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I Should Have

by raspberryblower 6/20/2015

written by raspberryblower

I do believe in God. I was in a car accident when I was three. I was in the back seat, my Dad was driving. As we were turning right at a stop sign we were t-boned by a huge SUV. My Dad was knocked out, had a dislocated shoulder and a concussion. I didn’t get a scratch. It wasn’t a terrible accident. The car was totaled. But not a scratch? Not even a shard of glass cutting my arm? After the accident, everybody told me that I told them about a lady in white with wings. They said I said she kept me company, […]

6/20/2015 3 comments

Need a friend.

by maninder 6/12/2015

written by maninder

Hello. Idk where to start. I’ll make it short. So,long story short. I have extreme social anxiety/phobia. The worst thing is I get so sweaty whenever a girl passes by lol. I haven’t talked to a female until today more than just few seconds. I believe this is the only thing keeping me behind in everything because I don’t usually get anxiety attacks when I’m out around males.
So, I was thinking to get a female genuine true friend online who might’ve social anxiety or whatever it would be,whether depression or something else, So we could help each other in a two way street. Give […]

6/12/2015 4 comments

You’ll laugh at this

by TheRoadSoFar 6/9/2015

written by TheRoadSoFar

It’s like fucking 5 o’ clock in the morning, a time in which normal people can sleep right? Well screw that! What a better time than this? This just happened to me.

I was talking to my best friend (and unluckily for me I’m in love with her). That’s why I’m awake.

So yeah, things were going normal until she said “I love you” and lots of hearts. For some reason I knew she wasn’t the one who was sending those messages. But then again you couldn’t imagine how happy I was.

Guess what? I was right. I then received a voice message that said it wasn’t […]

6/9/2015 4 comments

Decomposing

by kinziek 6/8/2015

written by kinziek

People say ‘just give it time, hang in there’ etc but what’s the point? It’s just more time to decompose, for your mind to deteriorate.

10 years ago someone said to me ‘you’re on the cusp of a really great relationship’, now that person is married and I haven’t had one relationship since. If that’s not a sign to slice your throat and let the blood pour out until you’re gone I don’t know what is.

None of my ‘friends’ talk to me anymore, or invite me anywhere, I never go out anywhere. When I texted everyone that I was changing my phone number no one responded. […]

6/8/2015 8 comments

Just one more day

by Thalen 6/8/2015

written by Thalen

Right now I’m lying here in bed, like every weekend, overthinking, like trapped inside my own mind. I wonder what may be wrong, I can’t find any answer. Since I was a little child, I knew there was something different in me, too shy, too nervous, too sensitive, too depressed.

I grew in a humble home, my parents never went to a school, dad was an alcoholic and agressive person, often came drunk and angry at the nights. Sober or drunk, whatever, he always seemed disappointed about me, and that was confusing to me, because I always did my best in everything. Mom was a victim […]

6/8/2015 3 comments

Unrequited Love

by FearInLiving 6/4/2015

written by FearInLiving

I came here to get help .. so please no negative comments . Feel free to share your stories with me , I’m open to anything but , here’s mine ..

Its crazy . It hurts . It makes you feel so insane & lonely . You loving someone you know you’ll never have a chance with . What’s worse is never telling the person how you feel . When you constantly think of him more than yourself . You cry sometimes when you come to reality , when it all hits you .. it’ll never happen . Stop being irrational . Don’t be stupid . […]

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my dream

by SorryEveryone 6/1/2015

written by SorryEveryone

i had a dream last night

i dreamt that i had died in my sleep and my spirit was standing by my dead body.

my mom came in to wake me up for school. she kept shaking and shaking me to get up.

i tried to tell her i died but she couldnt hear me.

when she realised i had passed she started to cry and my brother came in and cried too cause my mom told him what happened.

and i felt bad for leaving them so i stayed with them forever until they died.

but i couldnt go with them because i missed my chance so i was stuck […]

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countdown home

by godbless 5/29/2015

written by godbless

It’s weird knowing I’m not going to make it past June. I’m not even sure what day, I’m thinking around early-mid June. Ideally anywhere from the 3rd-18th. I’ve always been alone in life and I’m going to be alone in death. I definitely don’t feel worthy of God’s time. I’ll learn from the experience and move on if an afterlife exists. I’m not doing anything different until then. I’m still just reading, hanging out with my dog, walking around, and praying for others. Lately I’ve talked with distant relatives at a family type event (I usually skip going) and it wasn’t really fun at all. […]

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5/29/2015 4 comments

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Time to leave

by Harlot.Rebel 5/26/2015

written by Harlot.Rebel

so much shit has been going on this the first time in a while that I had a chance to breathe and just let the tears flow because after this little moment its back to reality ik I need to leave this place my therapist said it was not a safe place and I never knew what she meant but now i know.. That place is eating me alive there’s no love or comfort I need to get away in trying to come up with the money to buy a bus ticket and get the fuck away from here I just need to survive until […]

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5/26/2015 2 comments

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by Alonelyfool 5/25/2015

written by Alonelyfool

Growing up I was daddy’s little girl until my brother showed up. He took my shine and he could do no wrong. He’s never had responsibilities or the pressures that I’ve had being the oldest. And I’ll always resent him for that.

My daddy used to hit my momma. I was the oldest. So I was smart enough to know. I watched. I heard. I cried for her. Then he started abusing me and my brother. My momma knew. She watched. She heard. She NEVER intervened. NEVER! I resent her for that. She let us grow up in that household. She kept us intrapped in […]

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5/25/2015 5 comments

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Cast Off Recklessness

by The Distress 5/22/2015

written by The Distress

Why be so rash and impulsive? Because as hard as emotion can be it can also be what drives us to soaring heights and selfless, pure love. What’s the point in acting until the uncertainty and fears are unveiled and reconciled: the choice presents itself with a little time. Patience leads to places and feelings never fathomed possible. Cast off recklessness with a stronger force of commitment and certainty.

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5/22/2015 4 comments

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It’s really hard to go to work.,,

by BrokenStarr 5/18/2015

written by BrokenStarr

…Every day, and act like things are normal, when you plan on ending your life in a couple weeks.

We’ve had a vacation planned. My parents are paying for most of it, and my kids really deserve it. So I’m holding out until after that.

I’d love to just blow off work, but my family will need the money (and it would be a dead giveaway…no pun intended).

~sigh~

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5/18/2015 0 comment

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too weird to live

by Hunter s 5/7/2015

written by Hunter s

Obviously my name isn’t hunter s, but he is a man i admire and whose writing has helped me immensely through the years. i should start by saying that i’m not here to write my suicide note. not yet at least. i’m here because i’m broken. i have almost nothing left to lose (i say almost because i’m still alive, sort of..) and no reason to live but no reason to die. I’m here because my heart is broken the venom from all the shit people i call friends and family has been building up and burning my insides for so long that its finally […]

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5/7/2015 1 comment

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I’m exhausted

by Agelki 4/27/2015

written by Agelki

I don’t think i can live like this anymore, i’m losing my mind…i’m not living, this is not how life should be. I wish i was alive.
I’m considering jumping from the top of the building where i live at but i should wait until it’s dark outside…
Nothing makes sense now, this is weird

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4/27/2015 64 comments

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Bruised, bleeding and conflicted

by RogerRabbit10210622 4/27/2015

written by RogerRabbit10210622

I am seriously considering suicide right now; the past week and a half truly. I know most people on here are suicidal but up until recently I’ve just been battling depression and self harm….. but now I could do it at any time….its a constant pro-con battle in my mind. I keep trying to reach out because i feel myself slipping away, but my effort is only met with rejection and bitter disappointment.

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4/27/2015 1 comment

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How do you know when it’s time

by srqfish47 4/22/2015

written by srqfish47

31 make lots of money, try to be a good person yet it seems like I have a tendency to ruin every relationship now this time it was my marriage divorce is almost final. No one I meet ever understands what it’s like to feel this way I’m just fucking unhappy all the time unless I drink so much I “feel” fine until it wears off.

Therapy , psychs, meds none of it changes anything I want out…….
But then take into consideration my family how will they feel? Even my soon to be ex wife…….

Am I selfish for giving up? My whole life I’ve tried […]

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4/22/2015 2 comments

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Everything was good until my last court hearing.

by Benjamin2004 4/19/2015

written by Benjamin2004

I’d gone almost sixty days since my last suicidal thought. My court date last week changed all of that and suicide is again heavy on my mind. Now I am faced with the prospect of my future self being happier than my current self. Which do I believe. I don’t see happiness in the future.

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4/19/2015 1 comment

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A Curious Little Story

by GallinicideGuilty 4/16/2015

written by GallinicideGuilty

Sorry, guys, this “little story” might be a bit long for you, but maybe you’ll find something interesting.

When my parents separated, I had to move to another school, another house, another city. The changes were drastic. From the gorgeous three-floor plus balcony house we had to the new studio-type apartment barely the size of my old bedroom. From the Dad I knew and (maybe) loved, to this absolute stranger my Mom claimed to love. My problem was at home and I found ways to run away from it.

I made a ton of friends in my new school. I came home late most days, other days, […]

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4/16/2015 4 comments

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I am a liar.

by bittermountains 4/6/2015

written by bittermountains

Everyone lies. People upon people pass us by, fake smiles plastered upon their lips, a reassertion of their so-called happiness as they walk down the rain-spattered streets. Lying is as natural in humans as it is to breathe.

So why am I constantly paralyzed by my secrets? Why am I haunted by the constant weight of the extent of my depression. There is not a single night that passes that I could not feel the cold claws of guilt eat me up. The air turns to fire in my lungs, suffocating me, burning out the life from right inside. The hands that hold me near and […]

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