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Patient Zero

by depressednihilist95 8/27/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I really don’t know if I qualify for being depressed. I chose to have “depressed” as a part of my user name because it was a label that people were throwing onto me. I thought that depression was irrational. Wanting to die for no reason seems like depression, but wanting to die because of say, spiritual reasons or philosophical reasons does not seem much like a “chemical imbalance” to me. I should probably be careful with what I state here, but I believe that some people actually have rational reasons for suicide.

I don’t know if my reasoning would be so rational, though. All I want […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

Suffocating

by Black rose 8/27/2014

written by Black rose

Stressing and worrying

Clammy hands and darting eyes

The world all around
She began to despise

The simplest tasks were scary
The people surrounding
Still hurt her profoundly
As the words from there lips
Not a single one missed

*****, slut and whore
Scars she had to bear
On show for the world
Gone but always their

Not a single person helped her
They all saw her drowning
Still going about there day
Noticing and still frowning

She knew nobody cared
But the image still hurt
As family and friends
Stood around and all glared

Drowning more each day
In the tears she had cried
The girl that once was pure
Nearly […]

8/27/2014 3 comments

60 Feet

by kramdragon 8/26/2014

written by kramdragon

I am a hopeless romantic. I see so much beauty in the world, in so many things. I can’t enjoy most of it, but I can see it’s there. One example that may seem a bit odd is jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. As a jumper in the USA that is the dream. It’s just so perfect. So many people before have done it, and so many more have failed at it. The idea of all of those success’s waiting for you at the bottom. A mere 220 feet to join them. The thought of it is so peaceful. The problem is location. It’s […]

8/26/2014 1 comment

War on two Fronts

by thespirit 8/26/2014

written by thespirit

Life at home is Sad. My mom is losing it and all I can do is watch. She’s always had health problems but I didn’t notice the mental ones till I got older. Very forgetful, indecisive, and prone to fits of mental break downs. She has a good heart. But she doesn’t have the strength or funds to raise my baby bro. I’m afraid of his future.

I made the choice to join the Corps to better my life, maybe “die for my country” while I’m at it. I made it through training and felt on top of the world. I thought the way my mom […]

8/26/2014 4 comments

by passionfruit3 8/25/2014

written by passionfruit3

so i burned myself the other day feel like doing it again cause im not satisfied with the amount of damage.school is also tommorow dont know why im trying again at something im bound to fail at.I want to do good but you cant live in the world if you dont want to live in the world.
I do have good reasons for wanting to leave.My whole family is alive and i dont want to watch them die in the next ten years.I want things to like pause forever and the only way i can do that is by dying.this world is crazy nobody is […]

8/25/2014 1 comment

nothing left to accomplish

by tphg 8/25/2014

written by tphg

I’m a 28 year old Canadian male and drawing a blank on what to do with the rest of my life. I have a high school diploma, full-time job with 8 years of experience(sorting mail and making photocopies), perfect sized apartment in an upscale neighborhood and got a bargain on rent price, no women/children/pets/infirmed family to worry about except for my 14 year old brother who I tutor 3 times a week. My friends all live within 20 minutes and I see them 3-4 times a month.

I can’t think of anything else that I want, so why bother going on? I could get a girlfriend, […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

I Despise Myself

by TwistedSpace 8/25/2014

written by TwistedSpace

I feel like I’m literally the worst person in the world. I look at myself each day in the mirror and resist the urge to punch my reflection into a bunch of tiny pieces. Nobody really cares about me. I guess I don’t really care about them, either. But that’s not true, because if I didn’t give a damn about anyone, I’d be dead right now. I’d be able to do this, and never have to worry about anything ever again.

I’m mean to others. I told my ex-Boyfriend that I hoped his mother, who is suffering from cancer, would die an agonizing death from it. […]

8/25/2014 12 comments

She just wants to go home…

by Suicides-Angel 8/25/2014

written by Suicides-Angel

So I’m 19…and supposedly a girl who has the world going for me. I’m “pretty” and smart and everyone loves me.

So they tell me. When I was 11, my mom abandoned me to a city who devoured me like the storm devours ships. I was gangraped nightly, used, abused, beaten…..starved, and tied to a bed for days at a time.

I’ve suffered losing everyone close to me, either being left or God takes them from me.

I found a guy that loved me for everything I was….and man I feel hard. And I was doing okay….until May 2nd, 2014 when I lost my daughter, Dylan Michelle…at 6:30 […]

8/25/2014 10 comments

Alone in Despair

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

Surrounded by people yet all alone.
The summer sun bright in the sky.
Yet she felt nought but the cold of a dreaded winter

Finally she had opened up.
She allowed the world to know the pain she’d hidden inside all her life.
Yet the euphoria lasted but a couple of weeks
Like a waterfall she fell dramatically back into dysphoria

Her heart ached as she laid in her bed, the drugs numbing her body but not her mind.

She embraced her fears but she’d come this far and had just fallen.

Why were they helping someone that was corrupted, possessed by the darkness that haunted […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

No Hope

by th3 3nd 8/24/2014

written by th3 3nd

My birthday is tomorrow and I find myself researching ways to kill myself. I have felt suicidal since I was 7, yet I always convinced myself that tomorrow would be better. I have lived this lie for 19 years. I’m sick of it.

I tried to jump out of a moving car on Wednesday night. My fiance stopped me. When I thought about how horrible it would have been for him to see me like that, it made me feel so wretched.

I am an abuser. I abuse him like my parents abused me. I don’t hit him, but I hurt him with my existence. I am […]

8/24/2014 5 comments

The reason I’m ready to leave this world behind

by Infectious208 8/23/2014

written by Infectious208

My newest and probably last song. I havent been on for a bit. I have really been trying to feel better. But I cant. She is the most beautiful woman in the world and the 2 of them were my everything. I dont want to do this without them. I cant keep going on faking that im ok. Im not. Soon, I will be gone and I wont be a burden or bother to anyone anymore.

I hope one day she sees this and will know how much they ment to me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-vGzh3tj1Y

8/23/2014 2 comments

I can’t wait to die!

by cookietherookie 8/23/2014

written by cookietherookie

I can’t wait until the day i return to nonexistence. I hate the world, I hate what humans have done to the world. They destroyed it like they do everything else. I look at just about everyone with disdain. I have nothing to live for, no kids, pets, hopes or dreams. I care about my family, but not enough to tolerate this world for them.

The only thing really stopping me is my fear or failing and ending up as a vegetable or paralyzed from the neck down. I’m trying to convince my mother to buy a shotgun so I can eradicate the possibility or either […]

8/23/2014 1 comment

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by nosound 8/22/2014

written by nosound

What it’s like to live under a bridge.

Living under a bridge can be rough. It’s dirty, muggy, and this often results in the troll being grumpy. The troll has good reason to be grumpy though. Not only are its living conditions disgusting, but also it gets to hear the footsteps of those above him all day long. All day…clunk thump; people walk by without noticing the grumpy old troll under the bridge. The troll didn’t used to be so grumpy. He was born into a nice family, but he was a fidgety troll. Therefore, his family began to dislike him and identify him as being […]

8/22/2014 2 comments

Internal Conflict

by teardownthewall 8/21/2014

written by teardownthewall

I would consider myself to be an intelligent person. I’ve always sought to understand how and why things are and gravitated towards reading challenging books at a young age. In Middle School I was reading books like The Count of Monte Cristo and Watership Down. By Highschool I was obsessed with authors like Alan Moore, Ray Bradbury, George Owell and Auldous Huxley. Now I’ve been clinging to Ayn Rand like she’s my own mother. It’s because of these people and the books they wrote that I’ve been instilled with a deep sense of morality and individualism. They kept me going long after I couldn’t and […]

8/21/2014 2 comments

is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

by niki 8/21/2014

written by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & […]

8/21/2014 5 comments

Moving Stillness

by darkartist93 8/21/2014

written by darkartist93

You stood there, stood there and start to slowly back away,

You said that those close to you didn’t think that speaking to me was healthy, that it had thrown your thoughts into disarray.

It’s not worth the trouble or the heartache they told you,

And somehow you decided that it was true.

“There is no reason to stay as she’ll never see things clearly.”

With this you pacified yourself, never seeing that it might cost you dearly.

I stood there, stood there forgotten and alone.

You had said that my stubbornness was something that you could no longer condone,

But stubbornness had never been the problem.

In order to reach you, I had […]

8/21/2014 0 comment

Anyone else committing suicide to be escape the world

by cookietherookie 8/20/2014

written by cookietherookie

I’m afraid of life and all the terrible things that can happen to me. My two worst fears right now are (1)being raped and getting pregnant and (2)being paralyzed from the neck down. I don’t really get that much satisfaction from living anyway. I love the guarantee of peace that death brings. Honestly, i jaunt want to escape the world. I don’t see the point in going through the motions of life when I can just end my miserable existence as soon as possible.

I plan on ending my own life as soon as I get my hands on some sleeping pills and have the house […]

8/20/2014 5 comments

Smells Like 1980’s

by Wednesday 8/20/2014

written by Wednesday

For me, the 80’s had a scent. Kinda like the plastic flower section of an old Walmart, the Walmart’s that closed at night time (usually 10pm).
I’ve been watching the television program “The Golden Girls” a lot lately and I swear I can smell that plastic flower smell while I’m watching!!!
…..the yarn at the old Walmart’s had a smell to!!!!
Ohhh And “ALF”, man I loved ALF!!!
It’s a shame television can’t be good again!!!!

Erm, just one more thing. I have yet to figure out how Dark Horse Brewing (The new program on the History Channel that has nothing to do with […]

8/20/2014 2 comments

I can’t wait for the apocalypse

by Engie 8/19/2014

written by Engie

I can’t wait for the apocalypse. Maybe it will be Ebola, or Russia vs. The West or North Korea will finally build its first working ICBM. Maybe all of these will happen at the same time.

Then all I need is enough sertraline to make sure I still feel nothing while I sit back and watch the world burn.

8/19/2014 18 comments

Just about had it with myself..

by Amswilli 8/19/2014

written by Amswilli

I’ve been miserable for as long as I can remember. I’m a fully-grown adult now and it’s followed me everywhere. My situation in life is a complete failure, socially and financially. Unemployed, birthday coming up and no prospects for anything. I am about to be evicted and have no plan whatsoever for the future. Everyone who knows me I am a burden on, and honestly I think the world would be better off without someone like me here. I’m worthless, so it wont matter if I’m not here anymore. I’ll be missed by a few, but they will be relieved when the nuisance that is […]

8/19/2014 0 comment

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