When you know everything is so fucked up and you can’t do anything about it?
When you really want to die but you have reasons to live?
When you really need someone to talk but no one is there for you?
Because I do..
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I have been in mental anguish , agony for far too long. I don’t care you’re age or gender or even locale. I just want someone to talk about anything and everything. Maybe , we could help each other. I’ve been holding on for 7 years.
Email foxtrotz at aol
Bobby
Hi everyone,
i won’t bored you with my back story. Needless to say it involves abuse/depression/anxiety/suicide attempts. I would love to talk to any like minded people about how they cope with continuous suicidial thoughts and crippling depression. Please message me :).
Loneliness is the worst part of all of this. I feel like no one truly knows me, like I can’t be truly honest to anyone. My family knows some parts of me, the only guy I’d call a real friend knows some other parts, you guys know still other things about me and there’s stuff that no one knows. There’s things I can only talk about with my family, some things only with my friends, some things only via SP and some things I can’t tell anyone. It’s like my personality is split in many parts, and whoever I am depends on who I am […]
I can’t tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like.
by ToastIsMe
written by ToastIsMe
Ironically, I can’t actually describe what it feels like anymore. In September and October all I wanted was to forget and stop feeling- I was so certain that would solve my problems. Now I’ve forgotten so much I’m not even the same person. I have no idea what to say to people anymore. Writing is easier because you only see the finished product, you don’t see me daydreaming or imagining, or pausing; you just read this and that’s it. Face to face I find myself just sitting there staring. The only people I talk to are my roommate who is a self absorbed moron and […]
I’m looking for help, someone good with advice to talk to… I need help, support, and advice…
I have many secrets that I keep from everyone in my life. There is no one person who knows everything about me. Not even my family knows who I really am.
I don’t really like to have conversations with people, regardless of how close they supposedly are to me. I find it hard to have small talk, I usually don’t find anything interesting to talk about to them. I usually end up talking about myself, which I know comes off as being arrogant. When I do talk about myself, I end up talking about a version of myself that isn’t really true. I exaggerate and underplay […]
For me, It’s hard to talk about this. I can’t express my feelings since I don’t know what I am really feeling. ¿Am I too empty? And I don’t want to sound weird. But I got to a point where I don’t know what the fuck I am feeling. If I’m in love, I don’t know what love is, I only know for medical fact that I’m sick, down, depressed and well tired. But why the fuck am I feeling like this? I can’t really tell. It’s strange. I’m really feeling that I will not make it this year, It’s just the first month and […]
I’m so fucking ugly.
No, stop. Don’t think about it.
I don’t feel anything.
Yes I do.
I can feel everything.
Just shut your fucking mouth if you don’t know what to say.
I don’t need your words, they won’t cure me.
If you want to help let me talk.
Stop trying to promise it’ll get better.
Stop trying to make everything simple.
Stop trying to belittle the situation.
I need help, I get that.
Thinking positive, I haven’t heard of that before, I’ll do that.
Having fun, I’ll give it a go.
But,
it doesn’t feel fun.
Please don’t ask me what’s wrong.
Don’t […]
Hi again.
Today was pretty stressful, as are most days. I feel like I’m writing to a diary but people are actually commenting, so that makes me feel a little better about it. In the last post I used initials for the people’s names in case they find this and try and do something about it. My ex-best friend are out for blood, and it’s not their own.
Basically, my friend T is actually my friend, but I found it out a little later on. This morning she was hugging one of my friends and I walked up to her and she walked straight past me like I wasn’t […]
I realized that I don’t want to be alone, because being alone truly sucks. I am so unhappy with my physical appearance that it just depresses me and makes me so insecure. Over the past few months I have gained 22 pounds and until recently I lost 10 pounds. I feel so ugly and I want to change but its so hard, I guess I don’t want it bad enough huh? I gave my all to someone that took advantage of it and just hurt me. And now I’m afraid, I don’t want to do that again and so I don’t. I don’t let myself […]
Today is the 2 week mark that I haven’t taken pain killers. I AM CRAVING THEM SO BAD. But in their place I am cutting myself more and drinking more. Whatever I can do to try to make the pain go away. I miss the pills, like I miss the effect. I didn’t feel anything, I didn’t think about anything. I just sat there. And I like not thinking, because I don’t think of all the bad things. I don’t have to remember everything that I’m trying to forget. But I am trying to stop cutting myself, so when i wear short sleeves i wont […]
It’s so hard to function. I feel the oppressive weight of loneliness on me constantly. A single second of alone time, and it’s like a million years. It’s not that I don’t have friend, I just don’t always talk to them. Fuck my life. I’m so fucking tired of having anxiety over every single little decision. Fuck.
Someone to talk to, to listen, understand, care… I may die any day now, but I wamt someone to care for me and miss me. I need someone, Anyone. I don’t care who! Just someone who feels the numb, the pain, the sorrow, the hurt… Anyone thete?
Listen. Your life may be bad and you may feel like your drowning in a pit of constant fear and hate and you’re struggling to reach the surface once again but honestly, you’re perfect. If you’re a size Plus or an extra small, small chested or big chested, blonde or brunette, blind or deaf; you’re beauty is a unique creation and there’s not another one like it. So try not to tear it open, even if it’s hard to live in. If you die, yes you’re out of your misery but even those who keep silent about you will blame themselves and create a chain reaction. It […]
So i have been having really deep depression latly and idk how to deal with it. I cant talk to anyone about it because i have no one. Id just like to talk to someone who understands me
Myemail is justin _ evans at aol
I just wish my sanity would just stay. I hate it when my head plays these games. I wish the panic attacks would just stop. It is not that big of a deal. I’m so insicure and you can see it in my face. I’m so ashamed of it. I wish I could just talk about things instead of bottling it. Instead of dealing with shit I get lost in work. I enterlenize everything. I’m destroying myself. And then the anger. It just builds in my system. It fucking boils. I can’t stand it sometimes. It’s me. I know it’s me and it sucks I […]
It’s not only a reminder of how fucked up my life is, it’s also a blow in the face having to talk to those family members who will call me asking me how I’ll celebrate and how many friends I’ve invited and how much fun I’m going to have. They know nothing. And the fact that that hasn’t changed in the last years only shows how much I mean to them. Exactly, pretty much close to not a tiny bit. The only thing I wish for my birthday is that I don’t have one. Just leave me fucking alone and stop pretending you care.
I am so alone. I can’t tolerate it anymore. There is no one that I can talk to that can understand how sad I am let alone provide any advice to assuage that sadness. I don’t know what the point is in existing anymore. My life is a spectrum of torture.
I am handicapped, suffocated by mental illness.
Well the past few days I’ve been getting worse, quite bad to be honest. Today was my first day back at school after the holiday and I was so scared because I’ve been feeling extremely lonely and I know no one at my school cares about me, none of them ever want to talk to me. So yeah today I was quite scared because I had been convincing myself for ages that no one likes me and I’m never going to make friends anywhere, I’ll be lonely forever.
Yeah I do admit today was horrible, being surrounded by all those people who don’t care, turn their […]