People say suicide is selfish because of all the people it hurts. Well I want to know how those who care expecting me to endure the pain that is my life is not selfish on their part. Do they not believe the extent or severity of the pain in my life? There has to be a point that they understand I have no hope or will to live another and that without ending my life I am suffering far more than they will endure from my absence. This theory, or social convention, or whatever it is is bullshit. Suicide is my choice and if anyone […]
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Lately I’ve been thinking about suicide a lot and it is really starting to scare me. Today at work i almost climbed over the rail of the stairs to jump. I’ve almost taken too many meds, and I’ve been researching how much medication it would take to kill me. I started self harming about 2 months ago and I can’t stop, and it’s getting worse. I’m cutting deeper and longer, and I crave the blood.
The last couple of days I’ve been feeling really strange. I feel sad, but not sad. It’s almost an empty feeling but I can feel something in my stomach. It’s like […]
Hi, i don’t really know why i am writing this, or what i hope will come of this. I just don’t have anyone i can talk to right now and i feel like i have to write this down before i completely lose myself. English is not my native tongue, so i apologize in advance for any mistakes.
I am 30 years old. For half my life i have dealt with depression. 12 years ago i have slit my wrists in an attempt to commit suicide. I only failed, because my mother found me in the bathtub, covered in blood, bleeding to death. I will never […]
I’m not old. I’m not sick. I’m not sad. But I’m dying, all the same. I should be happy, my life is good. Better than a lot of people. Better than it has been in the past. Nothing is wrong, really. Nothing’s really right either, but hey. I’m just not happy. I’m getting so tired of hearing myself cry. And that’s all it is. I hear it, but don’t really experience it. Its like I’m watching all these good things happen to someone else. I think I’m just uncomfortable being happy. Is that possible?
Anyways.
I saw something online the other day that posed the following question:
If […]
Hi,
this is my first time here and I have no clue how I ended up like this,it all started by being ignored my best friends and family. Then I was fine for two months…….
now,I am bipolar,I have binge disorder and I self harm,and I sometimes starve.
this might sound like a few stuff but believe me,it is really hard to deal with. Since I have a abusive mom and She always EMBARSSES me.
Anyways,I met a friend that i did the first deep cut for because I thought he was dead,This is when my addiction started and now I wear a bandage around my leg. I sometimes […]
I have set a new termination date, and I plan to depart next week. Hopefully this time I do not screw up and end up still alive. I feel trapped, and that I have to make this decision. Although I have been depressed and suicidal for the past seven years, I feel as though my feelings have catalyzed within the past few weeks. I’m sick and tired of always being sick and tired. Sick and tired of being a stupid, worthless,and hated burden on those that are around me. I am nothing more than a failure. I don’t […]
I’ve been miserable for two years now. I’ve been self-harming during those two years and have been thinking about suicide, but never acting upon it.
My parents won’t do anything to get me any help, because they don’t believe in depression.
I’ve been trying so hard to try and get happier by myself, but it’s driving me into more sadness and despair.
I’ve been trying to stop my self mutilation, but my body has been craving it. There’s a part of me that wants to cut myself and see how much I bleed, but there’s also the part of me that doesn’t.
I don’t know what to do anymore. […]
So I have the method: helium hood. I have the plan all laid out. I have the relevant notes all prepared (albeit in my head). I know how I will do it, I know how long it will take, what will happen to my body, where and how I will do it in such a way that causes minimal fuss for those who will find me.
I’ve had this plan for a long time, I have replayed it in my head almost daily – what stops me is the thought of messing up my two children, they’re only young. How to get them to understand? How […]
I’m sorry but, I can’t take it anymore… the nightmares get worse, my family seems to enjoy my suffering and online… things just seem to be getting worse, I can’t take it, I have no means of escaping the pain anymore…
I….. I have to end it all tomorrow, final chance for everything and everyone… Not like it’ll matter…. not like any of them will notice… :'( I’m sorry for not being good enough for you, I hope you find happiness, where I failed to provide you hope. :'( Good bye…. forever. :'(
But, please know, I didn’t want to do this to you, I’m not ending […]
I should end my life, tomorrow’s the big day after all… No one will miss me, no one will care, Tomorrow is the only day I’ll have to myself, NO ONE WILL TAKE IT AWAY!
Tomorrow, I die!
Sliced wrists, Downed pills, and a rope around my neck! I’m making sure I die this time! GOOD BYE FOREVER YOU HEARTLESS MONSTERS OF THE WORLD!!!
My life is bullshit. some would say I’m lucky, I mean, I got things that all materialistic people want, I’m not poor and I live in a fairly decent house, Even I, a 14 year old girl owns her own summer house. but the things that i have, don’t represent how shitty my life is, every night my mum is screaming and shouting at everyone, me, my sister, my grandma. my father left me at young age, not that I care.
I used to be called a prodigy, on top of everyone else, best scores, ‘teachers pet’, A* everywhere. they called me an artist, a mathematician, […]
I believe as long as people (1) are not in debt OR have completed a filing for bankruptcy, AND (2) they’ve made arrangements for any dependants to be properly cared for after they’re gone, they should be allowed access to safe and painless (or as near-to-painless-as-possible) options for committing suicide. Yes, I’m completely serious. The reason I think so is not just because I think we all should have a right to end our own lives, but because if things were arranged that way on a *societal* level then I feel people would be more supportive of those around them. Sure you could still gaslight/invalidate […]
My life is a downtrodden groundhogs day.
I wake up every morning with a varying degree of hope and slowly pull myself out of bed. I turn on my computer, if it isn’t already on to charge my phone overnight, and my monitor then venture into the kitchen for a fresh cup of water. I like water. Fortunate I suppose, I know most people don’t. I could gladly skip juices and soft drinks for a steady supply of water. A fresh sip splashes my mind and cools my senses. Today isn’t so bad, I think to myself. If I’m hungry I’ll peer into the fridge and […]
I simply don’t know how to feel about this anymore… I’ve been planning this for nearly a month now… And now that my time has come, I don’t know if I”m ready… no one from my family would miss me, none of them even care about me. If anything, they hate everything about me, from the sound of my voice to the fact that I exist. I’ve already tried countless times before, why is it that this time seems so much more difficult… I don’t know whats wrong with me anymore… it doesn’t matter though, because, this time I’ve planned the whole thing out, and […]
Where do i start eh?
I am 48 yrs old, married to my gorgeous wife Victoria. we got married in 2006, we’ve had our ups and downs liek all couples do and we have come through it because i thought we were strong.
I had major back surgery in 2011 that failed now i have disc degenerative disease throughout my spine and survive my days on large amounts of morphine just to get me walking.
My Mother passed away in Nov 2012 and i felt a part of me died too, my Father died in 2007 the day before my Birthday and that is crippling me big time. […]
For nearly a month now, I have lost so many things in a matter of seconds, I never have time to cope with any of it, and I just can’t take the pain anymore as well… Seems like for as long as I can remember all I’ve gotten to feel is pain, pain, pain and more pain… Endless, never ending and unrelenting amounts of pain… It just never stops… it just keeps growing and growing, like an ocean that expands over the land, swallowing all in its path.
There just doesn’t seem to be any reason for me to exist at all anymore, no one wants […]
I read something a long time ago. It said, “Suicide doesn’t end the pain, it transfers it to those who love you.” I cannot agree more.
Hey guys, so I’m new to this site but it seems like a good community. I don’t really know where to start so I guess I’ll just go for it.
When I was 15 my good friend from elementary school passed away from an asthma attack. I largely regard this as the beginning of it all. After that I became pretty depressed, it got pretty bad for a while but I got over it. Over the next few years it came and went on and off, a couple months depressed, a couple months happy, that sort of thing; though I’d always been too proud to actually […]
Help me.
I need to get this off my chest.
I think of suicide.
I’m not old but not young and I work as a suicide/crisis counselor. I deal each and every day with people who are hurting, alone and pain-ridden. People who need. And all of them want help. Want peace. Want someone to tell them they will be okay. That the day gets brighter. Just like me. I see as many as 18 separate people a day. I see snapshots of people’s worlds and realities. Of short comings, of emotional issues, of pain they’ve caused themselves or others have caused them. When you speak to someone […]
Reality sucks, Reality suck, Reality boring, I hate Reality, boring Reality, Reality is boring !
by niki
written by niki
Reality is boring & LIMITED !! I hate Reality ! boring Reality !
Real life is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real life ! boring real life !
Real world is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real world ! boring real world !
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, […]