Another bad week… Summer was great and now at class return my life come back to be a bullshit… They hacked my facebook profile and say terrible things about me and i never do anything wrong.
now after 3 months i start cutting again… Why its seems to be the only way? I feel ignored I feel a nothing and good on nothing.
I spend a summer trying to think that this would never happen again
its really another day in paradise?
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Terrible Things
its over for me , it drained me , killed me of emotions , all those crimes , all the terrible things i did , the way i live my life i dont want it anymore , and now , what do i do , only god can help me if he is there and can hear me ,
i am dead inside , there is nothing left no more , i cry in my room at times , screaming as loud as i can , and yet , no one hears me , and no one sees me , its funny , i make […]
I’ve made up my mind. I don’t know if my parents will see this. Anyone feel free to email my mom this;
kira5605@yahoo.com
Dear Mom,
I can’t do this anymore. I know it’s hard for you to take care of me while living with dad. He’s un grateful and cruel. He hits both of us. I hate seeing you hurt. He always tells me that his life would have been better if I wasn’t born. If it was just you and him, no one else. Because of that, I think it’s the only way to keep you from hurting. I love you dearly. I want you […]
I sit there, curious about the cut on her arm. She looks sad. Did she do it on purpose? My mommy is crying, she’s crying over Sophie’s body. Sophie did hurt herself.
“Mommy, what happened?” I ask.
My mommy just looks at me. She looks very, very sad. I think I didn’t ask the right thing. “Sophie hurt herself very bad.”
I am confused. Then I hear my big brother, my worst enemy, Joshua, come in. He looks at Sophie, who still hasn’t woken up, and this look of rage enters his face. He starts screaming bad things at me. “It’s your fault!”
“Why where you even born!?”
“You waste […]
I’m 16 and a junior at high school.  I have been suicidal for a long time and I have yet to talk to anyone about it. I used to do terrible things to my friends and family. I would lie, cheat, and steal from them. I don’t know why i did it but i did. I realized that it was bad and I stopped. I’m better and happier.
Just recently I heard my friends talking about themselves and saying that their fat and that they need to lose weight. It didn’t used to affect me but I started to believe it. Me  being a thicker and wider person i thought ” well if […]
Here we go again. I am in a deep mess of emotions right now, it is hard to describe it but being mad is alright for today. Just for today. I have been happy for a couple of weeks, really happy. It was unbelievable.
We got drunk yesterday again, i feel lame because of it. I just remembered the scene of me crying in front of the screen watching sth on youtube, it was just a disguise for the reasons that really drove me to tears. Anyway this person i like, my best friend saw me and tapped me on my shoulder and left. I could […]
So this is probably going to sound dumb but I’m extremely depressed over my recent break up I don’t want to go into details because I feel it won’t help. After my break up things began to get worse, I found out my grandma is very sick and is getting worse each month and there’s nothing I can do for her at all, can’t even see her. I haven’t been able to make enough money to stay in school and financial aid keeps denying me, my friends just don’t seem to understand my struggles in my life and kind of seemed annoyed that I keep bringing certain things up. I also feel like […]
I know most of us here feel like outcasts in the normal world. We are just a little bit different from everyone else. The world does not seem to fit us.
I think a lot of it may be because we are just a bit more, philosophically mature, I guess. Whether it’s because of the terrible things we’ve been through, or simply because we were born this way, we seem to think more about life, and are mature enough to acknowledge that there is something wrong with the world.
Most people, I have found, rely on religion, or other people’s ideas for answers. But we […]
I am in debt so far over my head that i’m afraid of everything. i don’t answer my phone because it is always the bank. i shred my mail without reading it.
I have watched myself do terrible  things to people i supposedly loved for no reason with no way to stop it and it will happen again and again. no reasons, just pain and anger and manipulation. words i can never take back. i strangled my ex until  i could feel his pulse in my hands and i wanted so badly to kill him for what he’s done.
I’m so broke I started doing porn and […]
Most of the times I feel like I say the wrong things at the wrong time and cause more problems in my life! I feel like I can’t do anything right! I have to pretend I am happy most of the times! I don’t wanna pretend anymore! I have almost commited suicide 4 times already :/ every time I try either a friend runs in and stops me or a thought of a loved one! I don’t wanna go through hell anymore 🙁 so many terrible things have happened in my life! I can’t take it anymore! I don’t know how much longer I can […]