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by ayamigi 3/6/2014

written by ayamigi

so first, i want to apologize if i say anything that I’m not supposed to. i do that a lot >.>

well a month ago i tried to kill myself, and afterwards i thought that everything would be fine, and i felt happy. now i feel like theres no future for me and that I’m gonna feel depressed for the rest of my life, and really empty. i know that ill probably feel better by tomorrow but then ill just feel bad again. T_T again sorry if i say something wrong, I’m not good about talking to people about my feelings or actually feelings in general.

now […]

3/6/2014 4 comments

Why not?

by smushpot 3/6/2014

written by smushpot

Hello I am very new to this site but I really just needed somewhere to vent. I have been thinking about suicide since I was about 10 and I would always make myself not contemplate it to grate lengths by asking myself how I would feel if a family member or loved one killed themselves, but recently I honest to god don’t think I would care. I hate my friends and I often think about killing them myself… and for my family, I really just don’t care about them anymore. I’m so emotionally exhausted I will have days where I just can’t even get out […]

3/6/2014 2 comments

I just cut myself for the first time.

by pbsman 3/6/2014

written by pbsman

It was exhilarating. It hurt alot, but it also somehow felt really good. My heart started racing, my anxiety suddenly kicked in, what a strange yet incredible feeling! How was I so blind? I always thought people who cut themselves were insane, but this is awesome! I can’t stop now! G’day to you, my friends. Imma keep at it! So wish me luck!

3/6/2014 6 comments

I’m tired. :(

by rainbowtenshi 3/6/2014

written by rainbowtenshi

Hey…Can somebody help me? 🙁

I’m sorry if I’m bothering any of you…I’m new here

Ok so, where should I start? :/ I’m 15 years old… I have everything, a loving family, friends…I shouldn’t be complaining at all. I’m sorry, some people don’t have any of that. 🙁 The thing is…I don’t have anyone to talk to about my problems, it’s like no one is listening. Â I love smiling…and laughing, but sometimes it gets too hard and I want to leave, disappear. I’m a failure, I fail at everything I do. I feel so sad when I look at my mum, because I’ll never be the daughter […]

3/6/2014 22 comments

Why?

by -E- 3/5/2014

written by -E-

I never thought I would actually get to this point. School’s shit. Can’t even hug my girlfriend without getting into trouble. Barely any friends to talk to. My dad’s pissed cause we started arguing about me bringing my girlfriend home. Apparently, I didn’t get a yes to bring her home. I just wanna die. I’m basically a slave in my own home, can’t do anything anywhere else. I feel pointless. After the next band concert, I’m ending it.

3/5/2014 3 comments

All Surrounded

by quaero 3/5/2014

written by quaero

what was i, what have i become. i am only getting more and more corrupted. i wanted to, didn’t i? when i couldn’t find a way out of it, i decided to get more into it. taste of lie, taste of corruption!
â€œAbove all, don’t lie to yourself. The man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to a point that he cannot distinguish the truth within him, or around him, and so loses all respect for himself and for others. And having no respect he ceases to love.â€ – Dostoevsky
i wanted to test it. and i was so confident […]

3/5/2014 7 comments

Still alive for anyone wondering

by silent survivor 3/5/2014

written by silent survivor

Well hello there beautiful people of the universe how is everyone doing? It’s been awhile since i’ve been here. My depression started when i was 12ish in 7th grade and i thought i was getting better because i decided that i didn’t want to feel like shit anymore and became positive and i didn’t want to die by eighth grade i was happy or so i thought. Anyways i was good and mentally stable for a whole year before i turned 15 and it all went to shit again. For people who don’t know i got hit by a city bus and you know survived […]

3/5/2014 1 comment

Goodbyes

by LetItGo 3/4/2014

written by LetItGo

At any moment I could go
At any moment I could leave
At any moment I could die
At any moment I could stop
At any moment I could submit

I could let go
I could not care
I could break more
I could stop loving
I could hate you

But I cannot let go
But I cannot not care
But I cannot break more
But I cannot stop loving
But I cannot hate you

Why? I can’t let go of you.
Why? I can’t not care about you.
Why? I can’t break anymore because I’m already broken so much.
Why? I can’t stop loving you no matter […]

3/4/2014 0 comment

how are you managing your suicide thought?

by ìžì‚´SoonerIsAlwaysBetterThanLater 3/4/2014

written by ìžì‚´SoonerIsAlwaysBetterThanLater

Think about it. Are the problems that you want to end by suicide that awful and permanent that nothing could alleviate them? Although you may not think so now, you will recover from your problem or problems and live out the rest of your life happily. There are no problems in this world that can be solved by suicide.

When you are thinking rationally, try to think of solutions to your troubles that are constructive, and that will help ease the hurt you’re going through. The person attempting suicide doesn’t truly want to die — instead they just want the pain to stop.

If there’s someone who […]

3/4/2014 8 comments

i think it might be time

by sdk1331 3/3/2014

written by sdk1331

ok i typed a book here a bit ago, but apparently it was in the wrong place. Â figures.. Â ok breifly now then here is my story so yall can tell me i have so much to live for.

have never completed any thing. Â highschool i got my ged, army i took medical discharge, college went for 1 semester got screwed by student loans and now 7 years later i still owe 3x the original ammountand my tax returns for the last 5 years have been taken to go towards paying them. Â the longest ive ever had the same job is 1year. Â ive been homeless3-9 months out […]

3/3/2014 2 comments

clean

by making_it_through 3/2/2014

written by making_it_through

As of today I am 70 days clean of self harm. Its been really hard for me. But these past few days its been the hardest, especially today. I thought I was done with that part of my life . But then again that’s what I said last time.

3/2/2014 2 comments

I don’t know what to do

by Nicole246 3/2/2014

written by Nicole246

I’ve bin confused lately all i can think about is whether i should kill myself or not i’ve bin so depressed idk why though i feel like im nothing all i feel is pain i can’t stop watching suicidal videos cannot stop thinking about it before i even go to bed i’ve tried i have sharp nails so i scratch myself with them it’s the easiest way to help me instead of cutting myself with a knife. Please i know it sounds stupid coming from me … but if your thinking of suicide please i beg you don’t you have meaning and life in this […]

3/2/2014 1 comment

Bleh

by yukibear 3/2/2014

written by yukibear

I’m supposed to be sleeping but bleh. I hate these nights when all that goes through my head is how bad I am, that I am simply a waste of a human being. The people I would call my bestfriends based on others’ definition are people who I can’t vent out on. I can’t tell my family because they won’t even care. How I act is completely different from how I feel, appearing to be bubbly and weird in a funny way. I don’t know how they will see me in this state and how I will be treated. I like to think that I’m […]

3/2/2014 6 comments

I still wear your sweats…

by emptyalways 3/2/2014

written by emptyalways

“Yeah, the whole thing begins, and I let you sink into my veins, and I feel the pain like it’s new.”

I ‘ve tried and tried to forget. the pain. the tears. the laughing. the smiling. the places. the memories. you. And no matter what I do or say, I can’t. I miss it all, every second and day of it. I miss how close we were. Now it’s just gone, without any explanation. Not even a good-bye. I put away all the things you gave me so I wouldn’t be as reminded of you. It helped for awhile. But then I took out the letter…. […]

3/2/2014 0 comment

I’m awake.

by Deniaz 3/1/2014

written by Deniaz

I have always been alone, lack of social life, have only 3 actual friends that I don’t want them to worry too much. My family would mock me for my thoughts and caused me to regret many choices. I have always been questioning what I actually wanted to do, but I don’t know. I suffer from fear, day to day endlessly. I fear about my future, what’s my point in living? I lack confidence indeed, but I truly don’t have any special skills. It was all fine to me, I can shed a few tears at night and get over all of my sadness and […]

3/1/2014 2 comments

Exit Songs

by Darkn3ss 2/28/2014

written by Darkn3ss

Exit songs, or I suppose they could double as just, depression songs.

Do you have any?

I thought this would be a good chance to gain insight on each other.

Mine would be :

Throw Away- Blue Stahli

Suffocating right- neuroticfish

Count to six and die- Marilyn Manson

Cocoon- Assemblage 23

Sorry if this seems insensitive at all, sometimes it’s just easier for me to communicate through music.

2/28/2014 14 comments

A lot has happened this month…

by ahannah123 2/28/2014

written by ahannah123

I tried killing myself on valentines day I took Zoloft (antidepressants) but I only felt like I was going to pass out and my dad found out a few days later when he saw there were no more pills left.He was mad at me and said that what I did was stupid and was kinda yelling at me and said if I went back to the (Lakeside) mental facility that he would just let me stay there.Yesterday I went to the store and got some sleeping pills.Everyone is acting like everything is all my fault like my dad is mad at me for wanting to […]

2/28/2014 8 comments

i think i am going crazy

by bunnygirl 2/27/2014

written by bunnygirl

hello everyone

so i am only 14 years old, in the 9th grade

my anxiety, depression and depersonalization disorder is getting out of hand; mother took me out of public school so i can get home schooled.

the problem is, is that we haven’t gotten anything down. we can’t find any of the right websites to help, and we’re both a little lost. my mother and father found it like we HAD to get me out of public school because how it reacts on my anxiety, depression and D.D. which i do not regret, public school was hell but my mental health has not changed one bit.

i feel […]

2/27/2014 12 comments

Reason to exist

by D.N.A 2/27/2014

written by D.N.A

I graduated from college and have a Bachelors of Science. I thought more doors would be opened for me but nowÂ ten month since graduation… this does not seem so.

I held a position in manufacturing 6 months after graduate just to make some money but did not take long for me to feel dissatisfied, unaccomplished, and severely depressed. I woke each morning feeling unmotivated, miserably, and wondering why I cannot launch my career. I had no problem quitting the job. The job put me to sleep (literally), the pay sucked, the hours was pitiful, no one appreciate the volunteered overtimeÂ and… most importantly, I want to dedicate […]

2/27/2014 4 comments

by LetItGo 2/27/2014

written by LetItGo

I don’t understand
I say when you walked away
I thought you cared
I say when you turned your back on me
Why?
I ask when you don’t turn around
What did I do so bad to make you leave?
I yell when you have walked away
I love you
I whisper
But you never and won’t ever love me
I sit down and cry
You were there for me when no one else was
I am completely shocked
Wish you were here
I sigh and pick myself up
But you never were
I cut one more time
You were never really there

2/27/2014 1 comment

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