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Sweet Poetry

by Matt 3/11/2015

written by Matt

I was told today that my parents want to take me out for lunch sometime next week.

Well, less of they want me to, more of I have to go with them.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my parents, but I can’t think of anything I’d rather do less. I hate leaving the house now. Scratch that, I hate leaving my bedroom. It’s pathetic.

Well, if all goes to plan, they won’t be able to take me out, except in some weird Weekend at Bernie’s style escapade.

And of course I’ve added all of this to the cumulative message I will send him. I feel like he needs […]

3/11/2015 1 comment

Engaged Love But Alone?

by lezbehonest94 3/2/2015

written by lezbehonest94

I’m engaged. She’s the most beautiful person in the world. But I feel so fuckin alone like.. I no she’s the one for me. Recently her roommate don’t like me and made me move out so I did just that . we’ve grown distant quickly. Three days I’ve been back at my grandmothers house. And she has broken promises and knows of my problems… She’s driving me over the edge …yes I’ve told her…and I beg of her not to keep hurting me… But …she doesn’t care… Not text no calls back she’s slowly breaking me know in I’m fucked up in the head… Why […]

3/2/2015 3 comments

why cant i go

by flurdelis13 3/2/2015

written by flurdelis13

ive attempted suicide many times before but now i dont know why but i keep telling people when at the same time i want to die maybe i just want someone to tell me its ok to go. my parents love me i just wish they didnt and my brother really cares about me but i wish i was alone. I talked to my ex girlfriend on the phone last night and told her for the past two weeks ive been thinking about suicide and she begged me not to but yet if i did she would never know she lives in tennessee and i […]

3/2/2015 2 comments

Hold

by Matt 2/18/2015

written by Matt

isnt it scary how one person can have such a hold over you??

i wanted to sleep tonight but my mind wouldnt rest, so i went through all my text conversations from months ago.

ive long since deleted our text histories, along with your number. i wish i hadnt, i miss the cute things we said to each other when one of us was down

i honestly dont know where things stand with us. i dont know whether you hate me, or if you just think youre giving me space until im better. either way, youre not here and youre really the only person i want to talk […]

2/18/2015 1 comment

Been on my chest for a while. My journal isn’t enough.

by notanymore 2/14/2015

written by notanymore

*i want to apologize in advance. These are the things I can’t say to the man who promised the world and took everything I had left.

I can’t do this anymore. I can’t deal with you pretending I don’t exist one day and making small talk the next. I don’t want to live waiting for the day you decide to start caring. The things you said about me that night are killing me. Was there ever a time that you loved me, or was it all lies? I’m so tired. You only text me when you’re sad or upset, but you ignore me when I need […]

2/14/2015 0 comment

The Paradox of People

by dreamsinwhichimdying 1/18/2015

written by dreamsinwhichimdying

I’ve found a recurring theme in myself and other depressed/suicidal people, which I’ve found extremely interesting. You want people close to you, but at the same time, you want them as far away as possible. When I sit alone at lunch, I keep looking at my friends, silently willing them to come over, but at the same time, feeling happy that they stay away. I keep looking at my phone, desperately hoping for a text, glad that it never comes. I want my friends to help me, but then I remember that none of them can. I don’t know, I just think it’s curious.

1/18/2015 8 comments

Left Behind

by Left Behind 1/7/2015

written by Left Behind

I came across this site while looking up suicide rates in 2014. I read through some of the posts, and decided I’d post my story. Although I’ve never attempted suicide, the thought is all to familiar to me. The thought of committing suicide has crossed my mind numerous times. I don’t know how intentional the thought was to actually commit, more of a lingering what if? Death is inevitable, inevitable for everyone. I’ve endured many losses in my 28 years. Some family, most of them friends. Some to accidents, and others at their own will. I never really thought too much about what happens to a persons soul after they take their own life. […]

1/7/2015 2 comments

Fuck.

by hellblau 1/4/2015

written by hellblau

I don’t know why I’m still fucking trying.
2 weeks and counting when you don’t even try to text me. What the fuck.
I put the fucking sky at your feet and you do this to me? What the fuck.
I bought you things, I made something for your birthday. What the fuck.
I tried to call you, I tried to text you, I still do. What the fuck.
I mean what the fuck is wrong with you, You’re playing with my fucking feelings.
What the fuck.

I put the fucking world at your fucking feet. Fuck you.

And you know what else? Fuck you […]

1/4/2015 4 comments

useless and foolish

by Harrison 12/18/2014

written by Harrison

tthats just how i’m feeling today. my only friend i texted on monday and he said he was busy andd he would text me, but i havent heard from him. my dad thinks i am an idiot and can never take any opinion of mine seriously. the person i replaced wh3n i got my job is coming back and i am told i will stay but we are slow and i feel like an extra just doing nothing, plus it is a girl and she is really annoying and she argues with the boss all the time, and i just dont want to be there, […]

12/18/2014 3 comments

When it comes to tell the truth

by dead_arsenic 12/14/2014

written by dead_arsenic

Capture that. I’m in english class at the back. Everybody is writing exept me. I’m staring at this blank page since 1 hour. I look at it and read the question that the text is supposed to answer: “what is happiness?” Do anyone really know? I mean i don’t know if i’m happy or anything so what is the real meaning of that word that everybody seem to know but me?

The teacher finally says that the class is over but, when i give back my paper, she stands up and says as loud as she can to all the class “look how idiot you have […]

12/14/2014 2 comments

How Do I Fix This?

by marypie2000 11/16/2014

written by marypie2000

Hi, My name is Mary Jean. I have this small problem, well I guess you could say it isn’t small. I have been trapped in a world of self harm and self hate for nearly 4 years. The biggest reason is the huge rumors going around that I can’t ever seem to stop. They all keep asking me if I’m pregnant, which can’t possibly be true.. because I’m a lesbian. Shocker.. right? This girl named Caytlin has been helping me through my problems since the beginning of this school year. I’m head over heels for her and I know that she is, or at least was head […]

11/16/2014 1 comment

My friend has another clue as to who I actually am.

by lifeishorrible 11/12/2014

written by lifeishorrible

I gave my friend my tablet so he could text his girl & Instead of going to the messages he went to messeger.I looked as soon as he gave It to me & saw that It was on a conversation with an ex.When you click on It the first thing you see Is messages of her trying to stop me the day I attempted.Re-reading what I said that day Is shocking.It happened this year so If he looked at the date he must think I’m a nut.I’m so deleteding ALL my messages.I’m just In shock.

11/12/2014 0 comment

A light in the dark

by The Mad Hatter 10/3/2014

written by The Mad Hatter

In my time of deepest despair and anger, when everything was falling apart, I got an unexpected phone call from a friend I met on here. I mean unexpected, I just gave my number in the offchance they might text me if everything went bad. But they read my post on here and gave me a call, and it made such a difference. I dont feel so alone anymore. I have people around me, and my doctor and councillor but if I told them truthfully what I was really thinking and feeling and planning it would be hospital time, and that means cant truly share myself. Until […]

10/3/2014 10 comments

another added to the list

by alonewiththismess 9/30/2014

written by alonewiththismess

I’m new and don’t really know how to do this so I’ll just keep it simple.
I have been battling the devil known as ‘chronic major depression’ since high school (I am now 22), social anxiety, and eating disorders. Last year I was at my lowest. Almost put a gun to my head twice before I scared myself and decided to try some help. I saw a counselor for maybe two weeks before I gave up going cause she didn’t seem professional, I was being a huge burden to my parents with the money and the worry, and she made me stay away when she […]

9/30/2014 9 comments

Wow.

by tctc 9/26/2014

written by tctc

You texted me first today. You initiated the conversation. You apologised to me. Honestly speaking I have no idea what you’re apologising for. And I don’t know how I should reply your text. I guess I’m too used to not talking to you.

9/26/2014 4 comments

Well… a shit day….

by Still Lost 9/17/2014

written by Still Lost

So… I woke up and intended to kill myself today. I decided to give it one last shot with my MD who abandoned me. I sent her a text asking if there was a bed available at her hospital. That I was serious and was very genuinely asking for her help. Nothing provocative. Well, I had text her a bunch over the past few weeks asking when we can meet soon. Nothing provocative. But she wasn’t responding which was unusual so it created more distressed for me. Note: For those of you who haven’t read my posts, I have been through tons of treatment (ECT, […]

9/17/2014 9 comments

life after

by jkbilli602 9/8/2014

written by jkbilli602

Long story short. .I have been engaged for the past 3 years, we had been dating for 5 years, and we have been friends since mid 2000. I suffer from depression and have attempted suicide several times in the past. When my other half and I started dating something changed in me. I could feel it and my family could see it. He was a blessing in disguise. After April of this year I could feel something wasn’t the same my gut said he […]

9/8/2014 18 comments

I feel useless

by lovemyshihtzu 9/7/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

I need to get Ryan out of there. we have little contact, because his phone broke. he is the one I love most in this world. I wake up crying every single day and I feel like he feels trapped. I pray for him multiple times a day even after saying God doesn’t exist. I try to contact Ryan from his dad’s phone, only to have his dad tell me to never call or text his phone again. my parents don’t care about my problems, I pushed all my friends away, I have nobody that really wants to be around me anymore because I’m so […]

9/7/2014 10 comments

texting buddies?

by lovemyshihtzu 9/2/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

I don’t like to talk on the phone, just text, and I love sending pics! I have so many of all kinds, funny, depressing, everything.
email me tawneesmommy@gmail.com
I am often lonely if I’m not at work

9/2/2014 6 comments

it’s been said…now i wait

by overit20 9/2/2014

written by overit20

I have a huge heart and helped out the man I was/am in love with by helping him buy a car. Since we purchased it in February, excuse me, since I, he has given me very little for it. Something else came up so he talked me into getting a title loan on it for him. The car is all in my name and he wants me to tag it…which means everything will continue to be in my name. I want out from under it. It was suppose to be a few month deal and he’s doing nothing to change it. We currently are friends […]

9/2/2014 8 comments

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