completely give up. I’ve lost all hope…I lost every person that I once had in my life. I now have no one. I am gone very soon. goodbye :’c :’c
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Suicide
I’ve started out with a terrible life. When I was 2 my real dad tried murdering me. When I was three he choked me to death but the emt brought me to life again. I wish I could of just died then so I wouldn’t have to go thru this pain any longer. My lifes falling apart at the seams again…. I’m 14 and tried suicide 5 times! But each time at the end when I’m about to die someone saves me even when I try fighting them. At this exact moment I feel unwated unloved and depressed. I’m thinking of suicide because who would […]
Do you believe in fate? If yes, then I have another question for you. If someone commits suicide, was it fate? Meaning, even if you or someone else attempted to stop them it would have happened anyway because it is their fate? I’m not saying fate should be blamed, I’m just beginning to believe that some things in life are inevitable no matter how much we humans try to change it.
Today I read an article in Psychology Today. In it a successful author was interviewed and he said that  most success in life is governed by chance. Basically someone could work just as hard and […]
So I recently gathered together all of the things from that time in my life–everything that holds negative connotations that came into my life over the past three years, from scissors and razors to the belt from my last attempt and poems and bloody tissues and whatever else–and I put all of this in a shoebox until I’d collected everything. Then I went out with my boyfriend into the back field, and we were looking for a tree to bury it by, when I saw the tree where one of my goats had died (she got her hoof stuck in between two branches and broke […]
That’s it. I said I’d wait a month before I made a decision, and I did just that. But now the time has come and the decision has been made. No more strings attached. No more saying goodbye and no more lies.
I have the date and, my method is a sure fire. I can’t afford to screw it up this time around. Besides I doubt I’ll get another chance like this…i hope the people around me who actually gave a damn can forgive me one day, but i figure that I’m doing them more of a favor this way then by sticking around. I’m not […]
I won’t get into semantics,just wasted more time on the hotline…the volunteer acted appalled that I suggested long term depression was the mental equivalent to end stage cancer…anyone else agree? No thetes no biological basis for suffering but its just as poisonous and just as fatal….
Each day I get closer,and a little more courage. thankfully i found two new pro suicide forums to vent a little more explicitly lol,not that this hasn’t been fun,too.
I hate it when people say suicide is selfish. People that I thought I could trust say suicide is selfish, cowardly and wrong. I don’t know why I call them back, I don’t know why I answer their questions and I don’t know how much longer I can fake this happiness. Sometimes I fantasize while I’m laying down, I get up grab a noose and hang myself. Other times I fantasize grabbing that gun and shooting myself. Lately I’ve been feeling really suicidal, I watched people jump from the Golden Gate bridge and boy was it amazing. No one has a right to tell me […]
I don’t really know what i expect to happen from doing this. I guess i just needed to find somewhere to let my thoughts be known before they just became to much to stand. I want to die, sometimes i think i know why other times i don’t. I’m not even sure how it started up, i guess at first i kept having dreams and fantasies of me being killed in an accident and it started to slowly get closer and closer to where i am now. I never want to hang out with friends, i can never live up to either my genius brother […]
im having a hard time keeping together one part of me wants to jump off a bridge another part of me wants to slit my wrist or starve and dehydrate myself. To bad you cant do all three. Im in a lot of pain and i dont know why just know something inside of me hurts real bad. My life is good but this feeling is not good. I just got out of the er i actually went twice one the first day then the next. They threatened to kick me out of the er the second time if i kept acting up so i […]
This is the final video. All questions will be answered in this video. No more postings or videos will be made.
one_day – you were 98% right but the 2% should never be discounted as its a big part of the picture. The 2% you will never know.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3bFpkZr1-Y
If you missed the last two videos then here they are:
suicideproject.org/2012/03/a-video-message-for-one_day/
suicideproject.org/2012/03/video-message-to-lucy4/
I’m speaking about suicide. When should I throw in the towel? Delusions of grandeur kept me alive all these years. I thought that life would turn around for me and make the past thirty years worth living. But I see it for what it is, a coping mechanism. It’s becoming increasingly apparent that some people get dealt a raw deal and life and that it’s just the way it is. There is no happy ending for everyone, no matter how *positive* you think.
At what point should I just give up? I feel like I have exhausted all avenues, and can barely get through each day. […]
this incident occurred about a week ago i actually thought about killing myself but lately i am actually thinking that i am glad i didn’t now people are starting to care about me since i started talking to my friend about some things that have been happening and i realize no matter the situation no one should kill themselves even if you have those thoughts sometimes i know i will probably always have those thoughts it is better to know that no matter who you are and no matter what the situation someone will always care about you they may say “i wish you would […]
I live in a world where i am always unhappy. my grades are slipping and my parents yell all the time now or ignore me. My brother is their favorite they would give him the world if they could. But to them im just that other kid who was raised by baby sitters until the age of 10. I get bullied at school. I try to hide my depresion so i fit in. Iguess i’m pretty good at hiding it too. For a while nobody knew the dark cloud that surrounded my mind. i first thought about suicide when i was about 8 years old. […]
I have been depressd/anxious for 30 years but I have managed to find some happiness during that time too. I will never be “normal”. I know that sucidal thoughts have many causes, mentall illness, faulty thinking, life experiences or endogenous/ exogenous depression.
But many times people commit sucide because sometimes the pain of life is way too much to handle. Why suffer everyday…why die a slow death everyday? We all die so why not decide for yourself when the right time is? My only cavaet is to really think about the ramifications especially if you are young. Things can change in an instant.
*Please try everything posible to live and strive […]
i am 16 yrs old. my mom is 32 and my dad i dont know becaus e he walked out n my mom when she was pregnant. i live with my mom and step dad who are married and have been for 12 yrs. they have 5 kids together. my step dad raised me but i was never close to him. my father figure past away 2 yrs ago. i didnt know how to handle his death so i started cutting again. i started cutting when i was 8 and stopped when i was 14. my mom doesnt know that i cut and no one in my […]
i cant sleep, its not working! its like 4 am where i am and I CANNOT FUCKING REST IN THE SLIGHTEST OF FASHIONS. you would think after having insomnia fro 4 years i would know how to deal with it, but i dont i just get angry and frustrated then waste my days in a fuzzy, sleep deprived blur. people complain about missing one or two nights sleep and im just there being like ‘dude nto only did i cut myself and consider suicide last night but i havent slept properly in over a week’. and when i do sleep.. bad things very bad things […]
I never thought, I’d die alone. I laughed the loudest, Who’d have known?….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
I don’t know what to do.
Cry?- Check. Have a mental breakdown?-Check. Sit and stare into space?- Check.
So.. Tonight, at about half eight-nine, i started to break down. I started to tell myself that it was happening and everyone is going to die. Then i logged onto facebook to try to calm myself down, only to read a lot of status’ about Chantelle…. Things like R.I.P. After some research, i found out that on Tuesday 3rd April 2012, she committed suicide.
I didn’t know her, but still this news has mentally destroyed me.
It makes me think that, how i’m feeling right now… will be what it’s like […]
ive taken to cutting myself so thats good. ive been doing it for almost 4 weeks exactly, my once spotless arm is quite impressively scarred now. no ones said anything though i mean seriously one of your best friends comes into school with giant scratches up and down her arm and you dont say anything? what is wrong with these people. and in my uniform my arms are never covered and i see all the random people in my class looking at my cuts and just being like ‘are those really..? but shes such a happy innocent person’. only one person out of at least […]
Well, I’ve been gone for a while now haven’t I? I’ve been through hell and back and I haven’t found what I’ve been trying to look for. . .
As the people who read my other posts may know, I was with a guy who I loved with all my heart and I gave up almost everything for him. He ended up cheating on me and using me for sex. . . And I still love him alot. But no where near enough to go through that again. The day after he was caught cheating and shit, I posted it to The Suicide Project. I never really […]
I am a moron. A complete fucking idiot. Why? For actually trusting someone. And not once, but twice!! Maybe that’s the power of a cute face, it makes you do some pretty stupid shit.
My first date (freshman year in high school) was the result of a dogfight. For those of you who don’t know what a dogfight is, it is a bet between a group of people to bring the ugliest date to whatever the occasion may be. Long story short, beautiful red-headed senior asks my “gorgeous” mug to prom; like a ditz, I accepted (should have known, a girl with looks like mine isn’t […]