…in that dark place. I fell out with my mum yesterday, I thought it was just another petty argument but she took it too far. She started ranting about how she can’t deal with my ‘problems’ any more (I have severe depression). She said that she understands why my brother doesn’t like me because half of the time I am horrible to him, only she didn’t mention the part about him sexually abusing my younger brother and sister (who were taken away) for three years. I don’t want to be here anymore, my mum doesn’t want me, nothing needs to be said about my brother, […]
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Why don’t I have the will to make myself not feel this way? Empty and pathetic and miserable.. Too apathetic to do a thing, but still crying for all the idol moments. I have too much time. Left alone with my thoughts too long.. but I wont do a thing to change it. With every attempt the same thought comes to mind. You’re going to commit suicide regardless of what you do,so whats the point? That seems to be my view of everything. Just going to die, no reason to bother. I can’t care. I’m just not able to. Ive even given up pretending to […]
Hello, I just discovered this forum tonight. I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts for years. For as long as I can remember, really. But recently, they’ve been stronger than ever. Since my mother committed suicide back in September, I’ve had an ascending urge to do myself in as well. It was all due to desperation at first. But at this time, oddly, I feel peaceful about it. Like I’m making the right decision. Or I would be. I am afraid to hurt the people I love. Just like the way my mother hurt me. Having experienced this pain, I would never wish it upon anyone […]
hello everyone
it often happens to me,before sleeping, suddently i feel depressed ,sad ,feel like i’m about to cry,
each time , just before sleeping, i pray, i hope, please god make that nothing of this real, just let me sleep for ever. but each morning i wake up.
i feel i don’t fit in this world, i don’t know why do i persist in living this life.
i’m a cower, i’m not able to commit a suicide.
there’s my family , i know that killing my self will be devastating for them,
i want to feel like when i’m sleeping, then i do not […]
I know a lot of people get all emotionally steamed when people say that suicide is ‘the cowards way out’. It is a horrible thing to say about someone especially  when people who have never attempted suicide could not possibly know the hurt a person can go through for no reason whatsoever other than because we exist. But I think the truth is that it is the cowards way out. I wouldn’t be considering it at all if it didn’t seem so much easier than living and truth be told life is just so much more fucking scary than the worst horror film you can […]
It isn’t its not wrong or selfish. Its a personal choice, I don’t feel guilty about how my parents would feel because they brought me here. It is my life and I will choose what I do as I like to say Death before Taxes. I don’t see meaning in life and I can’t enjoy it. We all die eventually and I dont see why later than now? I don’t want to be part of society and am terrible around people. I hate the expectations on my life from society and My parents and country that I never agreed to. I didn’t sign up for […]
101 Alternatives to Suicide for Teens, Freaks, and Other Outlaws ?
by supranaut
written by supranaut
Has anyone read this? It’s a book by Kate Bronstein.
I remember a line from the movie “the lives of others” and there was this line about suicide being “the death of hope.” Â That’s what I feel like.
I have no hope. Â None. Â I have no hope that my life is ever going to get better and that I will one day be a happy, content person. Â Whatever happiness I’ve ever had in my life has been fleeting. Â It’s only ever been when I was with two of my girlfriends. Â Both relationships ended when they dumped me at around the two month mark. Â I don’t see the point in deluding myself that it will ever get […]
i just cant stand this anymore. every day when i wake up 1st thing on my mind is wish i could blow my brains out. its been like this for about 4 years. future to me seems like lonely, very boring, long and mentally painful and im just 19 years old. nothing i can achieve can make me happy. i know i will live my entire life alone and in this same state of mind as im now. now i have a meeting whit a psygologyst i wish he will give me some drugs i could take whit large amount of other drugs and alcohol […]
There have been several good episodes in my life, but as I look back I realize that the good ones would last just for a little while and the worst ones go on for years or will be there for the rest of my life.
A little more than 8 years ago I had a terrible car crash – I should be grateful about having survived with almost no injuries, but sometimes I wish I had died instantly instead because even prior to that I was a lonely freak and later on everything just got worse and worse.
So then I went to university and slipped deeper […]
It’s true: hurt people hurt people. I’ve never walked around rejecting others while genuinely in a happy state. On the other hand, when I hurt, I hurt those around me; not always intentionally or maliciously. It’s more of a”too stuck in my head to deal with anyone else” kind of hurting. Sometimes, it manifests itself in the form of quickly rejecting the presence of those around me so I can not-soon-enough resume my isolation. The chiming in of anyone else is dismissed as nothing short of a threatening disturbance.
I normally stave off the constant “get me out of here” feeling through substances or the validating […]
Everyone just works their asses during Jr. High and High School so the can get good grades and go to college. Then once they’re in college, everyone works their asses off so they can get good grades and graduate and get a good job. Then everyone works their fucking asses off in their jobs so they can make money. Then once they have money they buy a big house but they can never come home to it, can they? That’s right because they’re too busy working their asses off to afford that house and cleaning ladies and putting their kids through school even though their […]
Here lately I think about  It every day!! I’m just soo tired of everything! I’m tired of  living, tired of  hurting, tired of crying all the time, I just want to die! No on knows how I feel, not even my husband. You know I can even remember wanting to die and praying to die every night when I was 6, 11, 14, so on and so forth. That is the main thing I  remember about growing up. Although the reason’s have only piled up since then. I feel like everyone around me would be better of and happier if  I just died. Sometimes I […]
Ok my teacher went on a rant on how suicide is for selfish cowards. And I don’t understand how she can say this, yes its a bit selfish but I think its more selfish to make someone live when they have so much happens to them and they have been strong for so long don’t they understand there is only so far you can bend before you snap? Also how can they say its for cowards they have never had to pick up the blade, tie the knot, gag on the pills. They don’t know how much courage it takes to end your life to have the […]
I’m 41 yo female, I don’t have any kids. My family don’t talk to me. I have been formally diagnosed with aspergers. I have a low grade glioma in my brain stem (superior colliculus). I have a chiari 1 malformation. Both the tumour and chiari cause migraines, nausea and anxiety. I’m depressed, and everyone I speak to says that is understandable given my situation. I havent any friends – thanks to a combination of my aspergers and terminal illness. People walk away as if it’s catching or something. I’ve tried phoning helplines but all they […]
I lied… I lost all of my friends… they are constantly bitching me out now… I need someone to talk to me… Should I try suicide? I dont want to end it all but with my parents yelling at me non-stop… It might be the answer….
Okay so when I first started this, I had not one thing to say on it. Now I have a slight idea…
When I first joined The Suicide Project I was lonely, depressed. I had suicidal thoughts running through my mind, tormenting me. I have attempted suicide 5 times so far. My memories haunt my every waking moment and I cut my wrists and upper arms so deep that the scars will never heal. I would cry because I hated myself so much, I hated my looks, I thought I was the ugliest person alive, my weight to me 7 and a half pounds or 107ibs, I thought this […]
I don’t really have a big sob story so I don’t know why I feel the way I do. I just want to disappear. Ease the pressure on my family, keep everyone happy. I get so tired of just being a burden. Nothing seems to help either. Not therapy, drugs, or hosptialzation. Suicide is about the only thing I think of. I make plans and just chicken out. Can’t let anyone know so I’ll just do this instead. Need to run or die. Can’t seem to do either though.
A teenager growing up in a world where he has many friends, he gets good grades, he’s athletic, he likes girls and girls like him, it seems like nothing can go wrong in the world. He loves spending time outside. He loves snowboarding, soccer, basketball, and football. He’s finally met the girl of his dreams and he’s in a relationship with her. He’s in college and he’s loving his freedom. He studies, but not as well as he should. He’s off in his little world, populated by the students of his college, where nothing can touch him from the outside. The only things that harm […]
So I had this plan worked out that this would be my last year. I would take the time to work things out so I could leave on my own terms. I know it sounds dumb. Suicide is supposed to be impulsive in a way; pain building until you can’t take anymore. But I want to make myself into a person worth remembering in a good way first. I know I can’t live much longer, I just don’t want to. I have my up days and my severe depressions and I always come back to the same place – there’s no point in keeping this […]