I am tired of waking up to the same day. My day is filled with emptiness and sadness. I love a man that will never love me back. His excuses exhaust me. “I love you” he says, then tells all of his friends “Oh, we are just friends”. He keeps himself open for a better prize. I have now loved 2 men in my life and gave 100% to each relationship. While in the relationship each man found love in the arms of other women. I forgave them, moved past it, but never fully trusted. I am now 30, I have given over 10 years […]
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I’ve waited till now to make my first post, simply because the first two days without food and water has been relatively easy. Now the third day, I honestly have no desire for food though swallowing is becoming difficult. I am starting to experience headaches, probably because of lack of food and even getting down ibuprophren without water is difficult. It would be so much easier if the people that made the decisions towards legalizing euthanasia weren’t making the decisions. It’s easy to want to live when you have a 100k a year job house, wife, children and even family and friends. I have none […]
I wish to terminate the continuance of a certain existence,
though it is obvious that the identity is of someone regarding myself,
I do not wish to expose the exact identity of the person[s] involved.
So I will simply yield this Inquisition:
Why not?
The hour grows short; hasten your responses
There is no order to most of my life.
Just as there won’t be much order to this post; my mind yields only things of its own nature and characteristics.
My poor mind, relatively young yet feeling so old. Worn down, like a war ship incessantly buffeted and berated by the interminable winds howling across the vast expanse of sea and darkness; never letting up, allowing no time for reprieve.
The wood creaks, the boards swell with moisture, and the sails test the very limits of the ropes that hold them, seeming as though they might snap at any moment.
But there is no ship. You know this, as you […]
Hey everyone,
I’ve just registered to this site so I hope everyone can see this post as I’ve so read many good one aswell. I really need your intel about a problem that’s concerning my plan.
But first, my story (incase anyone would wonder).
I’ve recently turned 21, I would say that I have been granted everything in life, I really loved life. But four years ago something happened. I was in high school, my grades were going great and my dream was soon about to come true to enter my dream college… I got an disease, incurable and hereditary. This disese was the one that killed my grandfather […]
I have been thinking about death a lot for the past two months. I feel as if my life has been going down hill. I lived abroad for almost 5 years (12-17years old). I made most of my friends during that time and due to some circumstances I was forced to move back to the USA. I’ve been back here for almost 2 years now and I have no friends. I do have a boyfriend, but he has his own life (family, friends, school, etc) . Where in my case, he’s my life. He’s the only one I can talk to besides my family. I […]
it all started about 8 months ago, recently I had noticed that things got to me alot and they got to me pretty easy. One day, my family were putting me down and they always would compare me to other people, this made me want to just cry. My family relatives would either not notice me or they would just ignore me, they always got annoyed at me if I didn’t socialise with my family but when I tried I got nothing back they would say they were “disappointed” in me and not really care. I was sitting in the bath and as I looked […]
It’s tearing me apart deciding whether I should commit suicide. I have an effective method and I’m extremely atheist, but I can’t decide whether to it. My life is shit and I doubt I’ll ever be capable of anything worthwhile or worthy of love, but I still cling to life. Why? It’s over. Why can’t I just do it? I feel I’m better off dead but I’m too scared to kill myself. What should I do?
My email is always open to anyone to needs to talk about anything:
Self harm
Depression
Suicide
Or just need a friend 🙂
Selseyc@gmail.com
I honestly don’t think we all come to this site to share a sad heart whelming story, but to try and let others know that someone does care. So, we participate on this site, we comment, and try. That’s all we can do is try right? Then you have the people who come here to make people feel worse then they already might be feeling. This is almost like a legit facebook for issue discussion. I’m not going to write your classic suicide note or ever judge anyone here, because I cannot say I do understand, but I can always try. I like to look […]
My name is Anonymous
I’m 15 years old
I want to be free
From a world that is cold
I’m just an Angel
I want to go home
I’m not a stranger
In heaven’s dome
The Lord watches over me
I know he hears my prayers
He that I cannot see
I still know he’s there
I’m unhappy with life itself
No one really understands
I don’t want fame, cars or wealth
I just need a helping hand
To guide me along a path
That is far away from life
I need a friendly hand to grasp
As I reach for a knife
Do not […]
I’m new to this so don’t even know if the box I’m typing in is the box I’m supposed to be typing in and I realize that nobody probably cares/will read this but It feels great to get it out so here goes.
I’m Jess, I am 17 years old and I am on my summer holidays from school now. Over the past year I have just grown to be so disapointed in myself and I jst feel worthless. I self-harm and I’ve told nobody about it. I understand that it is necessary to tell people about it and to find help but although my […]
Hi all, I’ll start with a quick intro of myself/my situtation. I’m 19, two para-suicides. I am now certain that I want to die. My last attempt was an overdose on anti-depressants and paracetamol which failed, before that, a cutting of the wrist. Now that I am sure, however, I’d like to go peacefully. I’ve refrained from giving anyone any hints and just really want to be left alone at this point, very tired. I don’t feel like I have the necessary skills required to function in this world and furthermore I have very little desire to do so. I live alone so suicide over […]
Wow. I dont care what anyone thinks anymore fuck em… I mean. I feel mor numb then ever, but nothing hurts me ether, I supper with my self harm addiction this could be troublesome later… But you know what. I don’t care if I slit my wrists and blead out at all. As I said I just don’t care. I mean Is this really so bad, is suicide even such a bad thing, what dose my dieng entail for anyone else….
It’s all funny because.. I’m so tired I’m probably delirious, right? And that’s what makes everything seem like such a big joke. And I’m sleepy tired, I’m emotionally tired, and I’m mentally tired. I’m tired of walking on the road of *life*, walking down one path until it splits between a good path and a vile one and I always take the latter. It’s not like I can even choose, it just happens. A friend of mine said he never believed in fate, and I whole heartedly agree. But I also so strongly disagree. Life is something you have control over. You make the desicion […]
I explained in my last post how many of my problems are congenital: that i’m extremely stupid, unattractive, physically undeveloped, and have no personality. The pain from this reality is escalating and i’m becoming increasingly angry at the world for it’s lack of empathy. For example, I’ve been to the cinema twice in the past two weeks and on both occasions people sitting opposite have laughed at me and called me a spastic/retard because of the way I stare at the screen and snicker repeatedly at funny moments because I’m too afraid to talk. I’m sick of sales assistants and security guards who glare at me […]
At the age of 17 after signing paper to come to kicking horse job corps in Montana. I had a break down. remember that I have PTSD, I had a psychotic break down. this is honestly that hardest part of my life Its hard for me to tell people. but here it goes. I had a psychotic break down I was homicidal and suicidal. I showed up at my moms not(best friends mom and his house) house. She wasn’t feeling good. she was feeling sick that day. She looked at me and asked if I was okay. all I could manage was a head shake saying no. […]
Please someone, Anyone….Help me….I wanna die so badly right now, and i have no one to talk to…Please… Just Please….Talk to me…Don’t leave me alone….I don’t wanna be alone anymore…
I tried overdosing about 2 weeks ago ended up at the mental hospital. My mental diagnosis was changed as well as my medications. Â I felt so much better leaving there after the medication change. But long story short no one wants me around anymore I am all alone. I finally found an article that said I would be labeled for life and they are right so once you try most likely you will need to find a more sucessful way to commit suicide because you life will be worse after your attempt.
It always comes back. All my life, the depression always comes back. I can pull myself out through sheer will power, and I’ll be fine for a week or two, and I think ‘I can do this, all I have to do is not think’.
Then one day I remember what a shit bag I am. How useless, fat, ugly and completely disposeable I am. How broken I am. Someone esle could do my job so much better. So I think, what if I just step aside? What if I just take myeslf out of the picture, so someone else can step up to the plate?
Some […]