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Keep Myself Alive from Get Scared

by FreakOfNature 3/4/2015

written by FreakOfNature

I always ask myself

How could this darker cloud make me stronger now.

I’ll always ask myself

When will this go away?

When will this change?

Oh! I don’t wanna, wanna wait.

All of this pain,

Oh! will it, will it go away?

I ask myself this everyday.

[Chorus:]

I just wanna leave this place behind.

Every time I see your face in mine.

I just wanna leave this place behind.

Every time I see your face in mine.

I sink and drink myself to sleep.

Of course I think I’m a lot stronger now.

I gotta catch myself

To kick this over, make it go away.

When will this change?

Oh! I don’t wanna, wanna wait.

Ohhh! of this pain!

Oh! will it, will it […]

3/4/2015 0 comment

At all.

by hellblau 2/28/2015

written by hellblau

I’m just a sad song with nothing to say, about a life long wait for a hospital stay. And if you think that I’m wrong, this never meant nothing to you.

At all.

2/28/2015 0 comment

Suicide is selfish?

by This_iz_me 2/22/2015

written by This_iz_me

Hello everyone. It’s been awhile since I have logged on. I been dealing with the depression on my own. I have had good and bad days. I tired to talk to a counselor at school about my suicidal thinking, but I was put on a waiting list. I have to wait a whole month before someone will even talk to me. By then I could have killed myself… Just saying.

I have tried praying…

well, now I am here.

what are your thought? Do you think suicide is a selfish way to go? Have you ever heard someone tell you that? People tell me that it’s selfish? But how […]

2/22/2015 13 comments

Why?

by kateanne143 2/18/2015

written by kateanne143

Angel, you knew my dad was going to kill himself. Why didn’t you tell anyone? 3 years. I only would have had to wait 3 years to see him again, but you took that from me. I will NEVER forgive you.

2/18/2015 0 comment

V-8

by Skeleton100 2/17/2015

written by Skeleton100

9:20 PM. V-8 + Lit. Homework.

Could’ve had a V-8.

Could’ve swallowed more moons.

Could’ve told you the truth.

Could’ve spoken your mind.

Could’ve hated your dad’s girlfriend.

Who’s humming? Someone’s humming

Valentine’s Day is depressing, not because you’re alone, but because it’s when your mother is pleading for flowers and your dad says sorry, there’s only ten dollars till Tuesday, can I wait? I love you, I promise, you’ll get a big bouquet if you can wait till the 16th…it’s still love, right?

This Valentine’s Day, my mom’s in the hospital and my dad’s with his girlfriend and I don’t know who to love anymore

2/17/2015 0 comment

is it worth it?

by ifonlytheycouldsee 2/16/2015

written by ifonlytheycouldsee

I’m new here everyone. I came upon this site because I was just messing around on Google searching suicide stuff and now here I am. Well first off I wanted to post a little insight on what I should with what situation I’m in right now. I live in Oklahoma, I was born in New Mexico but I moved back and forth until my mom decided that we should move here for financial reasons and because she didn’t want me going to middle school in New Mexico because of the bad influences. Anyways, I’m only 15 and I would say I have had a tough […]

2/16/2015 4 comments

Buried alive

by nozmoking 2/14/2015

written by nozmoking

I’ve always had two insurmountable fears. First is the fear of drowning, and second is the fear of being buried alive. When I was a kid I was deathly afraid of dying in a falling elevator but I outgrew that for some reason. Lately though I have been feeling like I have been buried alive. Trapped in a dark, silent coffin in a concrete burial vault beneath six feet of cold, hard dirt. I can kick, I can scream until my tonsils bleed (oh wait, I don’t have any tonsils), I can pound and scratch until my fingers are bloodied and all that I can […]

2/14/2015 2 comments

Still Here, Regrettably

by Matt 2/12/2015

written by Matt

Well, I’m still here.

The last time I tried to do this it was so easy to get away and to be alone for hours, with no chance of anyone checking on me.

Woke up this morning, I didn’t eat because I didn’t want to. Nothing tastes right anymore. Had a shower, the warmth of the water felt nice. I forgot myself in the heat. I’d wait until she left, get the belt and go. Only she wanted me to go with her to visit relatives. After a shouting match she apologized to me and left.

Excellent, I’d been set back by half an hour, but that was […]

2/12/2015 3 comments

Suicide question

by ahannah123 2/3/2015

written by ahannah123

I have only a plastic bag and a razor blade I was planning to wait till I’m 18 and get a shotgun would you put the gun in your mouth?

2/3/2015 15 comments

by Bri 1/11/2015

written by Bri

They come at night, to pull me in… I try to scream, but for some reason I can’t.

The sun goes down, there is no sound, I fight but now there is no one around.

Help me please, I can’t do this alone.

But help won’t come, and if they do; by then it’ll be too late

Because, well… I guess I just couldn’t stand the wait.

1/11/2015 0 comment

Trying so hard

by alina_01 1/9/2015

written by alina_01

Well I had some medical issues that had been occurring over the past two weeks. I noticed some symptoms and panicked and got a full blood std test last friday. I was flipping out in so much pain and couldn’t wait till tuesday for the blood results. So I saw a Doctor on Monday and was given a clinical diagnoses and told I had genital herpes. I was devastated and cried but I accepted it, I was going to wait for my blood test to confirm what I had already been told before I spoke to the person I was currently seeing. I get my […]

1/9/2015 4 comments

??tolerance

by disappearingme97 1/3/2015

written by disappearingme97

The pain is getting worse. The pain is getting longer. The pain is getting more frequent.

Maybe I should keep quiet about it. A silent suicide.

Yeah. I won’t talk about it anymore. If I die, then so be it. It’ll be all natural, won’t it.

Stay calm. Patience. Just be patient. Just wait. Let it be natural. All in all, it’ll be a better memory for those who remember.

Be patient.

1/3/2015 1 comment

Biding My Time

by IndigoMasquerade 12/22/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

Guess I’m on here a lot lately. I just have nowhere else to put these thoughts out there on…I’m hurting so bad. I can’t wait until January 5th, but I have to, in a way. It’s relieving to think about though. To think that my pain will end and I can just escape it all.

12/22/2014 3 comments

Just my thinkin

by daonenonly 12/3/2014

written by daonenonly

Should I live or die tonight? Whats the point in living? What’s the point in stayin alive when u know nothin good is going to happen. What’s the point in stayin here in this world. I’m just sick and tired of having to live like this..but I’ll believe that one day something will change my
life. I’ll wait until I can’t wait no more.

12/3/2014 2 comments

We can help each other

by charlieregal 11/23/2014

written by charlieregal

Lets do it. Lets start a trust fund. We all sell some pf our things then put it in a trust and agree to all meet someplace and use the tust money to pay the fair for who ever wants to come. Then we buy a bomb and just hold hands and sing a prayer or a hymn or something and just wait for it to us all up. Don’t you see that this is your chance!? Stop procastinating! We can do this together don’t you see! we can help each other. We’re all in the same boat so lets just punch a hole in […]

11/23/2014 9 comments

i can’t deal with the guilt

by sitkahsheaven 11/16/2014

written by sitkahsheaven

my best friend, my second half, for years we wanted to kill ourselves together, a suicide pact. And a couple days after my birthday two years ago he hung himself. And I can’t deal with the guilt I don’t want to wait anymore to die my time is soon. I have no right to live. I just want to be with my second soul in heaven anywhere but here. I’d rather see blackness for eternity alone then to be here one more day not being with him

11/16/2014 3 comments

by StarsShineInDarkness 10/14/2014

written by StarsShineInDarkness

You cut and you wait for them to heal

Its been 5 years. I’m just starting to realize that they never will

10/14/2014 0 comment

hopeless tomorrow

by Angeleyes42 10/7/2014

written by Angeleyes42

Well tomorrow is Tuesday and i have class for 13 hours. I have a quiz that I can’t study for but with the right thing i know I can ace it . Tomorrow, I will try to become independent but well see how that goes. I am trying to accept that my grades don’t really matter unless its general ed. I can’t wait to leave this school and go someplace I belong.

10/7/2014 0 comment

threenine

by Bisban 10/2/2014

written by Bisban

I’m the beast of hell

I can’t wait until I’m reborn

Just so that I can die

Walk of life, spirit of death

Let me be reborn, the world already

Dead

Alpha Sebastian, you do not exist

What next.

10/2/2014 0 comment

by dead 9/19/2014

written by dead

For English we had to write an essay making something personal into a public service announcement. Naturally, I chose mental illness. This is my personal aspect:

Self preservation is the body’s natural instinct to protect itself from harm or death. In times of starvation, a human will resort to cannibalism, or in times of extreme stress, our sympathetic nervous system will release adrenaline in a “fight or flight” response. So what happens with our brains fight with our bodies on whether or not to live? When the brain wants nothing more to kill itself off than the body naturally tries to keep going? Mental illness […]

9/19/2014 0 comment

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