So, I’ve got six more days till my suicide.. part of me can’t wait, and part of me is just.. like.. wow.. I don’t know what to do.. I’m still trying to find my ideal way.. but I kind of want it to be spur of the moment. I’ve debated many things. so.. yeah. But.. anyway.. I.. I feel really bad.. I’m being so mean to everyone.. so terribly mean.. because I want them to be able to let go of me easier.. to just think.. oh, she was a *****, and deserved it anyway. Maybe it will help.. I hope so.. anyways.. I […]
I kept trying to hang, but damn.. my “survival Mode”kicks in.. well i have a new plan.. and going to be gone soon, Note… tell everybody you love.. that you love them before any decision you make.. Happy Departure
I’ve always believed in giving everyone another chance and to forgive but not forget and all that, but what happens when the person who fucked up your life the most apologizes? The so called man who pushed your friend to commit suicide and your brother to attempt? The so called man who bullied and harassed you not only physically and emotionally, but sexually too for years before who took that final step and raped you. The reason you don’t trust, you don’t sleep and the reason you don’t even recognize yourself. Am I suppose to take the “right” way out and forgive him? Or do […]
So I was wondering if my tendency to hurt myself could be considered a positive or at least non-negative behavior. I have been in many situations where I was prepared to commit suicide, but I started cutting or punching myself. The pain always ended up overriding my will to go through with the suicide and I just continued until I was left crying myself to sleep. I can’t think of how many times the cuts and bruises have saved my life. I am so confused on whether I should be happy that hurting myself has saved me or not.
My aunt died after having cancer for four years. It was six days before my twelfth birthday. I was in sixth grade.
I felt nothing.
Jump forward a year and three months: Christmas 2010. During my seventh grade year.
My grandparents were crying while we were opening presents. It had something to do with a photo album, sent by my uncle, which had pictures of my aunt in it or something.
My depression started then. It’s lasted for almost two years now, getting progressively worse. It started out as grief, and from then until the first few months of eighth grade, whenever I’d hear about cancer or suicide I’d […]
September 10th of every year is World Suicide Prevention Day.  To acknowledge the importance of this day, as well as those who have forfeited their voices in exchange for freedom from their unspeakable suffering, New Middle Press would like to offer 50 free copies of Dear Mallory: Letters to a Teenage Girl Who Killed Herself to the first 50 individuals who respond (as well as the administrator of this site, if he/she would like a copy). For information about Dear Mallory, please go to www.newmiddlepress.com. If you would […]
I hope you cry, i hope you weep, i hope me dying gives you the creeps.
Pray for my soul cause your will be next, the cause for the suicide, the cause for my death.
I never loved, i never lost, but because of you life has too high a cost.
I’d rather die, i’d rather slave, away in Hell than see you at my grave.
Don’t come to the service, don’t come to the church, I hope this hits hard, I hope it really hurts.
im ALONE in a Place full of people.
My Grandmother tried to commit Suicide now she is in a mental health hospital, the same one i have been in 3 times. Â ive never seen my grandma like that it tore open something i was trying to put away for sooo long, i have cutt agian. suicide is a option!
if i Could be Turned back & start everything over i would. i hate myself for making my grandmother feeling the way she does.
Rope, or Pills????
Hi again^^
I really thought that the previous post would be the last, but due to some complications I wasn’t able to commit suicide by the sea, unfortunately. I have now started high school, and after just not even a week I already think it’s hell. I’m not bullied and people kinda talk to me, but many of them know each other since before or are just that good at making friends. I have really tried to talk to everyone and in the beginning I thought it went really well, but it didn’t take long for everyone to find just their “gang” to be with. I’m […]
Hi everyone,
I currently just started the 11th grade in high school, I take all ap classes and play two sports for my high school .I know alot of people at my school and i have alot of people that i consider friends and close friends.But most importantly im involved in community service organizations to help others in their horrible situtions as much as i can.But its very ironic to me because now a huge 360 has accured and now im the one searching for a solution in my life. My problem consists because i feel really alone in my social life, however it hurts me alot because i have […]
I once asked my friend what he thought about suicide.He told me “suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem”, he told me it was gutless and a cowardly thing to do.
I think it’s the bravest thing anybody could ever do. To end your life and welcome death and look him straight in the eye, i think it’s the bravest thing anybody could ever achieve.
I’ve thought about it, many times, I don’t think there is a person who hasn’t had the thought of ending it all cross their mind in their entire lifetime. I am new to this site but already it’s helping me, every time I look […]
I just came across this site this afternoon. It’s actually the exact sort of place I had always looked for before, when the darkness always took over. Any time I googled anything about suicide, it was always for help, for “don’t do it” articles, for getting over depression. I realized somewhere along the way, this isn’t something you “get over”, it is always with us. True, it has been a while (less than a year…which is a very long time for me) since I’ve been there, drowning in that blood-red sea with no sign of hope on the horizon, but it’s still in me. I […]
Just went crazy, throwing stuff around my room, breaking stuff. Yelled at my parents on the phone, threatening suicide.
I’ve had several panic attacks, feeling convinced that my life is over. This one is the worst one yet. I feel like it will continue like this until i’m finally ready to die
Don’t have a good way to do it though. Scared of brain damage with hanging. No access to guns/drugs/poison
I want to erase myself. not kill myself, but erase myself, I feel empty. I wish my parents would never have given birth to me. I don’t want to be a memory I want to dissappear. To have never existed.
IÂ cut. A lot..
I’ve done it for about a year. I swore to myself I would never harm myself like that, but look where I am now. I have an arm and two ankles covered in scars and cuts. I think of cutting as a stronger way of crying; i feel so weak just bursting into tears, so intsted i cut, it shows i’m strong enough to deal with pain. But now I know I need to stop. People who mean so much to me tell me I need to stop. I’m loosing people because of it. I nearly went to hospital because the bleeding wouldn’t stop. […]
 Hi My Name Is Ellen,I’m 17.I suffer from Severe Depression, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, And Graves Disease (Hyperthyroidism),And i anxiety issues. I’m not going to go into the gory details of what happened to me, what caused my depression (which to be honest, was a million different things). I left school at the start of grade 10 because i was being bullied…really badly, and that just added to my other problems, a few months after i left school i was sent to a Psychiatrist,she diagnosed me. […]
I can’t hang on anymore, I can’t grip on reality, it feels like one tiny more push by a friend or family member or a tiny indirect threat etc will push me to taking 60 pherngan tablets.
I’m so lonely…..
Hi everyone basically I am suicidal suprise suprise, this time I don’t want to come back, I deactivated my facebook because individuals were egging me on to kill myself….urgh, I am currently stressed out about TAFE, my family situation everything basically and I have been on 9 different drugs, anti depressants you name it, I hate my life and I am suicidal I want to die.
Sorry to bother everyone but I am sick of life one more wrong thing and I will kill myself, I just deactivated my facebook, sick of people’s crap…