One day I will get my happy ever after, but I am so tired of waiting for it to come. Â I wanna take everything in to my own hands and have the life that I know I deserve but of coarse I can’t and I wanna know why can’t I have it. Â I dated a guy for 10 years, I mean seriously you would think he would be my happy ever after but wrong. Â He decided that being a crackhead was more important and I just couldn’t do it anymore I was physically and mentally drained. Â 1 week after we break up he has a new girlfriend who was a junior in high school, it blew my mind. Â 2 months later I came home to celebrate my birthday and instead I found my sister, she hung herself in my parents garage. Â Literally the last thing I ever expected to happen.
It was not her 1st time, it was the 3rd. Â The next 2 weeks were so hard and long. Â Burying my sister was the hardest thing I will ever have to do. Â Of coarse my ex comes back into the picture and says he wants to be there for me. Â In reality he wasn’t. Â He made it clear that he just wanted to be a friend to me nothing more and that was ok because I was to vulnerable to have a relationship at that time. Â But I couldn’t handle dealing with my sisters death and him. Â So we cut all ties. Â A few months later I heard he had another new girlfriend and she was pregnant. Â Thats what hurts the most is that I feel like I’m drowning and hes on top of the world.
So from that day forward I vowed to have the best life I can for my sister and just sit back and wait for my prince to come. Â Now its been a year and I am still waiting. Â I just hope one day he comes so I can have someone to connect with since I can’t do it with my sister.