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Dreams and Nightmares

by Engie 4/14/2014

written by Engie

Hi everyone!

Nothing personal today, but I’ve been having strange dreams for years, even before I was on sedatives or antidepressants, and sometimes these things make them more vivid, but they’re always strange. I can’t remember them most of the time, but I remember flashes of things, like dizzying heights, zombies, the end of the world (actually pretty common for me), people getting mutilated, trying to solve a mystery or stop a crime.

Anyway, I wondered if anyone had any dreams or nightmares they would like to share. I’m wishing I could remember what I dreamed last night, but apart from a few snapshots, it’s gone.

4/14/2014 6 comments

she’ll be dead by then

by LetItGo 4/13/2014

written by LetItGo

my parents dont understand what ive been through
my sister has made my throat ache because of me yelling at her to leave me alone
she does not listen despite me screaming at her to leave me be
she does not see the pain she has inflicted upon the young girl
she is so oblivious to the girl that crumbles each day until one day
she will be nothing and she will die
people around this young girl are oblivious too
they do not see the bruises that hide under her long sleeves
the red slap marks that she has hidden under concealer
the red […]

4/13/2014 1 comment

“Friends”

by Sammie Motionless 4/13/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

fucking crappy ass friends i have. so this is how it is i decided to bring to of my friends to this band cncert thing cause i wanted to spend time with them. My other friend who is my ex, so is the one i was taking, want to go along so i said ok so i was going to buy another one. when i told them they were like if hes going then im not. i got so pissed that i said something i regreted i said fine i dont need you guys for anything anyways. this part i regret but this part i […]

4/13/2014 4 comments

the raven colored hair

by LetItGo 4/12/2014

written by LetItGo

the raven colored hair
falls upon her smooth face
the once warm and inviting eyes
are now shedding tears
dripping dropping ever so quickly
pittering pattering in her lap
as she curls up in a ball
wanting so badly to die and go
she opens up her mouth
and sighs ever so silently
she goes to speak to tell the world
but the room is dark and silent
will anyone hear her silent pleas
alas they will not because
she will mask them and hide them
hides her tears from the world
puts on a fake smile to mask her frown
looks down when passing […]

4/12/2014 8 comments

I survived it. You can too.

by JKR 4/12/2014

written by JKR

I once felt so worthless that I tried to kill myself. I stopped thinking about everyone I loved â€“ my mum, my sisters, my dad, my grandparents and my friends. And I tried to kill myself. I set out two packets of antidepressants, a packet of sleeping tablets and a packet of prescription painkillers and I got myself a glass of water and filled up two bottles. I spent about two and a half hours taking pills, swallowing a tablet every minute or so. After about 30 tablets I started to slow down, and feel drowsy. I also kept getting up to go to the […]

4/12/2014 2 comments

I want to end it, but I always balk at the last moment…

by lazarus 4/12/2014

written by lazarus

I’ve been suicidal since the age of 14. I’m now 36. I’ve spent 22 years fighting the pain daily, trying to tell myself to just get through the next day, looking towards the future, grasping at any tiny thread of hope. But the depression is always there. I haven’t fulfilled my potential in life – I was a straight A student, socially adept with many friends, good-looking, and liked by most people. I could have done anything I’d wanted to with my life.

I feel that what I want is always just within reach, but then the monster of depression will latch on to my mind, […]

4/12/2014 7 comments

Guys, today I need help

by KIRA 4/11/2014

written by KIRA

As I’ve told you in my previous posts, I’m a nihilist.Meaning I don’t think there’s good or evil, morality, value, ethics and right and wrong, I think that all of this is subjective, and therefore cannot change any objective aspect, I don’t believe that anything like that is real, necessary or effective.Also, I think that the universe is indifferent towards our existence, our lives are but an ephemeral meaningless exercise of futility.Then I try to act indifferently.I TRY, but I can’t get rid of most of my emotions.Today was a living hell, this day couldn’t get worse.Everything simply went wrong, I […]

4/11/2014 2 comments

Pretty people…

by whitneyirene 4/11/2014

written by whitneyirene

I feel like pretty people don’t get suicidal or depressed. Or at least they don’t as easily. I hate the world. I hate chance. I hate being ugly, and being alive. My friends are starting to care less, and therapy doesn’t help at all.

4/11/2014 11 comments

Hanging Is Shit

by Greenz 4/11/2014

written by Greenz

Turns out, after like four attempts…

It still hasn’t worked. I can never pass out. I have no idea what the hell.

Fuck the world.

4/11/2014 11 comments

tms

by kristink 4/9/2014

written by kristink

seems like the only thing left for me is tms. anybody out there have this treatment?Â doing a little research i found the likely cost is between 6k-12k. depending on how many sessions is necessary. my insurance company has to decide whether it will pay. lots of hoops to jump through. my bet is that they won’t pay. the shrink gave me a referral. he seemed rather crabby yesterday. chastise me for not doing my “homework”. i left the office in tears for some reason. my first thought was to go make a “purchase”.Â the thought is still there. hell it is a lot cheaper […]

4/9/2014 0 comment

f*ck

by Stereotype 4/8/2014

written by Stereotype

I want to cut, I want to cut, cut, cut, cut, blood, drip, drop, razor, sharp, blade – My therapist needs to be on call right now, and he needs to stop being a prick. Â Anyways, you probably think I am another whiney teenager… Â Nope I am a bitchy 30 year old nasty **** whore. Â I keep thinking the best way to rid the world of my filth is to jump off that bridge. Â BUT I have done that once and survived injured but alive and pissed off. Â I could just use some words of wisdom or hilarious stupidity right now. Â THANK YOU

4/8/2014 14 comments

Planned

by meggy1982 4/8/2014

written by meggy1982

So I have finnaly manage the perfect plan. Quit my job, leaving my house, my animals have been placed with family members with the pretence of going travelling around the world. But its actually the perfect plan to finally have the opportunity to be in the position to end it without having to feel guilty about leaving my family to deal with all of my crap. House, bills, animals… So now will travel and see the most amazing things i. The world then i can go without felling guilty.

4/8/2014 3 comments

On Not Accomplishing My Goals

by zedwants2die 4/7/2014

written by zedwants2die

I met this guy over the summer. He goes to an ivy league school and was doing a summer internship at a very well known investment banking company. Perfect 10. If finance doesn’t work out for him, which it will, he could become a model, date a celebrity and never work a day in his life again. Turns out he was gay so we slept together and that was that, and I knew that was that. A few months later he added me on Facebook which I thought was significant because I’d never even told him my name. As usual everything in my head ran […]

4/7/2014 2 comments

failure

by AnotherAnon 4/7/2014

written by AnotherAnon

Why is it that when a woman cries for help, she is immediately assisted, but shouldÂ a male seek a shoulder to lean on he is weak? We are just a frail as are feminine counterparts, the only difference is it is socially unacceptable to be weak and frail, as a result, we hide our pain to avoid further ridicule.

I’ve failed time and time again.

The woman that I love with all of my heart is married, and lives in another state. I’m the other man, and even as such, i’m unsure of my importance to her. Be it because of self-esteem, or because of previous relationships […]

4/7/2014 7 comments

by winterrain98 4/6/2014

written by winterrain98

So hard to pick yourself back up out of the darkness when your depressed. Â It is about the hardest thing to do. Â When you have moved even farther passed that to the point you realize that life will never change things will always Â be the way they are and have been it feels even harder, when you have no Â hope Â because u realize things will always be the same.

Its very unfair that people can do things that may permantly mess up your mind and never get punished for it. Â They do real harm to your mind an walk away never understanding the damage […]

4/6/2014 0 comment

I Dreamed A Dream

by Frozen In Time 4/5/2014

written by Frozen In Time

I want a peaceful passing. No drama. No pain. All my life I’ve only been pretending. People tell me to follow my desires. To do what I want. I want my sufferings to end. I just cannot cope anymore.

Personally was never a cutter. Carbon monoxide is what I’ll use.

I’m doing the world a favour by dying.

4/5/2014 1 comment

As I…

by CrimsonDream 4/4/2014

written by CrimsonDream

As I contemplate this thing called life I can’t help but get Sad, Furious, and frustrated. Why would anyone put me on this planet let alone birth me. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE does anyone understand. Cause if you do thats great. I’m pissed off and unstable with emotion right now so I put into my writing. I don’t want anyone knowing my secret. Although plenty do so why not just say it, the world knows anyways. Everyone knows everything because that’s how it is.

This world is not hell. hell is something we walk around with all our lives. It’s basically in my back […]

4/4/2014 13 comments

Why does the world LOVE evil but HATE good?

by WannaEnditAll 4/4/2014

written by WannaEnditAll

I used to be a STRONG believer in religion and spiritual kinds of things!

However, having grown up and seen,heard and experienced stuff, i eventually found that my faith and belief in JUSTICE and a “god” were slowly tarnished!

I realized that the world always APPLAUDSÂ evil,nasty,malicious,promiscuous,vicious,violent and monstrous people and behaviors!

However, the world surely HATES sweet,innocent,nice,well-mannered,dignified,good-hearted people and behaviors!

I used to think that this “god” i used to believe in was the one IN CONTROL of the world.However, i came to understand that THE DEVIL may actually be the one “calling all the shots”!!

This is why i STOPPED believing in justice,peace,love and fairness! Bad things happen to […]

4/4/2014 20 comments

by msquared 4/4/2014

written by msquared

im so hurt im in so much pain, i can’t even think. i have to go do work all day and night. how can he hurt me so many times, so badly, and on purpose?!! how can he hurt me this much?! i really do hate my life. i loved him more than anything in the world. I’m miserable and heartbroken. you’re insane. i need to graduate. i have so much to do but all i want to do is be with him. i tried as hard as i possibly could with him. i feel so broken. how can he hurt me so bad.

4/4/2014 1 comment

by winterrain98 4/4/2014

written by winterrain98

Well guess I was right all these months I suspected I had more damage from this hell of a relationship. I kind of suspected I had been damaged to point even if I did manage to get out of this relationship I would nvr be able to be with any other guy again.Â Guy approached me from behind in the store saying baby an I flipped out,i went in to a rage before I even realized it was happening Â an I guess by look on my face I scared him.Â Turns out it was my ex and he didn’t know how to act around me […]

4/4/2014 0 comment

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