I have attempted suicide a few times without success. I have suffered from menatl health problems for years an now been told i have a borderline personality disorder I feel more scared of living than dying I have researched on what the best an most painless way of dying an the helium seems a great choice so am in the process of purchasing all the equipment i need so i can die painless.
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Im sitting in my apartment listening to the verve and thinking about how lucky i am. I swear i dont im gona stop smiling for a week.
Im happier than usual because i met someone amazing. She is so perfect its crazy. I seriously never thought i would ever meet anyone i could like every again. But this girl has been relentless, i met her in the library and she has been coming up and talking to me for a few weeks now, i have been politely brushing off her advances until now. Last Saturday i was sick of making excuses, i just said look i […]
This is not meant as a dramatic post. I just needed to talk to people who understood the kind of pain and depression that can lead to ending one’s own life. For those of you who aren’t sure, take a look deep inside of yourself as well as around you. Suicide is, of course, murder – but it is a strange kind of murder in which the murderer punishes himself/herself simultaneous with committing the crime. The two most important things to ask yourself are: (1) is there another answer? and (2) how many will I hurt by doing this?
I am NOT advocating against suicide – […]
I just cant take it anymore.My dad was an alcoholic and died from it about a year and a half ago.Please don’t ask why but I cant see my mom until I am 18.My friends don’t know anything but if I told them they might laugh or even worse.Only 1 person knows and I begin to regret that.I consider suicide more and more often.Most nights I cry myself to sleep.But noone not even family knows what I am going :through because if I told them they would send me to a therapist and that wouldn’t help me.Sometimes I think was I put on this earth […]
So. There is nothing holding me back. There is no one who loves me, no one who cares about me. The last one who existed on this earth, my father, got run over by a truck a year ago next month. I am a single woman in my 40’s who grew up in an abusive household and will never have a mate or children or a loving home. I want to die more than anything in this world. Each night i lie sobbing on the floor, pulling the side of one hand down the wrist of the other, feeling the cool, smooth sensation of a […]
Just because I smile doesn’t mean I’m really happy. Just because I’m smart doesnt mean I’m mentally stable. Just because I wear clothes that cover up my body doesn’t mean I don’t have cuts and bruises from bullies underneath. Just because I am against suicide doesn’t maan I don’t consider it myself. Just because I help other doesn’t mean I don’t need help myself. Just because I like school doesn’t mean I like it because it’s fun.
I’m 30 years old, female. Ever since I was a child, I had a hard life (I prefer to not get into details about that). I never envisioned a real future for myself. While most kids thought about what they wanted to study in college or what they wanted to be when they grow up, there were only 2 things that I envisioned for myself: 1) jumping off high rise buildings to end the suffering, and 2) finding the love of my life to rescue me from this misery and live happily ever after. Well, I’m single now, went through 3 serious/heartbreaking relationships where the […]
Yes I’m suicidal, hence my username. That may explain the dream of me seeing a documentary on TV about a boy who commit suicide and was dead but lived? ( yeah my dreams don’t like logic) anyway, I watch the entire documentary; it showed where and how he grew up and how he killed himself and his funeral ceremony. At the end the boy who committed suicide was alive and grown up saying theres hope for all depressed teenagers. That was when I broke my eyes away from my TV and realised that I was sitting in my living room which had a mahogany coffin […]
We are all dead anyhow so what does it matter if we choose to leave this painful world early? It is only the hypocrites who live pain free who argue so strongly against suicide. Yet if they had to live through the pain that most people who contemplate suicide do they’d likely be the first to blow their brains out.
okay, i am 14 years old and have ben hurting myself for 2 years. i have never be able to quit for over 2 months. i have no idea why i do the things i do. i have tried commiting suicide three time but all fails. i started taking medication to help but it did nothing, therapy, nothing. every try failed. even god, i asked him, and nothing. i feel like no one can help, im just so unloveable, weak, ugly and stupid. i hate myself so much. and if i didnt whine like alittle ***** maybe things would be better……i have a great life […]
I’m 23 years old. I’ve been depressed for over a decade. I attempted suicide at the age of 12, trying to hang myself with my bedsheets. I gave up because I had nothing I could hang myself from that would support my weight.
All through my school years, I never seemed able to make friends. I kept to myself and read books.
Up until recently- maybe two years ago- the exact reasons for my depression were unclear to me. I finally figured out that I was transgender, and I managed to push past the stereotypes on TV of “men in dresses, heels and heavy makeup”, and met […]
I am a 22 year old male currently considering suicide. I have depression, as well as a bout of terrible luck. But I can’t die yet. Not until I’ve at least gotten to spill my guts somewhere. So I’m doing this as an experiment. I can’t vent to anyone in my close circle of friends, because I have constructed such an elaborate facade, I’m not sure if they’d even take it seriously. So I figure doing so anonymously will be just as cathartic.
My parents got divorced when I was four. It is the first memory I have. It was not a pleasant divorce, to say […]
hello internet
i just wanna write something what i think of stuff, hope you can underestand what i mean because english is not my first language. I found this page by searching google for information about hanging. Sitting in my room alone ( im not going to kill myself) just thinking about that if someone wants to kill themselves they should be allowed to. If youre over 18 and havnt got any mental health problems which would affect your ability to make decisions. its your decision and alot of people are lying that they care and just talking stuff like they know but they just saying […]
I’ve so often thought of suicide, but when I hear that word it seems inappropriate to convey what I really want. The truth is I just want an ending. I want to be free from the expectations of parents and people around me, free of the worry for money or to have a social standing. I’ve been going to college for 3 years and they haven’t been very happy. Now I flunked cell biology and my moms cutting me off, and spoke to me with the most sincere sense of disappointment. She said she loved me but I saw no love in her words. It’s […]
Suicide? Is some way out of a miserable life. As for others, it seems as if there is no other road but that.
But its wrong, and your vision is blurred. There’s so many things you can do to help yourself, without going to any suicidal facility.
I myself love helping people, and people who WANT to live get their life tooken away everyday. People who have a loving, caring family, die everyday. MORE then half of the whole world is dealing with problems, and a bit less then half actually go threw with suicide. The bit that try and don’t make it, they realize many things […]
We are born, are educated, get a job, find a partner, have a family, make enough money to stave off discomfort, live the constant struggle of existence, get old, weak and sad, and then die.
Man killing man, people starving while others watch, rape, death: It all seems so illogical, so pointless. Life must be the complete stupidity of existence itself. Therefore we need to create artificial meaning to prop up our petty lives. We depend on religion, which answers our questions by referring to another world that doesn’t exist but provides a so called reason for living. Some people survive through apathy and conformity, following […]
I have been feeling like this for a while now, sleep walking through life with the thought of suicide as my only hope. Recently I have been planning something I’ve never thought of before. I’m 99% sure that this is what I want. But 1% is, shall we say, nagging me to get help…I suppose this is my pathetic attempt to do just that.
I need to end my life.
…help?
Well I’ve been struggling with depression and suicide for a long time now as well as my own anger and hate of the people that bullied me my entire life in the name of their God. I have been at peace with death for a long time now and feel that it would be best and easier if I can just die peacefully. I’m waiting till I get back to my college dorm room for a couple days so I can get everything together for my family and few friends. I feel as if my emotional pain and mental illness are unbearable no matter what […]
have you already chosen a date ?
april 15th or 16th for me ..
my mom (04/06) and cousin (04/11) birthdays are coming up and I don’t want to fuck it up for them .. after the 11th, I’ll have ran out of concern for people feelings .. they’re grown enough to grasp I cannot contribute to their well-being when I’m dead inside and have become very negative .. it’s funny because if I had a child, I’m not sure I’d have considered suicide as an option till (s)he’s at least 20 .. anyway: death, life, politics, religion, fuck all of it
give me death or […]
Come on kids – pull it together. Wait until you are homeless, bankrupt, and have cancer before suicide is an option