I don’t want to seem like that person who wants to seak attention when I rant or cry out for help on here. I always feel like that’s the case.. But can someone please try and convince me not to do something stupid.. At least by tomorrow..before I go to work…
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I’m so tired its unreal my eyes burn all day iv had this weird thought on my mind
most of us right now are in pretty dark places right ? Most of us would rather not be around right ? We want all our problems to be fixed to some degree which brang us to this dark place or to be fixed in some way or the other BUT what happens IF we some how get to a point were we want to actually live life EITHER way we are running out of time we could spend our whole life searching for happiness and not find […]
depression is like trying to find your way in the dark your lost pumping into things and falling over all the time but hopefully one day we find the light switch
thanks for the support today guys it’s appreciated * hugs * *fist bump *
tomorrow another day for the battle to be continued
The panic has started to set in again as my mum has repeatedly mentioned that I have to go back to college tomorrow.
Despite threatening to not even go into the building, she’s still insistent that I go. She warned me about if my personal tutor rings her again if I’m not in. I can’t go in. The Others are still there. They’re in my class, and I’ll die if I go in. I’ve ran out of excuses to stay off.
I’ve had multiple panic attacks this weekend just thinking about going in. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I need to get out of […]
2 common phrases echoing in my head today.
“Get busy living or get busy dying”
“Don’t put off till tomorrow what you can do today”
My Motto. It gets me through each day…what flavour is yours day?
by Kaylee_Bush
written by Kaylee_Bush
– Life is a lolly, enjoy it. Today, it’s cherry flavoured…tomorrow candy floss. -KB
Tomorrow I will attempt suicide for the second time. The first time was basically a joke as I had no idea what I was doing. Since then I have dedicated months to finding an effective method and I think I have.
Tonight I will be setting up a series of delayed emails that I will schedule to be sent out to people sometime next month.
Looking forward to going out the same way I have spent the majority of my life. Alone.
Everything to me, feels out of reach, out of place, too far gone, simply, far away.
I have to be happy; I know I have to be happy. I SHOULD be happy.
But I can’t. And I’m not.
I may be complaining about something minor, something great, so whats the problem?
I get the opportunity to go to a concert tomorrow, a first experience for me. But I’m crying tonight. Anxiety kicks me in the face and leaves my crying and broken. I’m scared. I’m afraid. I am NOT happy.
I am sad, to add on to it. A deep, unending sadness that makes me feel numb with my emotions. I’m not […]
I made some lovely sausage rolls and chips and I am about to settle down and FINALLY watch the first part of Mockingjay! I’ve been waiting to do this forever it seem now, blimey.
And I’ve got some lovely chocolate biscuits to indulge in after my lovely sausage rolls.
Yes, I know that it is very late over here but I don’t work tomorrow, so a bit of naughty is totally fine.
I have college tomorrow. I can’t go. I need to figure out a way to stay off. My mum will most likely yell and still send me in. Still, I need to try. The hard part is thinking of a way to put his into words. Most of the time I point blank refuse to leave my room without an explanation until 3/4 hours later. I doubt I’ll be able to do that this time round.
The voices and Angels have been bad all day, and the shadow people have been constant. I managed to get through last night with minimal injuries, so I haven’t mentioned […]
Every day I have to tell myself that today is the day that I’m going to turn it all around. I say that I’m going to win all the battles of my day, I’m going to make all the right decisions instead of panicking in every other moment and getting trapped in a shell of anxiety and worthlessness.
The situation would be bearable if I was making progress or winning. But I’m losing. Life is kicking my ass and I just want to call quits. I’ve been trying for long enough. If I was meant to make it and be normal I wouldn’t be in this […]
I fucked up really bad. I messed up my presentation. I had a panic attack in class. It was so embarrassing.
I had to leave school early. I was sent home so I can pull myself together. I have an exam tomorrow. I don’t know how I’ll make it through that.
When I got home to tell my parents I had a terrible day, that I couldn’t concentrate in class, my father threw a fit.
He told me, I don’t have the right to feel terrible. All of the problems in my family are because of me. I don’t have the right to say things are hard for […]
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“There is a very popular opinion that choosing life is inherently superior to choosing death. This belief that life is
inherently preferable to death is one of the most widespread superstitions. This bias constitutes one of the most obstinate mythologies of the human species.”- Mitchell Heisman-author of Suicide Note who shoot himself because he was a nihilist.
I am getting my salary tomorrow. And I also know someone that can get me a thing that is life threatening.
I found out a couple hours ago that I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. Needless to say, I have had panic attacks, and the Angels have became almost unbearable. I can’t see her tomorrow. I can’t see her ever. She’s going to get me. The Others are going to get me. Every session with her I’m restless, uncomfortable, and waiting for them to attack me.
They’re going to this time. Kemuel told me. He knows. I can’t go tomorrow, but my mother won’t let me miss another session. She’s letting them get me, she’s going to let them kill me. She’s part of them, and now I’m […]
I think I’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll cut and use pills. But what pills should I take.
Thanks to everyone here for listening to me opening up and encouraging me throughout my stay at S.P.! You have helped make my time in this world less miserable. Taking one last look through your kind comments on my posts so far… Why can’t everyone be like you guys?
Anyway… As the title says… This may be ”it”…
Wrote the letter, got the ”equipment” ready and all that other shit, heheh… Now I’m just waiting to get the motivation to do it, which will most likely come tomorrow when I’ll yet again be reminded how big of a failure I am. Whelp… Here goes nothing…
By the way, […]
Today I wanna talk about suicide. I don’t mean to offend anyone when I say this, but most of you are looking for the easy way out. Now I know you’re thinking ‘You think this is the easy way out?’ When really it is the easy way out. You don’t want to stay and fight through the pain like most of us have. You can’t handle the pain so you want to end it all. The point of this post is to tell you all that are contemplating suicide that you don’t have to end it and you’re not alone. Look at all these people […]
the court is giving me 60 days in which to get clean and fix my mental problems or i’m not allowed time with my kid. i get drug tested tomorrow and saturday.
tomorrow is fucked. if i stop tonight/this morning – i wonder if the coke and alcohol will show up saturday?
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