friends with them, or call someone a “friend,” even if you rarely ever interact with them.
He’s my friend alright xd I’ve know hime since kindergarden and he cares about me in his own twisted and fucked up way. I don’t hate him for this. In fact it’s one of the reasons I like him. He never bullshits around the subject, he’s straight in the face, a very unique property indeed π
i will admit that is indeed an appealing quality. But sometimes it can be “a little much.”
Why do you think I still ended up here π I felt/feel I can’t tell him about how I feel because (like he said) he’s just scowl at me for it. It lead me to find this place where I can freely talk about suicide without it being an issue or a sign of weakness π
it’s similar for me… a “suicidal mindset” is pretty much a prerequisite for understanding “where i’m coming from.” So, “normal” people are pretty much guaranteed to be conversationally incompatible. I get so tired of having to try to explain what is obvious to me, and i feel should be obvious to others, but then they don’t or won’t understand, regardless of my best attempts to explain.
exactly! People who haven’t ‘been there’ just can’t get their mind around the way suicide seems like a valid option. Yet if you’ve ‘been there’ you know exactly what makes someone turn to suicide as an option.
I must admit, my friend made me realise I still fight for life, he diliberatly made me fight him because he knows my fighter spirit is still too strong for my suicide to win. I really hate and love how he can play my emotions
ravanys,
try not to tell people close to you about that, it will go around and around, these people don’t understand and even will use it against you! for example if my work new do you think they would conceder me for a promotion? it’s best to talk with us people not in your circle. they are not doctors and don’t understand.
but that’s just it: even the doctors don’t understand. Why would they?
There’s a term: “selective disclosure.” Choose what, and to whom, you reveal. Giving people information they can’t handle is usually a bad idea.
@ clevername,
I agree, when I referred to doctors I was just saying average people can’t deal with it correctly.Γ’β¬Εselective disclosure.Γ’β¬Β I like that term π
Exactly the reason I want to talk to my ex really. It’s really not because I hope to repair the relationship or something. It’s because she’s ‘been there’, she realises what it means to be suicidal.
Lesson learnt, don’t talk to anyone, just vent everything here. I’ve never heard selective disclosure, but I know what you mean by it.