I keep telling my guy that it’s getting harder & harder to not end my pain. I am flustered and short tempered with him bc I want him to help me, I want someone to see that I do not attempt I have been talking about it for a long time, that when I try I will in fact die. I have these reels of rapes and hurt, abandonment, success then failure that just play in my head and I cannot get them to stop. I did a program for PTSD and I use to be some hot shot CEO, but it’s like… I still […]
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What are the Pros & Cons to suicide in your opinion? Anyone??????
Daily I think about suicide, but I don’t act on it. It’s just that, combined with school, discovering my sexuality, my appearance and family problems, I don’t know what else to do. Every time I think about this, I think I’m being irrational, but I still can’t help the urge to do it. One thing that really led me to this was discovering I was sexually attracted to girls. Being a girl myself, I find this very hard to understand, due to the fact that I’ve had crushes on guys in the past.
When I think back on it now, sometimes I wonder whether this was […]
my mom hung herself from a bike hook in the garage this sept. I miss her. she was in so much pain. she had no hope she talked to me and I talked and read and and we fought and she battled and i searched and she persevered but she couldn’t hang-on any longer. for anyone that is reading this and thinking about suicide please know that you are not alone. please know I care. please know my mom was lost too. please know that while I can accept how you may feel about the world and even yourself- the […]
To sum things up, I don’t like my life.
By no stretch of the imagination is my life the worst. The hardest, the most miserable. But I still hate living.
My childhood was verbally abusive. I live with the constant guilt of driving a loved one to their death because of my neglect. I was molested in the 7th grade. My friends don’t ever invite me to their social gatherings, though I guess I wouldn’t want to hang around with me either.
My family and myself are in deep shit financially.
In school, I have advanced classes. Did well on the SATs, state tests, the like. But […]
So I’ve been thinking about suicide all week. All these questions go thru my head
Will I be missed
Will anyone care
does anyone care how I feel
Is it the best thing for me
These questions go thru my head everyday but no anwsers come to mind…
So i spent yesterday and moat of today in the hospital for an attempt at suicide i tried to overdose on sleeping pills that were prescribed to me. And now i failed again and feel like complete shit and a complete failure.
I’m sitting here in English class,
My mind is far away,
I’m drifting more and more,
My skies keep growing grey.
The times are quite exhausting,
My mask is slipping off,
I don’t know how long I’ll manage,
To continue all the faking.
My life is split in two,
I’m pretend and I am real,
I’m hiding from the world,
But on my own the real shines through.
My thoughts don’t make sence,
Just like my presence,
I wish my ties were severed,
So I can fly free.
Flying free is what I long for,
I could leave it all behind,
I would float amongst the clouds,
finally released […]
Hi everyone. I don’t know why I’m writing this. Maybe I just need to get this shit off my chest. I’ve been kicked out of college, my only option now is to get a job or be thrown out.
I have extremely bad problems with my confidence, and so getting a job is out of the question. I’m going to take the easy way out and commit suicide. I live in the UK and have £60 from my google adsense, I’m just praying this is going to be enough for some helium, or whatever else I could use to painlessly kill myself.
I feel so […]
Why is it so hard for me to be happy?
Why is it so hard for my family to understand me?
Why do guys just want to use me?
Why do i always feel so alone?
Why do I sleep around just to feel wanted?
Why can’t i find true love?
Why am I addicted to cutting?
Why do i still have these suicide thoughts?
I wish I had these amswers. People think I’m happy, when truthfully I’m dying inside.
My life is on track and I’m working, have a wonderful fiance but still feel alone. I have no one to share these feelings with, […]
I’m very curious… of course this is a hypothetical question…
If someone were to drive to a hospital – a good one that is familiar with organ donating (unless they all are??) – and “accidentally” shoot themselves in the ER parking lot, bullet to the brain via the throat (??), and was WAY beyond possible resuscitation (brains blown out – hopefully nothing left) – and if that person had a note saying it was ok to donate body organs to those in need – would it be medically possible to save those organs and transplant successfully – in those 5 minutes or so it would […]
Why am I such a stupid fuck? I really cant stand myself. 2 hours by myself and I’m “in a mood” again. Wasn’t even contemplaiting suicide this morning because I was working a bit and suddenly, like a fingersnap, I just want to die. I remember that I despise myself. And that I’m the most disgusting monster on the planet.
I like being by myself, because I can do whatever I want. But I guess I really need distraction. Especially if I havent smoked weed yet. Thought I should smoke less so I didnt smoke yet. (no thats a lie I tell myself, I didnt earn […]
I know that suicide is not an option because I love to many people, and I do not want to hurt them. But the idea of killing myself becomes more and more attractive everyday. How unhappy I truly am is invisible to everyone that I love, and I am invisible too. I am so tired of being lonely and giving my all to people who do not care for me in return, and those who once did care about me go away eventually because I am not worth it to them. I try hard to make everyone around me happy but it never seems to […]
I’m going to do it, tonight I’m going to commit suicide. By the time anybody finds me it’ll be too late to save me. I just want to end all of this. I woke up this morning and cursed myself for not doing it last night and the only thing that got me through today was the thought that tomorrow I’ll be gone so it doesn’t matter what happens today. I feel guilty that I’m going to hurt my parents and the fact that I know that my mom’s going to be the one who finds me makes everything worse but I have to do […]
This is weird for me because I’ve never done anything like this, but this seems like the only thing I have to run to. I want to kill myself, plain and simple. I’m tired of living. I feel worthless and like a waste of space. I hate everything about me. I’m a selfish person and I only care about myself. I hurt everyone around me with my unhappiness. I’m seeing a therapist for anxiety but it doesn’t seem like its working because the pain always come back. I’m so sick of feeling dead inside. Everyday I think of suicide but I don’t have the guts. […]
i havent been on here in so long, i forgot about how sad i was until i read all of these posts i put up. i came back for one reason and one reason only, to say goodbye to this website. i dont need it anymore 🙂
i have the guy of my dreams, my mother and me are happy, and im just happy. i dont cry as much anymore i mean, i still do but thats either period related or just missing my daddy. but im happy
so i over came my suicide. my dark moments filled with pain and sadness. gone, all the pain is […]
I have clinical depression. I’ve cut “Ugly”, “Never Perfect”, and “Daddy” into myself. I have scattered cuts on my thighs, arms, and stomach. I tried to kill myself about 9 months ago, I overdosed on Midol. All my dad did was yell at me, and it’s all he does now. He insults me and yells at me and I blame him for a good deal of my depression. My best friend is a wreck, she’s tried to kill herself twice. Once recently, and I could’ve prevented it. I want to die. Every time I shower I contemplate filling the tub and drowning myself. I smoke […]
Hi I have been here a few times and always come back to see how people are doing and add a rant from time to time. It reminds me I am not the only one and I feel for every one here.
I constantly study how I can off my self and what holds me back. To date it has been an ever shrinking group of friends that I felt I needed or was needed by.
So the truth shall set you free. The truth will also drive your friends and family away from you. The exodus of my friends is now complete.
The truth is I am […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
I hate being alone..I always sit and wonder if its just me. I don’t like being alone, because sometimes, I’m just afraid of myself. I’m afraid that I’ll hurt myself, or cut. I’m very lucky to have a wonderful boyfriend who understands, and stays with me so I’m not alone, but even then, he needs to go home sometimes, and he needs to see his friends. But every time he leaves, I get mad. I get mad because I don’t want him to leave. I don’t want him to leave me alone with this demon that I have become. When he leaves, and goes out […]