okay, i am 14 years old and have ben hurting myself for 2 years. i have never be able to quit for over 2 months. i have no idea why i do the things i do. i have tried commiting suicide three time but all fails. i started taking medication to help but it did nothing, therapy, nothing. every try failed. even god, i asked him, and nothing. i feel like no one can help, im just so unloveable, weak, ugly and stupid. i hate myself so much. and if i didnt whine like alittle ***** maybe things would be better……i have a great life so i cant understand how i could be such a selfish hateful person. i cant let go of the cutting its all i have to prevent suicide. i tried doing drugs, such a weed, and popping pills, but still, nothing, they got me in rehab causing even more hurt on my family. and them hurting makes me hate myself so much more. i dont want to kill myself, i just want to be normal, but i feel like theres nothing left to do. help me, please, someone.
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Hey, don’t worry we’re here. You going to tell us what started you self harming and attempted suicides? No pressure now or anything, take you’re time.
How can I help? What can I do? I know what it feels like to need someone to care. Tell me what I can do.
procel,
everyone at school kept telling me to cut myself so i did it to make them stop, and i liked it so i kept trying and the suicide was to end all the pain and confusion
emptiness7,
i dont know, and thats why i am here….
ur not weak or stupid or anything like that, ur life might look good to others but im sure its no where near perfect, u are not weak and by you trying to stay a life it shows that u are actually strong it takes a lot of work to stay a life. you cant expect to stop cutting cold turkey, cutting is an addiction and its a hard one to stop, u need some help to stop and a lot of will power. i used to cut every day at least 3 times a day. i still cut but not as much i cut maybe ones or twice a week u can get better. you need to find something to distract u and get some steam out like running or ice skating. you will also need some one you can totally trust and call when ever u need the makes u feel a little better knowing ur not alone and plus you have all of us. things will get better or at least thats what we have to believe. if you need me email me at g_gen19@yahoo.com
i have something to distract me, im in a very popular local band, i have played piano sense i was six. have have many people to talk to but i just cant get out of this hole i’ve ben in it sense i was about 10 or 11 and its so overwhelming…
It is overwhelming. I’ve been depressed my whole life. I wish I could say it’ll go away. It does for some people but it never has for me. Every time things are looking up, it all falls apart but I try to be there for people anyway. In my heart I know that death isn’t the answer but I struggle every day to know how to survive. At least a place like this exists-it didn’t when I was growing up and knowing there are people who suffer too can be a comfort. It might be messed up but we have to stick together because the world is an ugly place much of the time. However there are also beautiful people and things and we need to seek them out and try to find joy in the little things. Think about the trees and the sky because those things will be gone when we die.
the only way to get out of the hole is for you to accept the help of all the ppl who are trying to help you such as your therapist, friends and medication. it might not feel like it is working but it takes time and sometimes we dont even realize that its working but trust me it dose.you are the main person that can help u stop cutting other can just try to support you but they rly wont understand unless they have been in the same situation ur therapist might just suggest a rubber band or a red pen in my opinion thats stupid but if u want to try it and it works great. Might i suggest reducing the amount of cutting, or just switching to biting or something a little less harming and then going from there
thank you both so much, im going to try your advice, ill keep undated to tell my progress, if you want to stay in contact, my email is haileyabraham@yahoo.com message me anytime. and again thank you i really needed this