So, I’ve got six more days till my suicide.. part of me can’t wait, and part of me is just.. like.. wow.. I don’t know what to do.. I’m still trying to find my ideal way.. but I kind of want it to be spur of the moment. I’ve debated many things. so.. yeah. But.. anyway.. I.. I feel really bad.. I’m being so mean to everyone.. so terribly mean.. because I want them to be able to let go of me easier.. to just think.. oh, she was a *****, and deserved it anyway. Maybe it will help.. I hope so.. anyways.. I guess.. I just wanted to vent. Oh, and.. If anyone even reads this.. I’d like to know what you think. Like.. especially about how I’m treating them.. I want them to be happy.
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i think no matter what everyone will hurt they will always remember you when you were nice and i think if you spent all the time you could with them showing them that you care and give them happy memories to dwell on not miserable ones.
You can’t control their happiness but you can control yours.
If I were you which I’m not, I’d be as nice to people as possible. I know you might not want to, but that’s my suggestion.
People will always remember the more real you than the mean girl.
What is the date you will be dying on? I plan the 31 of this month.
Why are you going?
If you want anyone to talk to, brl.cents@gmail.com is my address.
Merci,
Blindaudio
You won’t like this:
Imagine if you had a boyfriend, whom you loved deeply.
I bet he could be pretty mean to you, and you’d forgive him and keep loving him.
But if he dumped you and said he never wanted to see you again, that would be 100 times worse, and eventually, your hurt would turn to anger, and you’d love him less.
I think it’s the same with suicide: You can’t push people who love you away by being mean to them. But if you kill yourself, that will push them away all too effectively.
I don’t know.
I can relate to hating the agony of life and wanting only peace. But I’m pretty sure your death won’t make anyone else happy, however much you’ve been trying to be mean to them beforehand. You sound like a good person.
Since those are the last 6 days you have, why don’t you try to do your best in them? Watch movies, see friends, help people. It’s only 6 days. If during all these 6 days you feel the same about suicide, at least this will make easier for you to go on with your choice.
Your close ones will hurt the same if you are good or bad. Maybe even hurt a little more if you are bad (“I should have noticed she was about to do it, she was acting very bad”)
Same with me, but ive been trying,i dont have a set date..itz just going to happen soon, and at night..i to have been treating ppl bad cuz i want to make it easy on them when i depart, but its really a suddon thing for me.. i just keep trying my method, but cant over come my suvival instinct, i will do it sonehow shortly, but as for treating ppl bad, i see ur point cuz i want to make it easy for my loved ppl i leave behind
Thanks, all of you. I think I’ve decided ill be kind.. and try to have as much fun as possible.. have my last laughs. Well, thanks a bunch,.guys. 🙂 helped me decide.
If you do choose to go through with this please don’t try and OD on pills. This almost NEVER works. You run a serious risk of damaging your internal organs for good. I hope you find some peace and happiness out there….
Sounds good. I hope you find peace/happiness, and that maybe your loved ones get to enjoy you for many years to come.
please, i know times i get rough…but PLEASE suicide i promise is not the answer! trust me!