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yoooooo

by lilypaddd 12/22/2015

written by lilypaddd

whenever i try to connect with someone i fail. i don’t know why i even try. then i get pissed off, either at the other person, or myself.

people bore me or intimidate me.

either way, i end up questioning myself because i don’t know why i find it so hard to relate to people.

i’m sick of people telling me i should change though.

a psychologist i saw lately told me i need to work on my communication skills, but it’s frustrating because i am who i am. i can try to change for the better, sure, but what if it’s genetic and i’m just legitimately stupid? i can’t do […]

12/22/2015 2 comments

Anniversary

by Ylem 12/21/2015

written by Ylem

Today is my parents’ 19th wedding anniversary. They have been together for 35 years. High school sweethearts. Yes… They’ve had their fair share of ups and downs, especially this year. At a certain point, I wanted their marriage to end because I felt it had become toxic. They pulled through. They found a way to make it work.

As for me, I don’t see myself married. I doubt I’ll ever find someone who will understand me. Sometimes it’s hard to even understand myself. Marriage… Children… That will be just another reason to keep me on this earth longer than I want to.
I’m scared of getting […]

12/21/2015 4 comments

I’m not sure I can do this

by outinthedark 12/19/2015

written by outinthedark

So I moved back home today. And I’m laying here, crying, because I really don’t want to be here. All I do is hide here. I don’t talk here and I can’t be myself here. And tonight, I went to my old high schools band holiday party and the one person I can talk to was suppose to be there. And I was suppose to see them and they were suppose to tell me it is going to be ok. But he’s not in the state. And no one told me. And I’ve been looking forward to seeing him all week. And I can’t do […]

12/19/2015 1 comment

Never More Beautiful

by DaylightFades 12/18/2015

written by DaylightFades

You told me to let you in.
When I did, you smashed in to me
(head first into my heart).
You took one glance at all of my broken glass,
and told me I’ve never looked more beautiful.

You wanted to see my “true colours”.
I scrubbed until the pink was gone,
And I washed away the blue,
until I was nothing more than a subtle grey hue.
You took one look at my faded flesh,
and told me I’ve never looked more beautiful.

You said we’d grow a garden together,
So I let my own flowers wilt,
and I watched as you chopped down my trees […]

12/18/2015 4 comments

because love…

by alexia 12/18/2015

written by alexia

i want to inspire you, to challenge you to feel like you haven t felt before.i want to know you…as i told you so many time: i wanna know what makes you tick,babe. you are so adorable that i feel the need to be overprotective with you…it s hard to restrain myself, it s hard to restrain myself to not love you because i already told you, you are soooo easy to love.your simplicity and natural way of being overwhelmes me … it makes me think…would it be ok for her to be mine?could i love her the way she deserves to be loved? would […]

12/18/2015 5 comments

It’s gone wrong

by YouAreStrong 12/16/2015

written by YouAreStrong

I don’t know what I’m looking for from this, a place to get everything off my chest to hopefully clear my mind. This is going to be a long post.

I’m 17, male, currently attending a school that specialises in Mathematics, I’m studying Mathematics, Further Mathematics, Physics and Computer Science for my A levels. I have links to a cyber security firm who will give me a scholarship and put me through a computer science degree should I choose to go to university. I also have a huge interest in nuclear energy and want to see if I can get a job in that field. My […]

12/16/2015 9 comments

I just want to fucking get lost!

by Trudis 12/14/2015

written by Trudis

I thought I was okay now. And then I was told by my sister that I really do tend to be negative and say negative things, and then I’m back to wanting to commit suicide again. I just want to die. I just really wanna die.

There is never a month that I do not have suicidal thoughts. And I think God is selfish to not let us choose to die. If there is even a God to begin with.

12/14/2015 1 comment

Across The River

by trophyX 12/13/2015

written by trophyX

You hope I’m okay? Yeah, I hope you are too. I’m not sure of much these days I’ll say that is for sure. You know? I guess sitting here in front of the river it’s like you’re way over there, on the other side. I see you, you see me and we both see this chasm between us. I definitely feel it. It feels like a closed chapter if I had to articulate it. I woke up from a nightmare that lasted for months. I woke up to my normal nightmare, that is. But you have no idea how waking up to you across this […]

12/13/2015 3 comments

Help

by InhalingAnxiety 12/11/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

So I called my work this morning and told them I was feeling sick, which I was but not that bad, and I told them I wasn’t going to be in this morning but I’d see how I felt around noon and come in. I just needed a little break from them and work is extremely overwhelming for me. Plus I don’t really have any urgent/important work to do today, so I didn’t feel too guilty about missing the morning. But T, who’s basically our whole HR department, said “This sure does happen a lot. You should probably go see a doctor. You […]

12/11/2015 1 comment

What a sucky day

by YoungGods 12/10/2015

written by YoungGods

I can’t stand it when my mom comes home. She is usually home 2-3 days a week. She always has something bad to say to me. Today I mentioned to my parents about a stomach pain that’s been happening for almost a week now. And she told me I’m faking it. Its nothing. Just take some zantac etc. I’ve had stomach problems for the last two months on and off and still haven’t been to the doctors. My dad finally spoke up and said maybe I should go to the doctor. Anyways my mom…honestly sucks. She never has anything nice to say about me. It’s […]

12/10/2015 2 comments

Poetry …

by jadedkeizy 12/10/2015

written by jadedkeizy

I don’t know if there’s a reason I’m here
I feel the only thing that’s driving me is reason and fear
And seeing death to me conceivably near
So I don’t give a fuck what you think about me reaching for beer
I don’t worry anymore about what my friends do
I have a more urgent matter to attend to
Is there something there bigger when I die and vanish?
That weaves everyone and everything into a canvas
I’m not smart enough to think I have a resolution
I’ll never be a man with mediocre constitution
My father told me that blood and power intoxicate

12/10/2015 0 comment

Let’s talk hobbies.

by whiskered-fish 12/8/2015

written by whiskered-fish

I was thinking about hobbies and stuff recently. My therapist told me they’re pretty important in regards to recovery. So I was wondering, what are y’all’s hobbies? Any weird ones, or any newfound ones?

12/8/2015 52 comments

Insignificant

by insignificant02 12/7/2015

written by insignificant02

I always knew I never mattered. So what’s happening now shouldn’t be a surprise.

I had to get away from home. I couldn’t run away and it wasn’t the time to commit suicide just yet.

I hid in the cupboard. Its nearing my 6th hour in here and no one realised I was gone. They sat at the table for dinner without me and chatted and laughed, never noticing my absence. I guess it doesn’t matter.

My father (biological) told me today that he got married. Since last Friday. I didn’t even know he was engaged. I guess I didn’t matter enough for him to tell me.

Maybe he […]

12/7/2015 6 comments

by outinthedark 12/6/2015

written by outinthedark

so my family is suppose to be going to a christmas concert today. yesterday when i was driving home some asshole swerved into my lane which made me swerve and lost control of the car and i ended up spinning out the car. i landed in the bushes and the most i have is like whiplash. then my aunt called my dad today and told him that my cousin committed suicide. i was never close to this cousin. the last time i saw him was like 2 years or so ago. he was in the military and was in iraq so everyone is just saying […]

12/6/2015 2 comments

I know where depression lives …

by jadedkeizy 12/6/2015

written by jadedkeizy

I have an informant down in some unknown shanty town and she disclosed Depression’s exact location. Now I know where this dude called depression lives. My informant told me that he’s this creepy guy who works as a crypt caretaker at the local church.

Before trapping his victims late at night, he patronizes this one makeshift brothel in the town where my informant occasionally serves as a dominatrix. Now I am hatching a plan to kill this fucker and end him once and for all. He lives in some shack sequestered away in swampland somewhere at the fringes of this town. All I need is a […]

12/6/2015 5 comments

im crying for answer.

by the boy 12/5/2015

written by the boy

hi my name is magnus i have went with depression being socially out and much more today i have gotten help but i feel that a childhood were i dont remember much else than a few good birthdays here and there othervise just alone bullied and allways fighting the other kids in constant paranoia when i was 8 to 10 years old had anger mannegement issues and all but after a depression i today at the age of 17 only just started at the age of 15 to feel happy and free from depression my doctors and parrents say that i prolly did not really […]

12/5/2015 7 comments

Still awake

by HatedGirl 12/5/2015

written by HatedGirl

Its going to 8am n im awake cant sleep so much on my mind i really hate feeling so sad and always thinking and worrying im so pissed off with my own family member her actions really get to me like then i get told dont worry about wat she does dont stress it but it does hurt even when my mom is upset being an only child would of been great but that is not how it is

12/5/2015 1 comment

reaching out

by spvnalittlelie 12/3/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

who else has trouble reaching out to people about their issues?

sometimes i think i’m ready to reach out and get help. then i remember all the times i tried to do so and was burned – like when my sister called my cutting ‘stupid’, when i tried to approach the subject with a school counselor and was ignored, not counting all the times i was told to just be grateful for what i have, or to ‘just get over it’. or my favorite; ‘do something about it then’.

they tell us if we’re feeling bad to talk to someone about it… what if no one wants […]

12/3/2015 2 comments

M crys

by losthinata23 12/2/2015

written by losthinata23

I was 7, my cousin 8yrs male, old told me that we are going to play boyfirend and girlfriend and I went with it not knowing what he would do next to me. We played for a while but then he started to play with my boobs thinking it was normal but I had a small feeling it wasn’t. At my age 9 and him at 10, we played again after that I went home and I was over hearing my parents talking about how I should know about sex and stuff cuz I had gotten my period too at that age and from that […]

12/2/2015 9 comments

“Would you like to open a tab?”

by HopefulCynic 11/30/2015

written by HopefulCynic

I know it isn’t healthy but I self medicate with alcohol to deal with my depression. Everybody thinks it’s a good thing that I drink a lot “Oh there he goes again at the bar! What a cool guy” or “Wish I could drink all the time like he does”. Going to the bar is comforting. I really like to see all the different people hanging out enjoying themselves. I almost always go alone, so the staff there kinda started to talk to me and I’m pretty good friends with them now I guess. But they aren’t really friends per se, just loose acquaintances I […]

11/30/2015 9 comments

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